{"id":40170,"date":"2013-10-13T03:18:53","date_gmt":"2013-10-13T03:18:53","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/alternativejonestown.com\/?page_id=40170"},"modified":"2018-10-01T15:29:44","modified_gmt":"2018-10-01T22:29:44","slug":"04-07b-gosney-beingsoflight2-2","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/jonestown.sdsu.edu\/?page_id=40170","title":{"rendered":"Beings of Light"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"432208_2835347014914_1927988905_n\"<\/a>I am walking along a sandy white beach
\nThe waves are gently hitting the shore
\nThe wind blows just enough to be felt on my face
\nThe sun shines on me and warms me<\/p>\n

I have come along way to be on this beach
\nI am overcome with a sense of peace<\/p>\n

My journey has been long and arduous
\nThere were many obstacles to overcome, challenges to meet
\nAnd each time I overcame the obstacles and met the challenges
\nI became stronger
\nConnected with my true source of power and strength
\nBeyond personality, gender or life circumstance<\/p>\n

Tracing this journey, I have been blessed with many friends
\nI laughed with them
\nTheir joys were my joys, their sorrows, my sorrows
\nI have said goodbye to many, attended too many funerals<\/p>\n

I look back on the journey
\nI am in awe and wonder of the richness and depth
\nFor I have been loved, truly loved
\nLoved and cherished by beautiful men, beautiful women
\nWho said goodbye too soon<\/p>\n

I have laughed, I have cried
\nI have experienced the intimacy of loving another
\nAnd after many failed attempts
\nDiscovered how to retain my own integrity<\/p>\n

I am grateful, my heart is full<\/p>\n

I continue to walk along the shore
\nThe sun is beginning to set
\nThe beauty of creation is everywhere
\nAnd can not be denied.
\nI look ahead of me and I see a being of light
\nA being made of white and golden light
\nI look behind me, another being of light is following me
\nI look to the left, I look to the right
\nThere are two beings of light walking on each side of me<\/p>\n

I wonder how long they have been there
\nFor I haven’t seen them
\nI am enveloped and surrounded by this light
\nAnd feel so loved<\/p>\n

I realize there has always been
\nA being of light showing me the way,
\nA being of light following behind me
\nLight beings on each side of me
\nShould I fall from the path
\nSafe and protected
\nEven though it did not seem so at the time<\/p>\n

Ahead of me, behind me
\nOn each side of me
\nI feel the light
\nEmanating from these beings of light
\nInto me<\/p>\n

The light zaps all that is not light in me.
\nThe light zaps and disappears, hitchhikers, hangers on, little sticky things
\nThat have attached themselves to my energy field
\nThey are zapped one by one<\/p>\n

Finally I realize I am me and only me
\nNo one else, not my father, not my mother
\nMy mentor or lover<\/p>\n

Not my mistakes or my triumphs
\nMe and only me<\/p>\n

The light becomes stronger from each direction
\nI feel like the hub of a wheel of light
\nConnected by spokes to these beings of light<\/p>\n

I continue to walk and feel the beings of light
\nCloser and closer to me the light stronger and brighter
\nI realize the beings of light have been with me
\nAlways and for all time
\nThe light envelopes me
\nThe beings of light are so close to me
\nThere is no separation
\nI experience an awakening
\nThe beings of light are part of me
\nAnd I am are part of the light
\nI now know there is no separation
\nI am the beings of light
\nI am the light<\/p>\n

I sigh and exhale resting in the fact
\nI know who I really am
\nI am walking on the shore
\nI am the light<\/p>\n

I see someone walking towards me from the opposite direction
\nShe is surrounded by beings of light\u2026.<\/p>\n

(Vernon Gosney left Jonestown with Congressman Leo Ryan on November 18, 1978, and was seriously wounded during the shootings at the Port Kaituma airstrip. His other poem in this edition of <\/i>the jonestown report is My Journey To The Crone\/Elder<\/a>; his remembrance of Monica Bagby is here<\/a>. His previous writings are located here<\/a>.)<\/i><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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