{"id":30229,"date":"2013-07-25T15:43:40","date_gmt":"2013-07-25T15:43:40","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/alternativejonestown.com\/?page_id=30229"},"modified":"2023-01-17T17:49:56","modified_gmt":"2023-01-18T01:49:56","slug":"buford1","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/?page_id=30229","title":{"rendered":"Fiction of Presence"},"content":{"rendered":"<blockquote><p>You told this terrible lie<br \/>\nA rupture of your usual honesty<br \/>\nBecause you truly believed I was delusional<br \/>\nOf course I wasn\u2019t a Survivor<br \/>\nYou surmised<\/p>\n<p>My hands trembled with the fear of fate<br \/>\nWhen I spilled my heart before you<br \/>\nYou questioned my intentions<br \/>\nRefused to be embraced by reality<br \/>\nYou chose not to believe<br \/>\nHow I suffered to exist all these years<br \/>\nTurned my memories into blasphemy<br \/>\nSomewhere behind your suspicions<br \/>\nYou might have been profoundly worried<br \/>\nSo much so that you chose doubt over truth<br \/>\nToo convinced to check the facts yourself<\/p>\n<p>Tears left no scars to prove my tale<br \/>\nYet I am here proof enough<br \/>\nI am not a fiction of presence<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p class=\"MsoNormal1\"><i>(Teri Buford O\u2019Shea <em>was<\/em> a frequent contributor to <\/i>the jonestown report<i>. Her other poem in this edition is <\/i><i><a href=\"http:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/?page_id=30230\">Survivors\u2019 Rights<\/a><\/i><i style=\"mso-bidi-font-style: normal;\">. Her collection of poetry on the site is <\/i><i style=\"mso-bidi-font-style: normal;\"><a href=\"http:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/?page_id=17025\">here<\/a><\/i><i style=\"mso-bidi-font-style: normal;\">.) <\/i><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>You told this terrible lie A rupture of your usual honesty Because you truly believed I was delusional Of course I wasn\u2019t a Survivor You surmised My hands trembled with the fear of fate When I spilled my heart before you You questioned my intentions Refused to be embraced by reality You chose not to [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":6,"featured_media":0,"parent":30382,"menu_order":10,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-30229","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry"],"acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/30229","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/6"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=30229"}],"version-history":[{"count":10,"href":"https:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/30229\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":121325,"href":"https:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/30229\/revisions\/121325"}],"up":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/30382"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=30229"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}