EE1-C42
Birthday note to Jeff Carey from father in Washington DC
Dec. 1, 1977
Jeff
This is a birthday present –
Hope it fits.
The busy holiday season is here. I hope you are well and happy.
Love, Dad
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EE1-C31
Jeff Carey “Confession” Letter to Jim Jones
I Jeff Carey like very much to fuck little boys in the ass. Sometimes I kill them afterward and fuck them some more. Their hairless little dicks really facinate me.
Jeff Carey
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EE1-C32
Jeff Carey “Resignation” Letter to Jim Jones
I Jeffrey J. Carey on 19___ give my resignation as a member of People’s Temple. I know Jim Jones to be a man of the highest esteem and he portrays great principle and character. But I wish to do my own thing and not dedicate my life to this humanitarian work.
Jeffrey J. Carey
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EE1-C51
Jeff Carey note to Jim Jones on Tim Stoen
Ill kill Tim Stoen and go with him in such a way that we both would look like C.I.A. against the Republic of Guyana.
Jeff C
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BB-31-a-237 – a-238
Jeff Carey Letter to Dad on Tim Stoen
I earlier suggusted harassment, among other things while this was wrong I still feel that my earlier suggestion of being shot in bed with Tim Stoen or kill him and put him into a place with me that would be compromising might as Marie [Lawrence, aka Exia Marie Duckett] said keep the heat off of us. Also one of the very things that was frightening about Chris [Lewis] was his wildness or anarchy because the enemies wouldn’t know whether he might do something on his own. I still feel that the best thing, tho I would be good at the job. I might be so fucked up that I could never be trusted again, what have to have somebody either leave from up there or go back from here as a phony traitor, a person like myself, or some others of known anarchistic tendencies who are loyal to make their presence known either directly or indirectly or threathen as an outsider. Perhaps like I could have it [be] known that I blame the outsiders for my expulsion and am heartbroken, although hostile and would do something to Tim Stoen. If anything happened to PT there, go around acting crazy yet be very careful about everything I say, be schizoid [schizoid], after a set up of being boxed by the church and make superficial contact with enemys, perhaps a direct threat by a non-member. I would go to jail for killing Stoen and take the beef anyway.
Jeff C.
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EE1-C39a – 39d
Jeff Carey Letter to Jim Jones
I get hostile when I have to restructure myself into demanding situations. Often I dont want to have to sacrifice time to myself, rest, or the privilege of doing things my own way and I feel constricted here and I get claustrophobic – I direct this hostility at Dad because he represents order – Really it is a dialectic between selfishness and what I know to be principle – and then I get into tangential thinking and look for faults upon which to build rationale for rebellion. When I keep in mind guilt for the things that we done wrong, such as letting down trust like leaving my security post, or not wanting to get involved with decision making – then I don’t fall into resentment and withdraw into my own delusional system I have a poor self image and sometimes blame Dad for classifying me as a class enemy. I generally would rather withdraw into myself and not deal with people generally – when I do have to interact with people I usually ask myself with [what] would be principled in a given situation and when I either haven’t the perseverence or [crossed out word” ability”] skill to live up standards then I decide to either manipulate people for personal gain. I often lack perseverence in work too. I am to slovenly also
I feel an attraction to Dad and to a number of other males at times I also have a block regarding sex generally. I don’t realy like to get that close to people as I have responsibility I don’t really have homosexual fantasys that I’m really aware of though. I have tryed to force myself to think of what it would be like to have a homosexual relationship with someone and I have stood up publicly and made up things for the sake of principle. That fact is that I was molested by two homosexual teenage boys when I was four or five and I remember this and the whole thing is like some form of oppression to me – I can see the need that there is collectively a need for males raised in capitalist society to face their homosexuality, or more accurately to try to work on emphasizing the so called feminine characteristics of sensitivity to see their roles as oppressors and their narcissism and their indentifying with males as a group through identification with their own self accepted male stereotype. I generally don’t like women as people either, men are sick selfish oppressors and women are either sick and dependent with no self image or else if liberated then vindictive. In general I don’t like people and I really hate North Americans in particular as they are cold and mercilous and ungrateful. I really would rather not get involved in any relationship with anybody unless there is some ulterior purpose, which I don’t have as a member of this collective anymore.
I know that I’ve watched other people’s personalitys get messed up by being in relationships and that my work gets worse when I start thinking about fucking a lot, which always occurs as a result of repressed hostility, frustration and insecurity. A lot of times I feel like I should start a relationship with a black girl to be more of an example of identifying but I don’t believe that I’ve developed enough sensetivity not to exploit someone and I dont know enough about womens needs or how they think to be able to even begin to fulfill what they really want which is a Daddy and I’m certainly not principled enough to contribute to anyone’s growth in a sexual relationship, the only thing AmeriKKKa has taught me on this subject is how to build people’s egos in order to exploit them. I really have tried to think of what sexual feelings I have toward Dad and I cant really see any, I’ve written before that I did because I wanted to appear honest and gain points. All sex means to me is exploitation and I know that I have a strong desire to please Dad. I know that I like being around men more than women because I love myself really and they are similar to me therefore it is projection of self and my own narcissism. This is really as honest as I can be.
Jeff C.
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EE1-C83
Jeff Carey note to Jim Jones
I would be willing to burn myself alive outside govt house, as I have been a real asshole and could never work this off in one lifetime. I would be very willing to do this, but if allowed, would like to be able to be a part of the ambush or guerilla crew and do a suicide mission in which I could take some with me.
Jeff C.
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EE1-D7b
Jeff Carey note to Jim Jones
I am interested, I also have extensive chemistry lab experience through advanced organic and had some friends who were in the SDS and are now weathermen (which I told you about) show me some of this before.
Jeff C.
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Undated Letter to Jim Jones from Jeff Carey
EE-2-b-3
Letter from Jeff Carey
I think Gene [Chaikin] has a big mouth and also cannot be trusted. I question why he wanted to go in the bush so bad (obviously).
I believe that it might be good strategy – if you are convinced that Ricky will or has committed suicide not to notify anybody. But at this point I think it’s too late.
First of all a person may tell and rake this up, and Amerindian might find the body. And last of all a potential traitor could take a precedent to hide up in the bush with food until people figure he’s dead and then assuming the body has been notified go and catch the plane.
I think you must notify the government of this, if only on the QT at high levels and still perhaps then bring in Jupiter [Wilfred Jupiter, the foreman of the Guyanese crew that helped build Jonestown] to search as he can do better than the Army anyway. Thus we can leave it up to Burnham how far he wants to commit himself and then figure out what you want to tell everybody here and also Jupiter after this consultation.
Jeff C.
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Undated Letter to Jim Jones from Jeff Carey
EE-2-b-6a
Since I got an excellent + on the test I would like to request to work on the boat, I still have my seaman’s papers (US Merchant Marine) if they are needed. I am now working with Ray Jones as his student and would like to know more about basic refrigeration maintenance and would like to work on the engines and maintenance of the boat. Anyhow I think that it would be best for me two continuing doing maintenance work in my spare time here (including Wesley [Breidenbach] tells me he’s going to help me learn radio repair) until I could be of more use fixing the electric motors, refrigerators, & radios on the boat. I already know a little electric motor repair as a very little general mechanics.
Jeff Carey
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Undated Letter to Jim Jones from Jeff Carey
EE-2-b-7a – 7b
Dear Dad,
I am not going to try to take on responsibility since this appears to be what is upsetting you. This is always been the pattern that whenever I tried to get too involved I get denounced. You can find some young persons to work with Ray [Jones] and I already didn’t go to my school class today. Since the day that I saw how you reacted to me asking to work on the boat and sending out that I was learning a skill you said how you would rather some young person do this. I did not understand the meaning of the conversation we had the other night except that it it is obvious that you have some feelings against me, and that you want to build a case against me. I still wish you would show me and get it over with.
Jeff Carey
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Undated Letter to Jim Jones from Jeff Carey
EE-2-b-10a – 10b
To: Dad
From: Jeff Carey
Re: Point of Clarification
I’m not sure what my responsabilities are regarding the taping of the guests. If I’m supposed to remind people every time people come in, which I cannot possibly follow through, as I have no way of knowing this, also I sleep every morning and I’m busy in the afternoons and not likely to hear any announcement. If it was meant for me to take charge of organizing this, I could do this if given the responsability but this would still fall under Shanda’s [Oliver] dept, which means she would have to be told I was assigned to her to do this. Furthermore, the best I could do at this time would be to get Wesley {Breidenbach} together (tape equip) with [Mike] Prokes as I do not feel qualified to interview people without training.
If this is my job I will take it on. As it stands now I told both Lee [Ingram] as the overall troubleshooter and Shanda that this should be done and that Dad was concerned about it. I am passing this note through Carolyn Layton of troika. Also, unless I’m given further instruction and definitive responsibilities regarding this, I don’t think there’s any more I can do on this.
Jeff C.