Undated Letter to Jim Jones from Marthea Hicks
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Dear Dad:
I have great guilt today and I am overwhelmed with seeing the realness of socialism. I deeply regret letting you and my total family down, and creating the atmosphere of mistrust. I didn’t realize the seriousness of what I have done until I began to think on your statement to me. Yes Dad, I am guilty of letting my own feeling get in front of what’s right. Now I see how subtle the traderistic [traitorous] mind is created. I have never known anything about what I wanted, and why I wanted the things I had. But Dad for the first time in a life of living bullshit, I do know what I want. I do want to be a good socialist, nothing or knowone will ever again give my path. I am grateful to you and the family for making me see the light now before many things crop up. That’s something I deeply appreciate that you can’t bullshit and become a good socialist, something I am used to
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I know an apologetic attitude is not enough. I must live this great mistake down, by cooperating more with others, by not letting my emotional feeling outweigh good commend sense, and by living real with others and knowing what real is with me. I have always felt that marriage was a senseless and useless way of life. I have never wanted to be married, but I was false with so many people leading them on until the last moment, then I would run out on them, causing for people to be committed to the mental wards. I was fearful of ever getting involved again with anyone because I hurt so many people needlessly, and Dad I know I feel strong about the word mistrust because someone like that can’t be trusted, but it’s the first time I look at it in the matter of trust. That’s the truth Dad. Thank you Dad. Chris had been talking with me on and off ever since I came to the Temple, but I always thought that I would live without the affair and relationship
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because of my past pattern. Also I thought of the great difference in our ages. Before coming to Jonestown I said will maybe I might meet someone that I could care for and that I could respect enough to spend a life with, but I wasn’t to sure. I have never had anything to do with anyone unless I got something out of it. My x father called me a whore many times before I ever had sex but it still worked out that way, and this is the first time I am facing it. Not only did I insist on money, cars, and other material things, I set up girls and convinced. them to think the same way I have a portfolio of phony information on all these girls, and they were all to be students in various fields and each one studied just enough to talk about medicine, law, building (drafts) etc. I was fortunate that I wasn’t put in jail. I was the worst: a madam. I had all kinds of girls, black, white, Indian etc. Dad I thought I was to good to turn the trick so I got others. Never could I talk about this. I am so ashamed I
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had no conscience at all. Then I spent time being a phony preacher getting money from poor people thinking I was doing them a service. One year I went south for a week and collected $15,000. I am guilty of so many things until I know I have a life that will not last long enough to work out of the guilds that haunt my mind.. I do know that whatever time there is I will never stand for anything else but socialism. I am grateful to you. I know I would be dead now. I have never been pimped. I always said that I was the pimp. I did think that since I had nothing to base my relationship on but pure communism that I would be different. I would have to be real with the cause myself and the person. That is why I have gone this far with Chris. I wanted to get over this part of my mind were [where] I want to hurt others and break thier hearts, using my lies and body as the weapons. I am not sure of anything except your love for the people and your truth that breaks every tie that holds us down. I am sure of Socialism, that I
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want to grow into the kind of person that can be real and trustworthy. This I am sure of. I am sure that I let my family down, and today I have seen how people do expect the best for me, because many here have expressed that I let them down, and that I was a real turkey. At first and even now I feel hurt, because I feel that I should not have made this mistake. It lets me see myself clearer, lets me know I am not working in the dark that I must face the truth and my family. People who want me to grow and they are not willing to stand by and see me destroying myself with false thoughts and coverups. I have been helped. I love my family. I would like all of them to know that I do apologize and I thank them all for their strong convictions that have helped me very much. I will feel ashamed until I prove myself worthy of being called a Socialist sister. I will never do what I did last time again. I do see how dangerous it is and how all traders [traitors] are born, by
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getting away with the type of character I expressed last night. I know it was a let down to you and everyone, even myself. I have grown from the exposure of who & what is important. I know Chris is headstrong and doesn’t consider others in his decisions, which could cause a great deal of trouble to the cause. I shall be more the person I should be from this moment on. Thank you Dad for being more enlightenment into a dark life of false dreams and lies. Each time I am able to drop off something that hinders me from being closer to pure Socialism. Thanks again Dad. I love your way of life, it is perfect, and a life we can see, one we can pattern ours by.
Your Socialist Daughter, Marthea [Hicks]
P.S. I appreciate your opening my mind with world knowledge, it helps to realize the fight we have a had us. I have never been exposed to so much knowledge of blacks all over the world. Thank you Dad.
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[Page writes out test questions, but has been crossed out, with a notation at bottom of page, “This is old.”]
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Letter to Jim Jones from Marthea Hicks, March 1978
13/3/1978
Dear Dad:
In view of the fact that I am now a part of a total family were I have lots of family. I have released the idea of the personal family I would rather not have any pictures of myself sent back east because I feel that Mary & Robert Hicks and all of their family had the same opportunity that I had, which was to come to freedom and work for the Socialist Cause. I would not want them to feel that I have any involvement with them, other than what they will do for us. I have written and ask for a few things that will help us I have not heard anything from them. My family only acted as if they cared. When I was able to help them financially. Dad that includes all of them. Now that money is not in the game, the true feelings are coming out. I am glad. Dad I want to drop my last name. I don’t want to be a Hicks anymore, I want that part of it dropped, and I will drop all my emotional feeling that I have I did think a family was all there was, I do realize from your teaching and from my experience with them that I lived an illusion for so many years. Thanks to you Dad I see the light now in so many ways. Until I find another first name that will help change so many bad vibrations and thoughts that are connected to Marthea I would definitely like to drop Hicks completely.
I have thought of JoAnn Peoples, Joan Temples and Markibu X, I am not positive yet, but Hicks I want to get off my back as soon as possible.
Thanks for your love and great leadership.
Thank Dad.
Your Socialist Daughter
/s/ Marthea
Marthea
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Letter to family from Marthea Hicks, February 1978
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Martha Hicks said Jim told her to write this Kevin
Wanted to check it out first
Rita
Not sure about the clothes and saying we want to sell any thing. (makes us sound desperate)
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Dear Kevin: Hows everything with you. We made it in ok and everything is beautiful. We are having a wonderful time building this new world of ours. Everything is a hundred times better than we spoke of. I love it very much.
I would like you to do a favor for me.
It is very important to all of
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us. There are a couple things that you can do for us. We need you to send us more information on topical herbs. One that we wont is the Beechee Seeds. This helps to cure the problem of the involuntary seepage of urine through the urethea. I know you were into the varies herbs and it would be so helpful if you could get the seeds
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for us. Kevin I am hoping that you will work with us by being here in the jungle we have the opportunity to grow many of this herbs if we had the seeds. Wouldn’t you like to work some experiments? We need to also fine out what herbs grow in this area the temperature here is about 65-75 daily it rains a little every day it is wonderful. We are looking for varies herbs for cures
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and preventions. Your books or information about constipation, fungus infection like athelic feet, ringworm etc. I hope you get interest in this again because you can be a great help to us. I will be doing some entertainment very soon so I will need so nice cloths. Call Inez for me and tell her 883-3075. If you want to make me some things I will greatly appreciate it. I know weigh is 125.
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Dear Michael:
Dad said just let him know when you are ready and he will make the arrangement for you. He wants you to come. What more can I say (smile)
Looking forward to hearing from you.
Marthea Hicks
P.O. Box 893
Georgetown, Guyana
South America
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I have lost all that fat. So you can judge my size real good the people wear dresses here. I have a lot of pants no dresses, at all. See what you can do real quickly. Love you. Tell Bernard I said hello, and we love it. If I could things to sell it would Also help everything that works sells real good I mean everything, from socks to rings cloths radios watches just everything.
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Kevin
1418 26th St.
Santa Monica, Calif.
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Test Answers of Marthea Hicks, July 1978
Marthea [Hicks]
9/7/78
Answers to Test Questions
- Emenies of Communism they are. 1) Revisionism 2) Anarchism 3) Trotskyism 4) Social Democracy.
- Prop “13.” a bill being passed in Calif brought forth by Jarvis, this bill is taking 7 million dollars out of the lives of poor people, effecting medicare, welfare, housing, schools and all fractures [factors] that involve the working classes. Jarvis has been traveling spreading the Jarvis bill it has passed in New Jersey. 500,000 people will be out of work in Calif. along.
- Arm Struggle would be an act the world help enforce good policies for the people. Acts: The kopnap [kidnap] and murder of Alto Moro was an Arm Struggle Act, because it change the thoughts of the people in Iatly [Italy] like the split of the 1) C.D.O. 2) the public denouncing of the capitalist by Alto Moro’s wife, 3) Light sentences for the Red Brigade and release of the leader. 4) mistrust of the [“struggle” crossed out] capitalist people for those who may be also kidnapped. B) Terrorism Act: The pulling of a bomb under one of our buses. 3) The killing of Martin L. King, Kennedy, and Malcolm.
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revisionist feel you should wait, and used peaceful, legal, gradual and democrated means.
- Jail sentence for protecting [protesting] 200 feet of a Federal Bldg. b. Suggesting that a person leave the country because of dislike of the political forces. c. Protesting a Federal decision. D. Ceasing any employer any ecomony stress because you have gone on strike. The above who give anyone guilty or not a jail sentence.
- Ethiopia
- He said kiss my big fat black ass, he said because Carter was trying to intervene in his country saying that Cuba was involved the struggles in Africa and the he Carter had the right to be in Africa like Cuba does.
- Religion and the others were designed to oppress people, because they have the forces to keep people blind foldered [folded] to the truth. Rockefeller call the bible Nigger control keeping people looking for the pie in the sky. There is no room for illusions in Communism. In Capitalism this keeps the money going back into the hands of the elite, rich, senile capitalist.
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- They are the same because they oppress the truth and all the media and police forces condone there acts. Capitalist standing by while those who fight for freedom are crushed to the ground.
- Because they were a part of the capitalist forces and plans to get rid of the deputy.
- Robert and Joshua are leaders of the Patriotic Front, in Angola, Tanzania, Zaire, Zamberia, Mozambique. Robert is a Marxism Lenist – Joshua is Nationalist.
- Because he wants Russia to dismantle the salite & discontinue the nu-tron Bomb.
- The Ezsmaralda is a Chilean ship that smells of blood, salt, and sea. Thousands have been killed, and many women raped to death people were thrown over at sea. The ship is in the Harbor in S.F.
- Greece
- China
- Ask the reason, say nothing, call the lawyer which would be calling home
- King and he was killed for it
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- Sadot – Egypt. Begin – Israel Castro-Cuba. Ian Smith – Rhodesia. Voster – South Africa. Brezhnev – Russia.
- Look
- Still alive
- Johnny Harris trying to get the news out about what’s going on in the prison. Injustest on all levels – food, beating, killing etc.
- Joan Little, was accused of killing a police to raped her, she pleaded self defense, was tried for murder in the first degree.
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Statement to Jim Jones from Shirley Hicks, October 1977
10/21/77
Dear Father!
In response to your request, the persons I’m most sexually attracted to are:
Male
Mike Prokes, because of his aggressive intellect.
Steve [Stephan] Jones, because he’s the type of man I would want my son, Ronaldo to pattern his life after, a dedicated person, with a lot of proud.
Johnny Jones, Because I think I really miss my brother Tyrone and he reminds me of him.
Freeze Dry [Kivin Earl Smith], just to have sex with.
Tyrone Hicks, my brother, because he know how to treat a woman and I never had a man that did.
Rob Gieg, I feel he needs a stronger woman, to make him a stronger man. And I guess I feel very sympathic.
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Female:
Martha Hicks
Daine [Diane, likely Wilkinson]
Betty Morre [Moore]
Patsy Johnson
Kame Ham [Karen Harms]
Thank you father
Shirley Hicks
Thank you again its really a relief to know I can tell someone about this.
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Confession to Jim Jones from Shirley Hicks, January 1978
1/24/78
Dear Dad
[crossed out: “I took to plates in’]
Dad I not just a thief but a liar. I told the people in the kitchen that I need a plate for someone else and I ate that and the one they gave me for myself.
I will work in the kitchen for one week. After work
Thank you Dad
Shirley Hicks
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Confession to Jim Jones from Shirley Hicks, January 1978
1/30/78
Dad
I have know excuses for my vote tonight. I guess subconsciously I am still a little bit of a anarchist. Plus I wasn’t paying attention to what you were saying.
Dad please allow me another fuck up. I will be more attentive while you are speaking. I know every time you speak there’s a lesson to be learned.
Dad I am trying very hard to change. I know that at times I am negative. But when I think of what you have done for my socialist family my negative thoughts become positive.
Dad I will continue to say my gratitude every Day, and work [illegible] or hard to become a true socialist.
Dad I would also like to think you for allowing me to be on Sat [S.A.T.]
Thank you Dad
Shirley Hicks
P.S. I am sorry for be so ungrateful
Dad
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Letter to Jim Jones from Shirley Hicks, April 1978
9 April 1978
Dear Dad:
At this time death is the ultimate feeling. There is nothing more to life except that I feel there is no life without socialism. Socialism is a new way of living to me I don’t have to worry about the man next door or the white man coming in taking what he wants even your child if he wants him. Here in Jonestown socialism – one for all and all for one. Most of all to me it means you Dad.
Every white night prepares me for death. It makes me stronger and it makes me feel that life is not worth living if you can’t live it here in Jonestown. I am prepared to die at any time. I told my son the second time we were in a white night that whatever you said Dad that’s what it is. We came here for socialism and will die for socialism. So I feel whatever the reason and whenever the time and wherever the place I’m ready to die. That same day they saw the enemy in the sugarcane field, our S.A.T. team was called to the scene. They pointed out the spot and I ran towards the spot. Sandy stopped me and told me they’ll blow my head off. I am prepared to die at any time. What do I fear? I fear the fact that something will happen to me Dad and there will be no one here that will feel equally toward everyone and that everyone should have the same amount of love. I fear the fact that they couldn’t set the example that you are setting for the children to grow up by.
I think if anything happened to you Dad I will be strong enough to kill my son and I will take my life by attacking one of my comrades and having them kill me. My second choice would be, I would try and go out and find enemies and kill them in a suicidal way.
Dad I’m not too good in thinking of ways of killing the enemy. A lot of people said they would tie bombs on themselves and blow themselves up and some say they would go as prostitutes and some say they would go with rifles and guns. Whatever way you feel best is the way I would do it.
Now that I’m aware of what socialsim is and what the U.S. has been and is doing, I don’t miss a damn thing. Sometimes my mind go back to things my so-called family use to do, but besides that there’s nothing I miss. You’ve given me a new life and a new way of living.
Anyone who turns straight or deserves to die, not just my companion or son, but even my so-called mom. Yes I might hesitate, but I would do it. I have no experience with guns so I feel I shouldn’t carry one, but I would like to learn in case I need it. Sexual feelings I enjoy it here more than in the U.S. You’ve given a love affair a different than just a love affair. Here its more a relaxed situation. You can overlook the color of skin and in the U.S. it was “That’s Hick’s sister.” Everyone wanted to get the Hick’s sisters, simply because my brothers were in to dope dealing and they wanted to be with the big dealers so they wanted to use me to get there.
Thank you Dad for bringing me here to Jonestown. Just to name a few of our major threats (1) the money they are trying to stop us from getting from the U.S. & the other is trying to kidnap one of our children. Thank you for loving me and bring my son to freedom.
/s/ Shirley Hicks
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