{"id":130111,"date":"2025-04-28T16:08:38","date_gmt":"2025-04-28T23:08:38","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/?page_id=130111"},"modified":"2025-04-28T16:08:38","modified_gmt":"2025-04-28T23:08:38","slug":"confessions-of-sandy-bradshaw","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/?page_id=130111","title":{"rendered":"Confessions of Sandy Bradshaw"},"content":{"rendered":"

BB-6-RR<\/p>\n

This is my formal request to be assigned to take care of Grace Stoen \u2013 in light of my long-standing emotional commitment with her. Due to the intensity of the relationship \u2013 I feel I must stay with her till the end!!<\/p>\n

S. L. Bradshaw<\/p>\n

—–<\/p>\n

BB-6-DDD<\/p>\n

Dear Pastor,<\/p>\n

I have to confess what I have done on my job as a Deputy Probation Officer. I have taken people\u2019s records and altered forms and taken people’s money when they have paid restitution I have also stolen from the secretaries\u2019 purses when they have left the room for a moment.<\/p>\n

I am really sorry \u2013 I know you would not approve of my actions. Please ask God to forgive me.<\/p>\n

Sandra L. Bradshaw<\/p>\n

—–<\/p>\n

BB-6-HHH<\/p>\n

Father (business-private)<\/p>\n

I would like to go “visit” Mr. Carey if possible \u2013 I gladly volunteer my services there \u2013<\/p>\n

I have a long-standing “comradery” [camaraderie] with the gentleman \u2013<\/p>\n

SB<\/p>\n

—–<\/p>\n

BB-6-DDDD<\/p>\n

I have had sex with Jim Jones at my request. I thoroughly enjoyed every minute of it. It was against his will. I was desperate and begged him to or I told him I would kill myself.<\/p>\n

Jim Jones saved my life by having sex with me.<\/p>\n

Sandra L. Bradshaw<\/p>\n

——<\/p>\n

BB-6-EEEE<\/p>\n

I am a communist terrorist. I have done violent acts to destroy people & property in the past \u2013 In spite of my Pastor’s teachings that I be a pacifist.<\/p>\n

I have this compulsion to destroy this system by violent means.<\/p>\n

Sandra L. Bradshaw<\/p>\n

——<\/p>\n

BB-6-BBBBB1 \u2013 BBBBB2<\/p>\n

to Jim Jones<\/p>\n

Please \u2013 let me go on the next plane \u2013 I ask only that of you \u2013<\/p>\n

By your mercy \u2013 please release me \u2013<\/p>\n

Sandra Bradshaw<\/p>\n

—–<\/p>\n

BB-6-WWWWW<\/p>\n

I must confess that I am a violent revolutionary and a practicing Lesbian.<\/p>\n

Please ask God to forgive me.<\/p>\n

Sandra L. Bradshaw<\/p>\n

—–<\/p>\n

BB-6-BBBBBB<\/p>\n

NOTES ON SANDY JJ SAID TO KEEP<\/p>\n

    \n
  1. She hated me for orgasm<\/li>\n
  2. Planned everything at her house, perfume, etc.<\/li>\n
  3. Packed guns badly<\/li>\n
  4. Was supposed to be suicidal, but didn’t act like it. “suicide on the rocks” \u2013 that was the way she got her way ;<\/li>\n
  5. Cat in the bed “I will not he separated from my cat.”<\/li>\n
  6. Crates badly packed.<\/li>\n
  7. Possible poisoning of Marceline<\/li>\n
  8. Always in calculating control.<\/li>\n
  9. She asked him to leave while there was still time, the Italian Alps.,<\/li>\n
  10. The theory of the revolutionary mistress.<\/li>\n<\/ol>\n

    —–<\/p>\n

    BB-6-JJJJJJ1 \u2013 JJJJJJ2<\/p>\n

    Ingram \u2013 Personal<\/p>\n

    Sandy Ingram<\/p>\n

    (first \u2013 I used to masturbate by tutoring on the arm of a chair at about the age of six \u2013 homosexual activities at school \u2013 in the bathroom<\/p>\n

    also \u2013 about 8 or 9 \u2013 with a neighbor & my sister, I also once with my cousin \u2013 homosexual at about the same time a little boy peeked at me \u2013<\/p>\n

    now for the big stuff:<\/p>\n

    18 \u2013 heterosexual \u2013 Bob Timmerman \u2013 true love<\/p>\n

    20 \u2013 Gary Ford \u2013 he was still a virgin at 22 \u2013 it was a challenge<\/p>\n

    21 \u2013 one night stand \u2013 John something \u2013 I was drunk<\/p>\n

    22 \u2013 Ivan [last name illegible] \u2013 my Italian lover<\/p>\n

    22 \u2013 Alvin Canfield \u2013 one of my professors \u2013 I thought I was “Candy” rescuing “old” men<\/p>\n

    22 \u2013 my aunt’s husband \u2013 ditto above \u2013 I was way off base on these<\/p>\n

    23 \u2013 Steve somebody \u2013 some bastard I picked up with (Masochistic time)<\/p>\n

    20-24 & up \u2013 Mickey Ingram \u2013 you see \u2013 I got around even then \u2013 he was always my anchor tho<\/p>\n

    22 \u2013 Wesley Brown \u2013 my Black Panther I thought about love \u2013 he taught me many other things \u2013 this one was very rewarding<\/p>\n

    20 \u2013 Jim something \u2013 he was a crazy artist<\/p>\n

    I’m pretty sure that’s it \u2013 S.<\/p>\n

    —–<\/p>\n

    BB-6-KKKKKK<\/p>\n

    It is amazing how Pastor’s love and protective guidance has kept me alive all these years. I have not kept his teachings \u2013 I never meditate before I drive for example. There are many things I don’t do that I should.<\/p>\n

    I have always had a terrible death wish \u2013 in many areas \u2013 especially driving \u2013<\/p>\n

    I am so sorry \u2013 I can take this life no longer \u2013<\/p>\n

    Sandra L. Bradshaw<\/p>\n

    —–<\/p>\n

    BB-6-LLLLLL<\/p>\n

    To call SB at work \u2013 468-4271 \u2013 make free call \u2013 leave phone # of phone booth<\/p>\n

    SB can then return call from work to booth \u2013 (can\u2019t however keep calling church # as I have to record all LD-C\u2019s\u00a0 & it would be too noticeable)<\/p>\n

    —–<\/p>\n

    BB-6-MMMMMM<\/p>\n

    Plan<\/u>: from SB<\/p>\n

    If I am stuck in the Valley when things happen \u2013 I plan on doing what I can to infiltrate the Magi party \u2013 and do what I can to kill as many as possible \u2013 right up to the top \u2013 to Bill Wilkenson in Denton, LA.<\/p>\n

    I also plan on getting some of our own traitors along the way \u2013<\/p>\n

    This is my contingency plan \u2013<\/p>\n

    SB<\/p>\n

    Meanwhile I will study what I can on these fuckers \u2013 I could possibly infiltrate the organization anyway \u2013 & would be very willing to \u2013<\/p>\n

    —–<\/p>\n

    BB-6-BBBBBB1<\/p>\n

    Sandy Ingram<\/p>\n

    I can only have an orgasm when I am on the top position \u2013 I guess this is a carryover from the days when I use to masturbate by teetering over the arm of a chair \u2013 we very rarely have internal intercourse unless it is a real occasion \u2013 I have had a lot of trouble with various yeast infections which intercourse worsens \u2013 also the dreaded fear of pregnancy has cut down on my enjoyment of sex \u2013 When I was taking birth control pills I enjoyed it more.<\/p>\n

    I can’t really think of particular fantasies except when I have an orgasm it feels like I am riding a wave & it suddenly rushes over me. In order to have one I have to think of what Mickey means to me & how much I love him & I hold him as close as I can & I want to please him \u2013 but I’m not usually a very good sex partner \u2013 I can be if I want \u2013 but it just doesn’t interest me that much \u2013 So I don’t fantasize about sex that much \u2013 when I do I guess it’s to feed my ego about how “desirable” I am, etc.<\/p>\n

    —–<\/p>\n

    BB-6-BBBBBBB2<\/p>\n

    I also fantasize about him being able to see me in a mirror overhead \u2013 also of me doing exotic dances for him<\/p>\n

    Also, I like him to rub my breasts with some force<\/p>\n

    2 \u2013 One of the most dissatisfying things \u2013 usually is Mickey wanting to \u201ceat\u201d me all the time \u2013 that is \u2013 when we are not in the process of making love \u2013 & nothing turns me off more than to be half-asleep & have him “pawing\u201d at me & it gives me all kind of guilt feelings to have to squash him.<\/p>\n

    There are many “best” things about him \u2013 he is gentle & he cares so much for me & is always concerned \u2013 maybe most of all \u2013 I know he really respects me & that’s awfully important.<\/p>\n

    3 \u2013 I have not yet felt particularly hostile toward my pastor \u2013 probably just because I haven’t been here all that long & if he stepped on my toes really hard I guess I will be moaning too \u2013<\/p>\n

    4 \u2013 I follow my pastor because I know he is right & what he speaks is the truth. In the beginning it wasn’t clear about survival and a “what will we do” attitude. Now I know there is no other way to be real \u2013 to have my life mean anything \u2013 sometimes I slip back into a “I wish my time was my own” attitude \u2013 but these patterns will be broken<\/p>\n

    —–<\/p>\n

    BB-6-BBBBBBB4<\/p>\n

    in time. This is not an easy way \u2013 but for me there is no other way worth anything \u2013 it seems I’ve been looking all my life for something like this \u2013 people who really care about each other & not just talk & with so noble a leader.<\/p>\n

    But it would be false to say that Jim is not somewhat of a father figure to me \u2013 he is \u2013 I look up to him for love & guidance & wisdom \u2013 like I would expect a child to do to his father. I also would be lying if I said there was no sexual aspect involved \u2013 Jim is very appealing & represents a source of strength and stability to me \u2013 but I do not fantasize about him sexually other than the strength of the circle of his arms sort of thing \u2013 when I have dreamed about him \u2013 he has been as a source of guidance & gives you courage \u2013 never sexual<\/p>\n

    5 \u2013 I hate this mother-fucking system & was preparing to blow it up before I came to this church \u2013 I called them “pigs” & still find it hard not to.<\/p>\n

    I just did not know about this whole thing \u2013 being here [illegible word] new & baffling & question only [illegible word] very few things are starting<\/p>\n

    —–<\/p>\n

    BB-6-BBBBBBB3<\/p>\n

    to hit home to me \u2013 like the Holocaust for one \u2013 I have no idea who Jim is what power flows through him \u2013 I’m completely baffled \u2013 this is a time in my life when I’m emptying of old things & have not yet begun to fill with new \u2013 I have great anticipation & feel a sense of trust and comfort in knowing something very beautiful & good awaits.<\/p>\n

    6 \u2013 this ties in with the previous question \u2013 I don’t believe in God. I want to \u2013 but I was never really involved with ritual etc. I tried it somewhat \u2013 even went to the high Episcopal Church \u2013 but then left all that for a personal philosophy of “living my life as best I can” & not worrying further \u2013 I have always thought tho that Jesus was a truly good man \u2013 but cannot tie it all in to beyond this world \u2013<\/p>\n

    I do believe & always have believed in a universal life force \u2013 vido \u2013 I think it’s called & I believe all things to be part of this universal flow \u2013 no death \u2013 just parts of everything \u2013 didn’t think too much about evolving sort of thing \u2013<\/p>\n

    Guess that’s it \u2013 whoever you are \u2013 if you must be reminded I thank you for being so concerned about us little people \u2013 Sandy<\/p>\n

    —–<\/p>\n

    BB-6-JJJJJJJ<\/p>\n

    The only person I have had sex with for the last eight years has been J.<\/p>\n

    S. Bradshaw<\/p>\n

    —–<\/p>\n

    BB-6-NNNNNNN<\/p>\n

    My highest ambition is to die usefully in an effort to destroy Fascist America & our enemies (particularly those that have gone out.)<\/p>\n

    I have no use for any of my so-called relatives. None of them has any character or principle at all. They are Fascist, bigoted little people \u2013 I hate them and all they stand for \u2013 I would kill them in a minute for their insurance money.<\/p>\n

    I hate this Amerikkkan government and the pig-faced mother-fucker \u2013 the president \u2013 that says he leads it. I will do all I can to see that it comes down. I will not live in this country except to work towards its destruction!<\/p>\n

    Believe these words \u2013 cause they are written in truth \u2013<\/p>\n

    Sandra L. Bradshaw<\/p>\n

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