{"id":13142,"date":"2013-02-17T21:49:46","date_gmt":"2013-02-17T21:49:46","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/alternativejonestown.com\/?page_id=13142"},"modified":"2024-04-17T13:53:19","modified_gmt":"2024-04-17T20:53:19","slug":"jjautobio","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/?page_id=13142","title":{"rendered":"Jim Jones&#8217; Autobiographical Statements"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Jim Jones did not create a large written record, either about himself or the movement that he led. He probably wrote the text for <a href=\"http:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/?page_id=14110\">The Letter Killeth<\/a>, a booklet that attacks the King James version of the Bible for its inconsistencies and errors, its defenses of slavery and other evils, and its graphic acts of violence which were condoned or ordered by God. He was likely the author of the booklet <i><a href=\"https:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/10\/01-04-JJFatherDivine.pdf\">Pastor Jones Meets Rev. M. J. Divine<\/a><\/i>, although that may have been ghost-written. He certainly did not write either of the two following autobiographical statements recovered in Jonestown, even though they are both written in the first person.<\/p>\n<p>The text of the <a href=\"http:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/10\/JJAutobio1.pdf\">first statement<\/a> \u2013 headlined \u201cJim\u2019s Commentary About Himself\u201d \u2013 is an edited transcript of <a href=\"http:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/?page_id=27339\">Q 134<\/a>,  in which Jones describes his life with a focus on his turn to Marxism. An extended description of that tape appears <a href=\"http:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/?page_id=28044\">here<\/a>.  Portions of \u201cJim\u2019s Commentary About Himself\u201d may also be found on pages 76-79 in <i><a href=\"https:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/wp-content\/uploads\/2023\/11\/dearpeoplerememberingjonestown.pdf\">Dear People: Remembering Jonestown<\/a><\/i>, edited by Denice Stephenson (Berkeley, Calif.: Heyday Books, 2005).<\/p>\n<p>The majority of the <a href=\"http:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/10\/JJAutobio2.pdf\">second statement<\/a> offers much more detail about his elementary and high school years, his relationship with Marceline and his children, his experience as a pastor and a member of the Human Rights Commission in Indianapolis, the beginnings of Peoples Temple and \u2013 as with the first statement \u2013 his reasons for embracing communism. The tapes from which these recollections were transcribed have not yet been located, but the opening paragraph of the statement identifies the origin of this statement as \u201csome tapes.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>The opening paragraph reads:<\/p>\n<blockquote><p>&nbsp;The following is a transcription of some tapes that were made sometime in September of 1977. It was late at night and a few of us were sitting around, talking. Jim rarely talks about himself in a personal sense, but that night he started talking, and continued for several hours. We were fortunate enough to get it down on tape. In transcribing the material, I\u2019ve left it pretty much unedited, except to try to indicate topics or clarify transitions in subject matter, etc. I left Jim\u2019s syntax, language etc. as is, and I hope that these pages will help convey some idea, or better yet, some \u201cfeel\u201d for Jim as a person.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p>The identity of the transcriber \u2013 and author of the paragraph \u2013 is unknown.<\/p>\n<p>The statement also gathers others of Jones\u2019 reminiscences from the period. About two-thirds through \u2013 on page 13 of the 20-page single-spaced document \u2013 the autobiography turns into memoir, as Jones speaks about his mother, Lynetta Jones \u201ca few hours after [her] death\u2026 December 9, 1977.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>On page 15, a transcribed tape (which also has not yet been located) dated October 1977 begins with Jones\u2019 experiences in Brazil, then continues with the Temple\u2019s final years in Indiana, the decision to move to California, and his conclusions about his own life. The last two paragraphs read:<\/p>\n<blockquote><p>Its [It\u2019s] amazing to me that any one who\u2019s ever set in my organization can paint me as such a bad guy when I\u2019ve always talked about my guilt \u2013 where I missed, where I failed, worried if I missed one person\u2019s hand when going down the aisle. If I went to visit one person who was sick, I had to visit them all. I did that for years until I just had to quit it. I couldn\u2019t take it. Those people [Jones\u2019 critics] saw that. How can they rationalize that away?<\/p>\n<p>I\u2019ve often stressed publically [publicly] that I wished I\u2019d never been born. I deeply appreciate those who intellectually reassure me, but sure there are things I would\u2019ve done over, a lot of things. But I never could live by any other guidelines, follow a different political ideal. It\u2019s just not right for babies to go to bed hungry. That\u2019s unacceptable. And in spite of the factionalism of Communism, and I\u2019m no messianic worshipper \u2013 I don\u2019t worship at the altar of any rigid dogma, I believe every society has to find its own solutions \u2013 its own socialism. But whatever difficulty we may face with nationalism, with race, in the liberation of oppressed peoples, its [it\u2019s] better to try for a right goal than to see the selfishness that those who, once believing, have turned their backs on their ideals. And I\u2019ve never met such cowards and hollow, conniving people, as exemplified by some who have left and who have become so belligerent.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p><b>\u201cJim\u2019s Commentary About Himself,\u201d<\/b> RYMUR 89-4286-O-1-A1-a \u2013 O-1-A1-h<br \/>\n<span class=\"tabbed\"><a href=\"http:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/10\/JJAutobio1.pdf\">PDF<\/a><\/span><br \/>\n<span class=\"tabbed\"><a href=\"http:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/?page_id=27339\">Q 134<\/a> <\/span><\/p>\n<p><b>An untitled collection of reminiscences,<\/b> RYMUR 89-4286-O-1-B-1 \u2013 O-1-B-19<br \/>\n<span class=\"tabbed\"><a href=\"http:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/10\/JJAutobio2.pdf\">PDF<\/a><\/span><br \/>\n<span class=\"tabbed\"><a href=\"http:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/?page_id=13143\">Text<\/a><\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Array<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":6,"featured_media":0,"parent":13225,"menu_order":10,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-13142","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry"],"acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/13142","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/6"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=13142"}],"version-history":[{"count":14,"href":"https:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/13142\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":126834,"href":"https:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/13142\/revisions\/126834"}],"up":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/13225"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=13142"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}