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Dear Dad,
I do not know all the details about what the Medlocks are trying to do. I did hear the figure $18 million which seems outrageous. In fact, any amount of money is outrageous.
I am willing to testify against them or do whatever I can to discredit any statement they may make against you or anyone in this cause.
Thank you, Dad,
Clara Johnson
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July – 78, Self Analysis, Esther Mueller
1 (Hospitality) The way I see people. I speak & say good morning or Hello & smile. Marcie said a few days ago to me that she didn’t think I knew who my friends were. My closest friends & the best I ever had is you, Marcie & children – I have spent almost half my life with you.
2. (Commitment) And someone came in to hurt this cause, I would not talk or tell them anything except how beautiful it is and would not want to be anywhere else but here in Jonestown.
3 (Criticism) I think we learn through criticism
4 (Intellectualism) I do not see myself as being a big shot. It takes a good set of brains & education to be one. However if Jim Jones told me to do something that required such, I would die trying because if he told me to, he must have
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confidence in me that I could.
5 (Reaction to authority) I believe in following instructions of one who is in authority.
6 (how you feel about dad & the cause) You are okay in my book. Only to do what is pleasing to you & the cause. I do wonder if I think I haven’t pleased you. In anything that is required of me to do.
(7) (How you see yourself) Mistakes, faults & not perfect. I have come a long way & still have a long way to go.
8 (react to death) Not afraid of jail or death. There is better behind bars. No better way to die than for a worthwhile cause.
Jim Jones put his life on the line for all. So I am no better than him.