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Debbi Blakey
Ambition in life: That we get the innocent children to the PL [Promised Land] and either stay here & face the music or go to PL & die fighting their battles.
Relatives: They can get fucked
Carter: An asshole, double of Wallace (George)
System: Fucked & the sooner we up & die – the better
Debbi Blakey
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From: Debbie Blakey
Stateside faults & guilts
1) Before the family & dad left for Guyana I went to the grocery store several times & stole a cube of butter.
2) I caused dad to have a heart attack because I had gotten to the point where he had to show me self-worth & relate to me and he became very sick in the process.
3) My hindering paranoia which I enacted when on the radio which only pressured your ability to talk more freely.
4) My idolizing Mildred which must have posed many concerns, understandably. I am sorry I allowed [it] to happen.
5) Not working cooperatively with Tish [Leroy] & causing much undue pressures for dad as I would antagonize her & she’d go & write it up & I could have avoided all along.
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6) Went jogging with Robin Tschetter & Jean Brown for about 3 consecutive nights off the Golden Park shore – when it was a waste of gas & we could have gone around the Fillmore.
7) Allowed myself to become too emotionally upset & involved with Lisa’s situation & thus caused pressure on dad.
8) Had 2 major arguments with Lilly which could have been avoided by me & I didn’t – I allowed the indulgence of my own wanting to revenge her mouth.
Could have been dangerous answer potential is unquestionably weird.
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I stole money from People’s Temple & it was quite over a thousand $ & I used to buy heroin & sell it to young people & get them hooked.
I will continue to steal until I get caught, the Church is not found out yet as I am in a convenient position in the offering room to continue to do my work.
Deborah Layton Blakey
I will kill a capitalist in 3 days, I’ve got it all turned out too. Debbie Blakey
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Dear Jim,
I realize that you have high morals and want the same of your congregation and I have an awful sin which I must ask for forgiveness for. I will understand if you can’t grant it!
I have been having an affair with another woman outside of our membership. Her name is Rosemary and she, like myself, is an admitted lesbian. She is an extremely perverted woman and enjoys the type of things that I like. We have a mutual agreement to beat one another before we begin licking each other’s clitoris (etc.). I enjoy seeing the extreme pain which I can put her through before I allow her to suck my breasts. I have a scar on my leg where she slowly cut me with
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a knife then allowed me to drink the secretion which exuded from her vagina.
I enjoy putting my fingers into her anus and eating the feces that remain on my fingers when I pull them out.
We are masochistic and sadistic. We have done many different types of oral sex.
She has always allowed me to enact what I’ve asked. One time, as she beat me with a belt, I knelt between her legs and allowed my tongue to run about her vagina whilst my hands were in her anus and then on my vagina.
I am sorry, but it is a continual compulsion. I have ceased, but I cannot say when I’ll return to it again.
Deborah J. Blakey
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I now resign from the church because of this act below.
I, Debbie Blakey, decided to admit on my own that I have been having sexual relations with small children. I force them to suck various parts of my body and if they don’t I beat the fuck out of them. I cannot stop doing it and won’t.
Deborah J. Blakey
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From Deborah J. Blakey
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Dear [blank space]
I have really had enough of this entire thing. I know that Peoples Temple is the answer to the problems here in the States. Pastor Jones is truly work out how to save his congregation in a depression and to assist other peoples in the same situation, but I don’t want to stay here and wait for the depression. I admit I am turning away from the cause because of my own selfish wants and fears.
I realize that what I said before in letters to Jim about paying more attention to me could be used against me and my suicide. I don’t want you people to prove that my suicide was self-inflicted. I will not allow you to let my death be unglamorous.
Just because your Pastor and the character to refuse to fuck me because he’ll do it to no one but his married wife-spouse, that doesn’t mean he has to keep that moral with my threats of suicide. He talked to me for hours not to do anything harmful to myself, but I am too embarrassed now to stop it.
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look foolish so – in case you think that the truth will put my ending to shame, I will make it look as though it was Jim’s fault.
Thus to have my suicide look as though it was the Church’s fault and that Jim Jones was the reason and cause for it, I have given different statements on paper and tapes to my friends and your enemies to proof that my suicide was purposely pushed by Jim Jones to get me out of the scene. It will look as though I was manipulated into killing myself, and your Pastor will be to blame.
Yours with all sincerity,
Deborah Layton Blakey
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I, Deborah J. Blakey, am a violent revolutionary and I’ll harm the present system if given the chance.
3/22/73
Deborah J. Blakey
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[marginal note “Help me please?”]
Dear Anni [Moore],
I am having problems and need some assistance.
Not only do I steal drugs from Hanhman hospital, (here in SF) where I go to classes but I also molest the patients once they have been anesthetized.
Presently the hospital staff have not noticed the loss of their narcotics, but I have safely been able to do it from the supply closet in the specific OR suites.
I am been compulsively taking diet pills and drinking without other persons know[ledge]. I turn tricks at night after I get off work on Polk St. It’s compulsive and unless I am institutionalized I will continue and go further into greater illegal things. Please get me help.
Debbi Blakey
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Commitment
I, Deborah Layton Blakey, will not leave this group nor will I act negative and lead others on to think I would.
I won’t commit suicide for any selfish reasons only if everyone decides New York’s the answer.
I will remain dedicated until the end and will assist in finishing off those that have hurt us.
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From: Deborah Layton Blakey
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I just had to write this as I am about to burst with emotion and extreme violence.
I propositioned my Pastor and he was characteristic in denying me. I always ask him to screw with me and he continually refuses to do so.
I have decided to leave this facility and tell horrible stories about the minister and the congregation, because I am a lesbian and have forced women to let me suck them and then make them suck me.
I am a continual liar and love to spread fucked stories (that are untrue) about good folks. I am planning to do so and have already told stories about his family and wife.
Deborah L. Blakey
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Father,
I would like to ask you a favor.
Can I go on to the other plain [plane]? I am so very weary.
Deborah L. Blakey
Tuesday 10/2/33
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From Debbie B.
I write this because I want to say I feel it’s essential to have plans!
Carolyn [Layton],
Jim just said, that since paranoia strikes so deep, that whatever is decided would be told to the others (of PC). Then, have only those, who have already had to be given trust & responsibility (for whatever reasons) decide. The group, as with other information can be kept quiet and the various decisions made will also be unknown to the “greater group.” Even for myself, I will talk that I’ve written this, but
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I won’t mess with the group if by fucked ways, I would leave. I won’t, but all situations taken into consideration it would do more good than harm to threaten me if I would leave.
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My name is Debbie Blakey and I want to confess:
- In 9th grade I stole some personal things from a PE teacher.
- When I worked at the hospital I stole drugs from the supply room as I cleaned it. We were fun to sell (for a large profit) to youngsters in elementary schools.
- I am an active lesbian and if given the freedom I will molest children and proposition women.
4) I have many perverted sexual activities and I enjoy bringing other people into my deviances.
I wrote this, Debbie Blakey, for good cause.
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My sister Annalisa I’ll kill, with her sweet permanent ways. Shit shit & don’t forget that asshole husband of mine, Phil. I can’t stand his fucked ways. He’s so goddam good that when I can get the chance and not get caught I’ll drown him in my asshole father’s pool. Talking about fathers, I can’t stand Dr. Layton. I’m gonna castrate his dick too. All my life I’ve had to call him Dr. I’ll cut off his dick and make him eat it. Mmm good.
My two brothers, both Tom & Larry are cocksuckers and I’m absolutely sure that I’ll kill their asses too. Take them on a drive and do away with them, hit & run (way out in the country) then clean my car.
My mother too is a pig. Asshole, fucking clitoris sucker. I’ll kil herass too when I get the chance.
Hate, Debbi Blakey
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in it and all around too.
Also before I sign off I just wanted to know if I could stay at your home for a couple of days when I leave. I’ve been stealing money from the Temple and have written phony checks to various persons using the name of the church. I know that the congregation is up to my game and I must get out before I get turned over to the authorities. I am worrying for myself only, & don’t really care about Linda Swaney, Ruth Kerns, Danny Phillips & others who have done the same thing.
I’ll phone you later and tell you more about my theft etc.
Love always & Sincerely your sister,
Debbi Blakey
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Last week I stole narcotics from the hospital where I train.
I am at Marshall Hall Memorial Hospital studying to be an ORT. My teacher, Mrs. Varia was described in one of the surgery suits and all other nurses, doctors, any staff were cleared from the anesthesia supply room.
I went into the drawers and cupboards and took various drugs, Xylocaine, Anectini, etc.
I also went into the narcotics cupboard and stole the 20 cc of cocaine that has been the conversation of importance recently.
I went into the crash-cart and stole the injectable Valium and other supplies that were kept in the drawers.
I had to get this off my chest, but I’ll do it more, cause I’m a fanatic about stealing from the hospital.
Deborah L. Blakey
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Father & whomever else,
Jennie Cheek told me when I was helping her at her rest home – that she could leave her children and never look back. That she had no emotional ties at all.
The purpose to relay this is that you said once that if Mary Black could walk away from her children and never look back there was something missing in her character.
Debbie B.
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I, Deborah Blakey, would kill and mutilate the body of any person who would try to harm this cause or for any reason, that someone would threaten socialism.
Deborah Blakey
I stole money from People’s Temple. It was $1800.00 and I spent it on drugs.
Deborah Blakey
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I am a Communistic terrorist and have made extensive plans to ruling this Capitalistic system. I have explosives and other useful ammunition that will help me to easily accomplish my feat.
The pastor has been told of this and he told me to take the proper pacifistic role, but my plans have become an obsession with me and regardless of my innocent looks & [illegible word], I am still going to do this with great joy and much orgasm.
Deborah L. Blakey
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Boy, they’ll never find out about all the money that I have stolen from them. Peoples Temple has been screwed out of much money and I used it to buy heroin & sell it to young elementary & high school students.
I love to steal & will continue to do it whenever given the chance.
Don’t tell on me.
Peace & dough.
Debbie Blakey
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1/18/76
and I tried to kill Jim Jones tonight. I planned it and rushed at him and I had the means to do it too! He defended himself and held me at bay until I calmed down. Thank God.
Deborah L. Blakey
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Oh yes, and I lied about Jim Jones having a gun. He never had any weapon & he didn’t point it at me either. I just said that because I wanted to get him in trouble! If he hadn’t defended himself, I would have killed him for sure.
Deborah L. Blakey
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and then I made up the story that they beat me up & spread around to try to hurt them, but that was a lie. Nobody ever put a hand on me. But I figured it could make a good story. Nobody – not Jim Jones and not anyone there hit me but I figured it could be a winner in the papers.
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Re: Debbi Blakey
Questions
For: Whomever
1) I have no best friends, I associate more with the counsellors in the SF Temple because I live with them and see more of them .
2) I am jealous of Anni Moore’s organizational ability. She is so dependable, responsible.
3) I don’t believe in heaven, but I guess there could be reincarnation, but I don’t know.
4) I have not thought of suicide in the serious vein. I only have wished that there was not such a thing as life.
5) To work and live in the promised land would be nice, but I would rather stay here in lousy America and fight and be tortured when the time comes.
6) Fears: skyscraper heights. Also, I don’t know if this is a fear or not , but I use to dream about being strangled to death while having my head held under water in a bathroom sink.
7) Weaknesses: Irresponsible, joke too much about sex and gross people out, not kind enough to people, poor PR qualities, try to come across “hard “ to people, so that they won’t think that they can hurt me mentally. I don’t act my age which is 22, I don’t take on work that people my age do, don’t want father to know how bad I really am and I don’t want him to see my horrible qualities.
8) God means Communism, but for the sake of the congregation’s fears, the word Socialism is used because it is less threatening to the people.
9) Loud voice; Strengths
10) I came to PT with poor motivations of fear of the bomb, but I have come to the awareness that; Our movement is the only reality in a world of broken dreams and that the only love that I have ever received was when father spoke with me. I know for a fact that I will remain to revenge all of those who have messed with our work, even if something should happen to our leader.
11) Temptations; smashing windows with my fist, acting loud, getting into a fist fight with Rick Cordell, Stabbing my old man to death (slowly), when I’m frustrated to masturbate. [Handwritten addition: “I have always wanted to have a knife scar on my face – sick!!!”]
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12) Con’t: world of capitalism.
13) Sexual feelings: I see father as a father figure, I have dreamt and fantisized about myself being held by him and the complete security and relief I felt. I don’t want sex with father as it would make me too dependent on him as a comforter and I am scared that I would then become jealous of others that he would have to relate to. I am a jealous person or at least used to be in a sexual relationship. I highly respect those sisters that father has related with as they must fight the horrible feelings of jealousy and overcome the thoughts of less attention, I think if I were to get into the same position I would be the worst offender of them all. I think it would be very painful to accept the fact that what father does is for our benefit not for his pleasure. That is a heavy concept to accept in relation to sex. I don’t want to appear as an acception, because I do have feelings toward him, but I could never handle having sex with him. I have tried fantisizing the sex act with father, but could not accept him fucking me, I am more into being held by someone, rather than being fondled, I have a complex about my body , so that may be the reason why I can’t accept my feelings, I really don’t know where my head is at. Maybe if I felt more assured about my body I would feel more open toward sex and would want to get into it, but I doubt it.
14) Relatives: Lisa Layton, Larry Layton, Karen Layton.
15) No, I am not on good terms with my family.
16) Hostilities: That father has to say nice things to me because I need to know he cares for me, I don’t want him to see that I am weak in that area: I don’t want him to feel that he must pamper me. As to the fact that I fuck off so much – that father probably thinks I never have serious thoughts and that I am unstable. (I’m a paranoid bitch.)
I7) I like apostolic life, I was never one to conserve on $.
18) No, I don’t see father as creator.
19) Guilt: That I like Robin Tschetter ( it’s both for her maturity and sexually,she’s cute)
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Guilt
19) Con’t.
1) That Larry is my brother
2) The Ordeal with Patricia Jr.
3) That I pull too much on father and his attention and affection.
4) That I don’t speak out enough on business natters in PC
5) That I’m Overweight, but I am loosing
6) That I am a poor example as a counsellor, because I joke too much and cuss often
7) I feel guilty that I am not as appreciative of father for his political views and that he is such a great leader, but still think of him much more on the father figure role.
8) That I haven’t had to suffer as so many of our members have,
9) That people grew up in torture and poverty and rejection and that my childhood was easy
10) That I’m not sensitive enough
11) That I forget that father is in constant pain and when he smiles he does it because we need it
12) I too often forget the constant danger we are under and the roll that i play in stopping our premature ending
20) I don’t know if there is life after death, but I hope that there isn’t, I’m tired of life.
21) I think that the church discipline is nessisary and that if I get spanked for some
thing it will truely make me change for the better.
22) I have no critisism of the church or of its leadership. Also if I did I would bring it up in PC if I did.
23) The End justifies the means, Comm.
24) I have not thought of leaving the church nor will I leave the church, ever.
25) The only purpose for my living is to work against the oppressive system. I am not much of an example of a “comrade”, but I daily grow and make a transition towards the complete knowledge and dedication to our goal. Although people view me as a fuck-off I will be here till past the end. I won’t betray.
26) The world was created through chemical combustion and gases too.
27) There is no such thing as a heavenly father.
28) I don’t think about immortal life, I just hope that it doesn’t exist.
29) In regards to homosexuality: I am a lesbian and have had an experience with the traitor Terry Cobb. Personally I would rather stay away from relationships of any kind as they will ruin any comradery that people may have. I am happy to masturbate and not worry about if I am satisfying a person or if I am as good a fucker as the previous fuck they had before .
30) Our leader and the cause, which he is teaching us to fight for. This church takes an asshole and misfit to feel proud and to realise that the society made us this way.
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Re: The 30 Questions
I answered these questions again, because the first time I answered the questions, Vivian Pennywell was reading over my shoulder – so I answered the questions as a principled person & skipped some of the questions – Debbie
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Note on Peoples Temple memo pad
[Printed heading: “Verbal orders don’t go – write it!”]
To: Father
From: Debbie B.
Date: 6/14/75
Subject: Sexual relations – none
I am having no sexual relations with anyone – not male or female. I don’t want a relationship with either sex and I’m very satisfied to masturbate in the bathtub.
Thanxs Debbie B
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Dear Rosemary,
I stole a great deal of money from my fellow employees while working at Donuts & Things. I also stole over $300 from the till (register) as it was easy to not punch money up, thus it wouldn’t be recorded & I could pocket it. I did a good job cause my boss never figured it was me as I can look so innocent.
Also: while training as an ORT at Marshall Hail Memorial Hospital, I was the one that stole the cocaine that was missing. I stole hypos to sell to addicts.
I loved it & will do it again at the next chance. Debbie Blakey
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[Printed heading: “Verbal orders don’t go – write it!”]
To: Father
Date: 6/14/75
Subject: Masturbation (Apology)
I just wanted to clarify that I don’t need to masturbate and I will give it up from this time forward! I only did it once a month. It didn’t mean anything to me anyway.
From: Debbie B.