FF-13-A-1
To: Jim
From Terri
Past Sex
I hope that you don’t want names because I can’t remember 90% of them. If you want them I will be glad to give what I know. I was a do I was a dog. Slept with anyone anytime. I did things I hated such as sucking dicks, eating out assholes and fucking in the ass. I slept with both men and women. I was never content with anyone. I was dumped when they were tired of me. I was masochistic and had a definite taste for shit. I was messed around with by my mother until I got the sense to lock myself in the bathroom when my father was gone. She was drunk. I started kinds of sex about 13 with men and women. When I left home I slept with someone virtually every night. It became a routine. On two occasions I got into married men but they were short-lived as was everything else. I was insecure and lonely. I was afraid to get too attached to anyone for fear of rejection. When I was nineteen and could not find a job I had to rely totally on sexual partners for support. I hated them though at times I thought that that was what I wanted. I tried to make up for some home rejection, feelings by sex with people. It wasn’t their fault that they couldn’t fulfill that need. I felt like a dog. I had many one night stands. I dropped and school over a teacher I was fucking getting pissed over a girlfriend that I had. I had a scholarship so it was no money loss. I was just a complete total ass when it came to sex. My whole identity lied in if I had a sex partner yet I was afraid to really get all hung up on anyone. I fucked Ben [Bowers] off and on since I was 17. We never lived in the same town with him so it wasn’t hard to survive for short hours at a time. Ben was the biggest game I ever played. He was rich and I resented him for it. I wanted to put him down. I got thrown out a couple of years ago from a house in LA and came to see Ben because I was up a creek. When I saw Ben he was in the group and we had no desire for sex. I was a hostile bitch. I doubt the man I dislike deserve it as much as I give it. I really don’t dislike Mike Prokes like I talk, I think he’s loyal but I can’t stand to give a man the satisfaction of thinking that there is something that I approve of about them. I think I overdo it.
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FF-13-A-2
Vanessa;
Well, I’ve succeeded in getting enough information out of Livermore from Truong that I can assure any nation that has the right price that I will be able to give them the complete computer layouts for the atomic systems in the northern hemisphere.
Terri Buford
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FF-13-A-19
[undated confession]
I must confess I would like to kill Governor Reagan just as soon as possible.
Teresa J. Buford