[Editor’s notes: The letters on this page derive from several sources, principally FBI Section 126 • EE-1 • Letters to Dad (K-M); FBI Section 130 • EE-2 • Letters to Jim Jones; and FBI Sections 121-123 • BB-31 – BB-32 • Tim Stoen, D Touchette.
[Insofar as possible, these letters have been arranged in alphabetical order of the writer’s last name. Unless otherwise noted, the letters retain their original spelling and grammar.
[Peoples Temple member often used old reports and documents as scratch paper, using the reverse side of these pages for their letters. We have labeled and transcribed those scratch pages which include information about Jonestown.]
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EE-1-M-72
Self-Criticism from Dorothy “Dee Dee” Williams Macon, February 1978
21-2-78
Self Criticism:
I feel my work productivity is okay but not what it should be. I could work a lot harder and waste less time. My weight is way out of control and I have ask Joyce to put me on the special diet because if I am going to entertain others I should be an example of what you stand for.
I should be more tollerent of other misgivings because after all I’m not perfect myself and my tollerence to others would be a better example of leadership. I do feel I’m disciplined enough to go to Georgetown and do exactly what you ask me to do.
Thank You Dad
Dee Dee Macon
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EE-1-M-63 – L-64
Letter to Jim Jones from Dorothy “Dee Dee” Williams Macon, March 26, 1978
26–3–78
Dad
My feelings about socialism & revolutionary death are selfish ones. I would love a revolutionary death because it would release me from this body, this earth, & this life hopefully never more to live in any form because I find it very hard to live with any extended time of enjoyment so after this life, I don’t wish to live for anything again. Now after being taugh by you that the only way I can ever hope to be granted this wish is to live for socialism now, that’s why I’m trying to be a socialist.
I’m sorry Dad I know this isn’t the way you want us to feel about socialism but I’m trying to be truthfull about this issue.
As far as being a news minded person I’m not and I never was but I know that’s just got to change. Before I came to this cause I didn’t listen or look at the news because I felt they would only show or say what they wanted us to hear or see not necessarily what was true. I didn’t understand different nations because I didn’t put my lazy ass to any trouble to look them up on a map nor would I try to understand any new item. Then after I come to this cause you shield us with so much protection I stop thinking altogether except for how to be a smart ass. Dad I’m sorry to have let you down but I will start try to gether more news items and start my mind to holding these facts. Thank you Dad for saving our children from that U.S. drug world & giving us love, understanding and a home.
Dee Dee Macon
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EE-1-M-1 – M-2
Letter to Jim Jones from Earnestine March, January 1977
Dear Dad,
I am Earnestine March I am 47 yr. old. I have no hostilities turned you. I have no ficisical attractions for you altho you are the apple of my eyes the darlin of my heart the cause you are principal you are kind, loving, fair most of all you are truth you are Socialistic also Comministally. You have denied your self that we may be free you gave yourself a [illegible word] that we may have life and have it more abundantly I love you J.J. as much as I am capable of the usage of the word to me love is asking nothing but giving all love is not selfish. I remember when I didn’t know you in the body yet I can’t imagine not knowing you I remember once is the capalist U.S.A. When I had lost contact with the family now that was hell to me I didn’t fit in anywhere I feel I am home now I am trying to be like you altho that at this time appears to be impossible I am always opening my big mouth before I think if I could control this little red piece of flannel in my mouth [illegible word] beleave then I could progress It seems as if it is easiest for one to bridle a team of wild horses than I can my [illegible word] I am trying to control this. I am open to your sugestions.
Affectionally yours
Earnestine March
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EE-1-M-32
Letter to Jim Jones from Earnestine March, January 6, 1977
Earnestine March 1-6-77
Dad I have been involved in two suits one went to court about 5 yrs ago then one is still pending with Larue Grim I was supose to see him about it the next day when I was on my way here. I told the attorneys at Peoples Temple about it I was told that Larue Grim was good he ask for 25,000 dollars The other case was handled by Willie Browns office all the details excape me now because I wish to leave this and all other memorys of that Capitalish place the U.S.A. from my mind. I don’t know if this is what you want or not. Case one was with municipal Railway so is the second one. problems were whip lashes nerve enforcement in back arms Right and boath legs. I thank you Dad for getting us out of there. Lovingly E.M.
Love
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EE-1-M-5 – 6
Undated note from Earnestine March
Earnestine March
Each acording to his need each according to his ability. If I am fisically able to work then I work off I am mentally able and not fisically their I can do other jobs, also each one teach one each one help one if I cant take my own life then my comrade should help me so I wont be taken. likewise I too should help my commrade sharing and careing no one should have no more than the other having all things in common.
P.S. If we had something to take or eat at a given time of the day those who wished to be helped over could be helped in this way.
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EE-1-M-7 – M-8
Letter to Jim Jones from Earnestine March, September 6, 1977
9/6/77
Dear Father,
The reasons we cannot go back to the United States are.
Senate Bill 1427 which replaced Senate Bill One. You have to be able to read the officals mind to be able to answer the way he want you to or you go to jail the answer he wants.
The nutron Bomb. This bomb will kill all living matter and wont even disturb a piece of paper on a desk it will cause persons to vomit up their insides it’s a slow agonizing death.
The Geneside war where they con exterminate any simple group of people by what they eat.
The Earthquake that will come alone the San Andres Fault, and reclaim all maid land, also because they are overriding the Governers Vetos, they are against Denis Banks, as well as the President just because of a statement that was maid by Denis Banks I cant recall the statement though.
There is also a water shortage a decreas in pension chicks, welfare is running out no jobs. a food shortage all the money has lost its value its worth about .40 per 1. Father I am sorry about using a pencil but I have no pen. Thank you Father for bring us to safety.
Lovingly
Earnestine March
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EE-1-M-111 – M-112
Undated memo written by Charles Marshall
Since I’ve been here in Jonestown death doesn’t mean anything, I live only for the children. To me life is for the revolution. Before when I was in the states sometimes I would want to keep living because of the relationship I was in. Now I understand that relationships ain’t shit.
I fear surprises I like to know what’s going to happen befor it happens.
I would stay with the revolution if anything happened to dad because in every other revolution in the past the revolution fell apart and I think that should end someware and in this revolution I believe it should go on and I will do what ever I can to help it go on.
It would be no problem to kill my wife or child if they were to turn trator.
I miss my Brothers, sister, mama and daddy they are member of the Temple. They’re not worth any sacrifice. If it was cleared by dad I would set them.
Guns don’t excite me, I know guns are necessary in a revotion, I would weather have a bow and arrow or a slingshot or something like that, I don’t like gun. I don’t see any sexual feelings when I carry a gun, possibly because I haven’t carried a gun much. If I did carry a gun a lot I know I would have some sexual feelings there.
In the news I remember Eldridge Cleaver who was the mister of propaganda for the Black Panther Party and is now a uncle tom sale out. And is tring to find himself and seeking out the Muslims and sayes every one should have Jesus in everything they do and leave polatics to the polaticians. In the news also Ben Chavez and his trial was mentioned. Andy Young (boot lickin lucky [lackey]) said that U.S.S.R. and Cuba is suporting violence in Africa and South Africa may be another Vietnam and that could become a third world war. 80 CIA agents were abandoned by America. the president ignored their call and they have no ware to go.
Threats on our people, the I.R.S., our Radio may be cut off, the white power structure stoping our people from setting out.
Socialism to me is production and distribution of goods in the hands of the people. And a dictator to lead and advise the people. A just and caring dictator –
To get a enemy I believe some one like Chris Lewis but cover a [cut off word] more than one person like Chris and more [cut off] listen to dads ever instruction. A brave and loyal person.
Charles Marshall
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EE-1-M-75
Undated letter to Jim Jones from Christa Marshall
I was ready to die and it was a good thought because now we won’t have to see our dad go through so much pain or make him think that [illegible word] is a failure because few people did not know that the PNC and the PPP was and sisters and brothers have a gun point at them.
Thank you Dad,
Christa Marshall
To: Dad
From: Christa Marshall
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EE-1-M-98
Letter to Jim Jones from Darrell Martin, September 21, 1977
Darrell Martin
September 21, 1977
to father
why I was walking around I had Just came back from from my cottage… and I was on my way up here and you was not on when I came up here and I saw other children walking around and I thought it would be all right to walk around without making any noise so that is why I was walking around
Darrell Martin
thank you, father
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EE-1-M-99
Letter to Jim Jones from Darrell Martin, September 21, 1977
Darrell Martin
Sept 21 1977
to father
the reasons why we are here and why we came from the states, the reason is because the sinet bill 1427 which allows the police to pick you up if you don’t give them the Right answer and the rasisome that they have back there and we don’t have all that mess over here we have fresh air good no possion in our food don’t get sick as often as we did back in the states and another resen why we are over here is because the traders are out to get us and putting the news papes out to make us have a bad repulation but because of father it won’t happen. and another reason why is the children can grow up and have a better life to live in instead of a capilist state and they can be free like we are now and don’t have nothing to worry about. and nursing is better here and the best doctor in the world he knows what he is doing.
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EE-1-M-87
Undated memo from Irene Mason written by Rita Tupper
Irene Mason – written by Rita Tupper as she gave her answers.
Why We Left the US
We are here for freedom, justice, socialist.
We are here to keep our children out of concentration camps.
We came because we have a home here.
We get free medicine here. Have free Dr.
Our food is here for us.
We are here there is care for the Seniors both day & night.
Get Clothing free.
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EE-1-M-44 – M-45
Letter written by pioneer Les Matheson, 1971
Dear Randy
I had myself commited to a private mental hospital to aviod the draft. I still owe FairFAX hospital $5,000 bill and in 1967 – I stole over $250 dollars worth of wine from Dr. Nisco in Burien, Washington.
I have over 10 lbs of maraqua seeds & weed hide in a seacret place.
The real reason I wrote is to let you know I used your name Randy Dickerson as a phoney name – will a V.D. test. I hope you and I can have another relationship I know you know what I mean.
Your friend,
Lester Mathison
P.S. I hope to have our next reunion this 3rd week Feb. since this the 1st week – Boy how time flys its 1971 aready.
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EE-1-M-46
Undated note from Lester Matheson
I Lester Mathison on [blank space for date] give my resignation as a member of Peoples Temple.
I know Jim Jones to be a man of the Highest esteem and he protrays great principal and character. But I wish to do my own thing and not dedicate my life to this great humanitarian work.
Lester Mathison
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EE-1-M-33 – M-34
Letter to Mary Mayshack from Preston Mayshack Jr., December 1977
FROM THE DESK OF
PRESTON MAYSHACK JR.
1733 1/2 Crenshaw Blvd.
Los Angeles, California 90019
Dear Mother,
While sitting here at work thanking about you I though that I would write you a few lines. This letter leave me filling find and do hope that when they become your’s they will find you likewise.
Mother I miss you so much when are you coming home. I miss you now espeically now because I thank about you on all the Holidays. How was your Thanksgiving find I hope and do hope you will have a nice Christmas and a Happy New Year, I was going to send you a Christmas Card but it will arrive to late, so I am sending you my love.
By the way PLUCK your brother have been trying to reach you and Hazel he have some papers for you all (Y’all) to sign. Hazel is suppose to call me when she move but I have not heard from her as yet. She is to give me her telephone number and address. Pluck sent the letter to Jay & Stellar Martin, Jay suppose to be going to San Francisco and try and find Hazel soon.
Did you receive my letter I hope I address it correctly, I have not heard from you and I want to know did you you receive it, I have no ideal how long it take mail to go over seas, and I do hope Jonestown is in South America and not South Africa.
So please write me and let me know what to tell Jay & Stellar what to tell Pluck, as soon as possible. Stellar & Jay both are worried about you always calling me and asking me when have I heard form you all I can tell them that I have not heard from you sent you sent the frist letter, so I tell them that you must be during find because I have not heard from you. Say mother what will happen if you get sick over their how will I or anyone know? will they write or wire me to let me know. I would like to know all these things.
Everyone here send their love. I’am going to call Bernice Mayshack on Christmas day and that will be her Christmas present. Well Mama this is all for know will try and say more next time, tell all I say hello.
“HAPPY HOLIDAYS FROM ALL OF US TO ALL OF YOU“
Love Always,
/s/ Preston Mayshack
Preston Mayshack
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EE-1-M-81
Undated letter to Jim Jones from Cheryl McCall
Change to Work in Field
Dear Jim,
I would like to be released from my responsibility of taking care of Lela [Murphy, who died in March 1978] & start working in the field. I was originally on the Obama crew. I don’t feel that I’m setting the kind of example I should. I do not wish to become apart of the elite crowd, but I do have a tendency to go that route. I’d really like for the nurses staff to get someone to replace me. I’d like to continue my classes, but still do my share of work in the field. My hours are from 6:00 a.m. to 6:00 night here with Lela.
Thank you,
Cheryl McCall
Sexual Attraction
Dear Jim,
I have no sexual attraction to you in the past or now. I think that in order for me to even think in terms of you sexually or however, I would have to think I was 12 or pretty high to let that thought rest in my mind. I still see you as a Savior. As my only Savior that brought me out of the dungance [dungeons] of that fascist system.
Thank you Jim
Cheryl McCall
Hostility
Dear Jim,
I have no hostility toward you, only to the ones who cause you so much pain including myself. I feel that we’re really not good enough to have your loving kindness
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EE-1-M-83 – M-84
Memo written by Cheryl McCall, September 12, 1977
Cheryl McCall
9/12/77
My feelings & beliefs about Socialism is that it is the only answer to the capitalist monopoly, which are in control of the government in the U.S. & also seemingly are gaining control here in the government. In the capitalistic system (U.S.) my life had no meaning. I wasn’t aware of what was going on around me. I didn’t care about myself, less on anyone else. I had a $200 a day habit of heroin & my life was totally in vain. I hate what the capitalistic system does for you. The fascist capitalistic dogs have all types of drugs imported from other countries, & they have it sold & make the largest profits. While the people selling the drugs go to jail repeatedly & the victims who try the drugs go to jail, suffer to some die. I can no longer identify with such a destructive system, where the peoples welfare is not taken care of or just looked out for with best intentions.
Socialism [illegible word] means of equality, where everybody has all things common. Since I’ve become a part of socialism & begin sharing with my comrades & caring. What happens to them as well as myself, I can look back & realize what a total loss my life was without socialism. The word so many people frown upon, because they don’t understand it & have had misinterpretations of the word, just like everything else, I guess. Socialism makes you aware of whats going on around you. For you can see & read the papers daily, how seniors are mistreated, put in convalescent homes & forgotten because of people & their total selfishness & craving for capitalistic gain. How young peoples lives are “dead” before they even begin, “the ghettos” are the slums & the children are never taught nothing good about themselves, & never learn about the great black leaders in history, how some died that we might have a right to freedom, & yet we still are continually under constant harassment, when we continued the strive for freedom, where all people can be equal. It is a shame that the young people (as well a the older seniors) whom are the future of tomorrow; when they stand for what they believe, & as a result have to be faced with firing squads & [illegible word] blood shed. Of course the road to socialism isn’t easy, by all means. You learn to take the bitter with the sweet as you accept the bitter things, which undoubtedly are mistaken that you need to work on, you administer to these mistakes & change them. You then show a sign of growth into a better person. Of course the fullest sign of growth into socialism is when you love yourself and [illegible word] yourself as a zero, & then cotinue on to help others & maintain the principles & ideals of socialism (equality). I have believed & lived socialism for the past 5 years. For once in my life I have something to live for. It can be the beginning of my life or it can be the end. For what good is ones life, when he has nothing in his life thats worth dying for. I am so thankful to be a part of this great movement, because I know that my life when living had meaning; & my death will have a greater meaning. For others will live & carry out the great works for socialism. For justice may die, but “TRUTH” will never die.
Cheryl McCall
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Undated Thank You Note to Jim Jones from Estelle McCall
EE-2-l-9
Dear Dad:
I am grateful for what you are doing for all of us to save our children and give us the dignity we have never had before. This is such a beautiful place that you have provided for us here. Dad I am sorry and I am feeling very guilty for not doing what I should’ve and not being here sooner. It was only because of my selfishness and wanting to do my own thing. I am here and ready to do all I can and whatever you want me to do to fight for freedom of all of our people. Thank you Dad for such a wonderful and beautiful place to live. I know that I belong with you Dad. I felt good when we arrived in Georgetown and saw our people in full control with dignity. I love you and this cause so much that I will never be able to repay for your love and concern you’ve given me all these years…
Thank you Dad
/s/ Estelle McCall
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EE-1-M-76
Letter to Jim Jones from Bea McCann, January 27, 1978
27/1/78
To Dad,
I am writing you concerning my thievery since I have been here. First, I stole a blouse. It came back in my laundry bag and I knew it didn’t belong there and I took it because I liked it. Then there was a red blanket I got from the laundry house during the first crisis. Again I thought I liked it. From the food lines, getting two plates and eating them both because it had a good dessert or main dish. A cookie from a senior, at the time it was because I wanted it. I took a pair of panties from the ware house because I left a pair of mine in shower and I just had to replace them. A red blouse I took that came to our house, I took it because I lost a red blouse.
What all this boils down to is elitism. My thoughts were on what I wanted Monopolizing everything I can, making sure Bea gets whatever she wants no matter what the cost to you or the person who comes out short. I’ve always had my way and still tries to have it. I also feel it could be an indirect act of hostility towards you. Here, you are a constant reminder and example of what I should be and should be doing. It’s hard to face that example when you are an elitess who hates work, who hates to face anything, who takes advantage which is what I have done. I’m sorry Dad to throw this type of failure in your face for you have taught me better. I will rectify this.
Thank you, Dad,
Bea McCann
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EE-1-M-62
Letter to Jim Jones from Bette McCann, November 10, 1977
Dear Father,
As I was eating my dinner this evening Cassandra told me there was a phone call from Melvin Johnson who wished to talk to me about a pink slip of his that we were holding. He told Cassandra that he was going to sell the car and needed the pink slip. I got the number from her and went upstairs to check thru the pink slips and then to contact Mr. Johnson.
I found that there were two pink slips one for a 1976 Chevrolet Station Wagon and the other for a 1957 Ford Pick Up truck. The truck had as the registered owner Melvin Johnson and as the legal owner Peoples Temple. I then contacted Jack Beam for information as to Mr. Johnsons status with the church. He (Jack Beam) said to contact Melvin and see what he had to say.
I then phoned Mr. Johnson and asked him if I could be of help. He said that he had been given a Ford Pick up truck after his own truck had broken down inRedwood Valley and that he had thought that the truck was his but since Peoples Temple was listed as the legal owner how could he become the legal owner? I told him I would look into the matter and call him back.
Jack and I re-examined the pink slips. (We did this because I had asked Melvin Johnson to give me a description of the truck and he had been rather reluctant to describe it.) Since the truck is so old and is undoubtedly thru time and tide very beaten up anyhow we thought it would be the best P.R. if we gave it to him. We are having Jean Brown sign the pink slip as Power of Attorney. We are also asking Melvin Johnson to sign a note saying that he has received both pink slips from Peoples Temple.
I then called Mr. Johnson on the phone and told him we would have the pink slips available to him anytime tomorrow morning if he would be good enough to call at our front desk. He seemed quite relieved and said he would be over for them tomorrow…
Thankyou Father
/s/ Bette McCann
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EE-1-M-70 – M-71
Letter to Jim Jones from Bette McCann, February 17, 1978
February 17, 1978
Report to Jim Jones
From Bette McCann San Francisco Temple
Dear Bishop:
How are you and all of our wonderful Comrades in the beautiful city of Jonestown? We have new pictures to look at now and how we do enjoy them. Thankyou so very much. The pictures show how hard you are all working and the wonderful progress you have made. Truly a miracle city. We all enjoy the letters we get from the P.L. [Promised Land] and we share them with one another. It’s a great thrill to get a letter from somebody in Jonestown, it makes one feel so much closer to what is happening down there.
We enjoy hearing you on the radio and we love the tapes you have sent to us. My favorite is the one of you fighting with my little “Wild Italiano” He has really come out of his shell. I’m so glad for him, and for all of our babies.
The purpose of this letter Bishop is to give a report to you of what is happening in the accounting office lately.
Truth Enterprises has slowed down quite a bit but it is still active. They have received small checks from time to time that has paid for a good many of their bills. We had a setback with back taxes but that is now cleared up and everything is fine with that account.
Valley Enterprises has been spending a great deal of money on items for the P.L.. The last two months since the Finance Committee became active has settled this account down and it is more under control. The money is being evaluated, which I have felt all along was most important. The Finance Committee is doing a fine job. I have sent you the last two months payables for both Truth and Valley so that you may see what is happening. I will be reporting to you regularly in the future.
Robin Tschetter and I collaborate on the Money Order Payables. We have tried to cut out all unnecessary expenditures. June Crym and Jean Brown do a great deal of work on this account also. They make the decisions of what to pay and what not to pay. And on this account that is one heck of a job. We have had all kinds of experiences and one day we may write a book. People going off to the P.L and neglecting to tell us about their bills has been the worst problem, but we think we’ve got it licked now. Phyllis Houston asks everybody going over about their bill problems and this helps a great deal. We have fewer communes and this saves money too. We are all concentrating on saving as much as we possibly can.
We are also cutting down on the car insurance and selling as many cars as possible. Irv Perkins has charge of the selling. As the insurance runs out if they are in General Use we sell them. So many of the cars we have are old and take too many repairs and the insurance costs more than the car is worth. Also so many are now overseas that we don’t need a huge fleet of cars sitting around in the back yard. Even so the back yard is still quite full. We are looking forward to a much neater and emptier back yard as soon as we possibly can. On a few of the cars we have had legal problems that have had to go thru the Beaurocracy of the Department of Motor Vehicles. Oy, what a place that is, frustrating but quite educational. Will report to you next month.
Thankyou for the opportunity to serve.
Thankfully yours,
Bette McCann
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EE-1-M-53
Undated note to Jim Jones from Eileen McCann
Eileen McCann
Father,
Yes, I do absolutely want to get to the Freedom Land. There’s no question about that in my mind.
I am willing to follow all instructions that mother and counsel or anyone told to give instructions. All instructions will be followed out. What ever it takes to get there I’m willing.
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EE-1-M-101
Undated memo from Eileen McCann
Socialism is complete and total economic equality. Socialism is the only thing to live and especially the only reason to die. It means everything to me. I’m willing to die for Socialism! Or also do anything else it may call for because for me it’s easier to die than make do something else. But what has to be done must be done for socialism.
Eileen McCann
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EE-1-M-17
Letter to Jim Jones from Maria McCann, January 1, 1978
January 1, 1978
Dear Dad,
I feel very guilty about my hostilities towards you, but I do have a couple. First, I felt hostile toward you when I found out my sister might die. Even though I know it is her own fault for not following you I kept questioning you in my mind wondering why you couldn’t heal her like everyone else. I also feel hostile toward you when you make a rule that makes something inconvenient for me. This is because I am a selfish bitch and am only thinking of myself instead of the collective. Today I was hostile when I heard about the rule of mothers not showering with male children. I don’t do this often, but when I do it is for my convenience. I am overly possessed with an attachment to my child, and I realize he needs male companionship, but it is very hard for me to let go of him because of my selfishness and hostility to Paul.
Yes, I have occasionally had sexual feelings towards you. But I dont ponder on it or think about it much. I feel guilty about even thinking it because you are so much more than a sexual image, and I feel even to just think it is lowering ones image of you and the principal you are. As far as my hostilities go, I feel towards you as a child feels toward his parent when he is told to do something that he doesnt want to. But after I think about it, I always realize it is for our own good and feel bad about even feeling hostile at all.
Thank you Dad,
Maria McCann
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EE-R-I-46-47
Letter to Jim Jones from Maria Ruggerio McCann
Feb. 17, 1978
Dear Dad,
I would like to thank you for yesterday’s experience with death. I’m glad I got to feel what it’s like to be so close and then have to come back. It was a disappointment in some ways to me. As far as my thoughts after, I drank the solution – I was trying not to think at all. I just wanted it to be over with. I thought about all the years in this cause & how it was coming to an end. I kept looking at you & was grateful you had come into my life. I forced myself not to think of Michael [Angelo McCann, son] because I knew I would cry & I didn’t want to. It is so amazing to me how we live here from one day to another. One day, we are drinking a death potion & the next day we’re producing in the fields as though we have a long life before us. It’s really incredible & is building strength in us. I’m still a coward as to seeing my comrades spread all bloody on the field. I prefer revolutionary suicide. But how do we know exactly when to do it? These crises have made me stronger Dad. I know I’m very family oriented and I still think of my relatives in the states, but not as much as before. Even if we die today I feel grateful for the time we had with you which made our lives worth living. I feel very stupid because I don’t let your teachings sink in my head. Sometimes I can sit through a whole service and not even remember one thing that happened. There’s no excuse for this & I’m working on it. You try your god damnest to teach us & I felt very ashamed when you said yesterday you felt like a failure. You’re not Dad! Just because of a few ignorant assholes like myself are too self centered to make ourselves listen & learn, does not mean you failed – it means we failed.
As far as wasting in the states – I used to ask for unnecessary needs money + spend my money on junk food instead of what I asked for. When my mom would give me money I would spend it instead of turning it in. Also a few weeks before I came here I started smoking cigarettes with Maureen Odell.
Dad, I don’t understand why you told us to feel good about ourselves yesterday when we drank the potion. I don’t feel good about myself at all. Shouldn’t I die thinking about all my guilts & not anything good I did – if any?
Thank you Dad,
Maria Ruggiero [McCann]
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EE-1-M-54 – M-57
Undated letter to Jim Jones from Paul McCann
Father,
Last night you talked about a bunch of newspaper articles that you brought with you from the States. One article was about John Mahor [Maher], the head of Delancey Street. They were accusing him of tax fraud. You said that Delancey Street has helped a lot of ex-convicts and that there is a good chance that some of them could get mad about it and start trouble in the streets. You said that this is also what they are going to do to us so that they will have a reason to take over when people start rebeling in the streets. You also read an article about how someone said, I think, it was a judge, but I’m not sure, that rape was a normal reaction that you should expect from middle class whites who are tired of supporting people on welfare, and he meant blacks. There was also an article about how the K.K.K. is dressing babies in K.K.K. uniforms. There was also an article about how someone painted a sign on the Boston courthouse saying everyone should own a niger. You said it took the A.C.L.U. 2 weeks and a great big fight just to get the sign taken down. There was also an article about how a ladys house was sold for $171.00 and it was worth $40,000.00 and she couldn’t do anything about it. There was also an article about how gays right and how different states are taking away all the rights that the Supreme Court said they have. You also spoke about the problems that we are having. One of them is that we are using too much water and when the 450 people come down here from the States on July 4th we will not have enough showers as things are now. We are also short of food for so many people, you said that most of the problem was solved because you had ordered 3 months more food. You said that we should not eat as many eggs as we have been. We can eat more colestrol here than we could in the States. we also have a problem with not enough housing for all of these new people. We also have a problem with not enough wood to make a sidewalk out to the new project. Charles and Jerry gave their book reports. You said that if our loved ones don’t show up with the 450 then it either means that they have been chosen to stay till the very end or that they were just not cooperating back in the States like they should have.
Thank you Father,
Paul McCann
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EE-1-M-26, EE-1-M-27
A letter to “Mother” [Marceline Jones] from Carol McCoy
Mother,
I feel I didn’t say something I should have the other night when you told me about the miracle of Marcy. I was so stunned I couldn’t say anything. I thought about how selfish I am in doing my own thing and how he goes on no matter what. Dad has sure done a lot for me. I would have lost 2 children and one a vegetable & one an epletic if he had not given me the conviction so many yrs. ago that all people should be equal.
When I was in L.A. mom was sick and only sent Patty [Cartmell] to church. Dad told her had she not come that night she would have died early that next morning with a brain hemorrage. Patty & Marcy are two examples of the fact that no matter where I would have been nothing could have been done for them except thru Dad.
I got so lonely to see them, I know how you must feel, but I honestly don’t want to be with them until they have had a chance to grow and until I am no longer needed here. I feel more of a responsibility to stay here with you& do what I can. Just knowing that there is a place for our people is so thrilling. It feels so good to be able to wake up in the mornings & know that no harm can come to any of people there.
I always had a fear that some day Bill would show up and mentally tear the kids apart, but now I don’t have that fear. It feels so good.
I was afraid to go anywhere for fear Bill would end up coming around. When I was in L.A. I use to have dreams that he showed up giving the kids trouble.
In my own crazy way I am very deeply grateful for what Dad has done for my kids & me. I’m grateful for what he does for all. I hear about the things going on in the P.L. [Promised Land] & I start crying – the building, the learning, the healings. Its hard to imagine how Dad could have so much love when so many step on him so easily, but its not hard to see when one looks around here & see all thats been accomplished.
I thank Dad also for giving you the strength & courage & conviction to go on as you have. I have always felt deeply about you both and I know now that you both have and show the qualities that I use to dream about families being. Its hard to explain. Mom gave me the best life she could but there was a lot I couldn’t go for and she still don’t understand sometimes but that’s OK. At one time I blamed her for my life being so miserable but I thank her now for sticking with Dad when it got rough so that I would finally be where I really wanted to be. I hate the thought of having lived in a racist capitalistic system where I would have finally destroyed myself. That’s where it would have been & that’s where I was for a while.
I guess I could go on & on but I know you are a very busy Mother and I don’t want to take anymore of your time. I did want you to know how I feel and that I am grateful.
Thank you Father – Thank you
Carol McCoy
P.S. Sorry for the writing but I just can’t get it down right when I type it.
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EE-1-M-3 – M-4
Letter to Jim Jones from Annie McGowan, September 6, 1977
1) To Father Sept 6, 1977
the Senate Bill 1427 took the Bill of Senate 1. if a Polise ask you what is on his mine if you tell him what you thank. He can send you to prison for life of shoot you down on the spot.
The nopon Bomb. can kill every thing that alive and not hurt the Bilding
i thank father for Bringing us to a Socialist home where one should be for all and all for one where every one will have a Plenty to eat, and no one to little no one to murch [much], a land where there is happiness to help Bild a home for Socialist where we wont hav e to get of the streets when the Racis are walking and our Babies can get milk and pure food, and not Be hungry our water are pure and not Be afread to let
i all so thank father for Bringing his children a home
Now, i can Sleep well here where no Police is kicking down doors.
i now have a new home, a new life to live.
Thank you father
Annie McGowan
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EE-1-M-22 – M-25
Undated note addressed to Jim Jones from Steven McIntosh
To Father
From Steven McIntosh
Hello Dad
How are you and the family doing? Fine I hope. I am doing O.K. But i have a little prablom and thin it may be a big prablom because Pumkin Winters is having a baby by me and we bothe went to Counsel and they ask us wath or we going to do about the baby. And i sad we or going to keep it and thin they ask Pumkin and she sad the same thing. OK. this is how we wond up in counsel because i was staying whit pumkin and Renee her baby win she was living on page st. But i was told to move back in the church, and sad i was but i don’t. Because i don’t won’t to stay in that room becouse at frist i was staying whit Edna Bowman and i was going whit Patricia Bowman and we brokup behond he say & she say shit.
So i stared seeing pumkin and one thing lade to another. So win i move her from page st to 998 Divisadera. I move in whit her, so i have been staying whit her sence 9-6-77 to 10-22-77. And becouse Jack and counsel sad for me to move in the chuch and sattel down before i git into any more turble. So i move in 10-23-77 in the same room and i am not having any prabloms.
But Father before the baby came along we wint to git marred. But iam fine’lly saddicefind [satisfied] I find somebody that i went and we care about each other and we’ll trying to make it. And sences we been going togather she’s been more here in San Francisco thin in olkland all the time.
So Father i’am sorry for doing what i did becouse you don’t love me back here to make baby’s you lift me back here to work and i am going improve my work and what i’am sopost to do and more. And i’am sorry for leting ore family down over there over
And here i hope there understand why we did whit we did.
We still want to git marred and we hopeing you ok it becouse you the only one understand all probloms and we’re trying to give life a try.
And i will be by her side the hole 9 month. and will do what ever i have to nomatter what happing i won’t leave her side i won’t to be right there whit her. and i no having a baby is not the easy thin for a sister to have.
That’s all i have to say fore now
i have to turn this in to counsel hope to here from you soon.
Thank you, Jim
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EE-1-M-28
Undated letter to Jim Jones from Clara McKenzie
Love and peace Father
The reasons why we had to leave America is, one is because of the rich ruling class which is Capitalism that will round up all people of color and put them in Concentration Camps. The camps is already available. Another reason why they will round up people of color is if a black nation go into war with the United States they will do this just as they did with the Japanese. Another is ethnic weapons something they could use in the water that would kill off black or other minority groups. Others reasons is water, food, and fuel shortage and earthquakes. There is a law thats in efect now if a policeman accuse you of something and you know that you are inocent, he can & will put you in jail. One other things is the nutron bomb. It will kill all humans around and won’t even touch buildings and other things. I thank you Father for bringing us to a beautiful free country and that we won’t have to suffer and be tortured and put into concentration camps. I also thank you for thinking about our other brothers and sisters all over.
Clara McKenzie
P.S. The United States is one of three states that didn’t sign against genecide
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EE-1-M-13 – M-14
Letter to Jim Jones from Diana McKnight, October 19, 1977
19-10-77
To: Father:
I was close to Violet Jones in S.F. We had an understanding type of relationship that was not based on sex. When she comes I would like to continue our relationship. Several people said that she was mean, that is only because they didn’t try to get to know her. I understood her and she understood me and that is why we became so close. The reason for this is because we listened to Father’s teachings and compared our thoughts to his words.
I have thought about having a relationship with a (light complected bro.) because my relationship with Freezed [Freeze Dry] was fucked, because he took my kindness for weakness, the light complected brother that I have thought about is Mike Prokes. One reason is because he’s older, and more mature in mind. I wasn’t looking at any type of sexual relationship in the person it was just that he seemed like he was an understanding type of person. If I was to have a relationship at this time I’m sure that it wouldn’t affect my work habits. Being that Mike works on the radio most of the time then when we did get a chance to talk it would be worth it because we wouldn’t be in each others face everyday and he could keep up his responsibilities. When he wanted to talk to someone of the offosite sex it would be legal, I would be willing to accept this type of relationship because then I could grow more by it. I never looked at Mike until he looked at me, in Jonestown, never in (S.F.)
I have thought about a younger black bro Herbert Newell. Mainly because he acts more mature then others. I am sexually attracted to this brother, because he gives me respect. When I wanted to talk to someone, he would listen and the same with him I would listen, other than being to involved with someone this is it.
Lee Ingram & Tim Carter were another one but they are both married and that stopped that.
Thank – Father
Diana McKnight
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EE-1-M-73
Self-Criticism from Diana Macon [Diane McKnight], February 21, 1978
Self Criticism 21/2/78
Thank-you Dad for giving me an opportunity to be here. In criticizing myself I feel that I don’t work as hard as I can and my attitude is not one to be commended. I don’t get to know my comrades by speaking and talking to them (everyone).
I have a tendancy to stay around a silent few that I know well. I don’t express myself as often as I should because I fear rejection. In going to Georgetown I don’t like being away from home and the family, but I will go if I am sent and represent our cause as I think you would have me to do.
I would like to help our financial situation in any way that I can. I will improve my attitude and speak up whenever I think I should.
Thank Dad
Diana Macon
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Undated Note on Jim Jones’ Pain from Rose McKnight
EE-2-l-6
I think that a part of the pain you feel is taken by seeing so many defectors & traitors you have given so much of yourself to leave us and put so much filthy lies about you and this socialistic movement.
Also part of your pain no doubt comes from looking at all you have given us and provided, yet still we don’t work to produce nearly enough to help provide resources to try & get the rest of our family here. We waste too much money & time by destroying property. I include myself in this because I too waste too much.
I know I can fully grasp all of your pains & sorrows, but I do know that I’ll not be able to experience all the pain you have and still be able to bear them without breaking up mentally & physically.
Thank you Dad – Rose McKnight
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Undated Note about Jim Jones Miracle from Rose McKnight
EE-2-l-8
Johnny –
Please thank Dad for me for the beautiful thing he did for me Tuesday.
I woke up unable to get air – when I got to the nurse I was choking. When Dale [Parks] examined me a job an inflamed throat with a swelling shut of the windpipe. The medication he gave me was not working sufficiently & when I was admitted to SCU [Special Care Unit], we were getting ready to do a tracheotomy. By the time I got to bed, I was able to breathe.
I know it was only Dad that restored me and kept me from dying. I thank him for every breath I take –
Rose McKnight
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EE-1-M-100 – M-100a
Undated memo from Henry Mercer, written by Rita Tupper
Henry Mercer – written by Rita Tupper
why we Left the U.S.
Russia had the Lazer Bomb and would use it to destroy the world.
We were saved from Genicide
We were saved from Earthquake
We are over here in a free country where we are not molested are not robbed or killed.
Bill-1427 – when a cop arrest you you have to speak what he is thinking or you will be charged with a federal crime
china is putting all their cities underground
3 Countries failed to sign the Human Rights – chile, South africa, United States
an oil shortage – be a fight between the King of Saudi Arbria
Saved from necular Reacters South Africa has a necular Reacter, will have atomic Bomb.
We are first class citizens here not second class citizens anymore I am glad to be free from this Capitalistic oppression
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EE-1-M-47
A note about Judy Merriam. Author unnamed
Judy Merriam
She has been writing & calling Hugh Doswell trying to get him to come back
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EE-1-M-48 – M-51
Letter to Jim Jones from Judy Merriam, February 10, 1978
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February 10, 1978
Father –
Thank you for the many blessings you have given us here. I get uptight with the seniors here at 1029 Geary now, and then I hope that I don’t have to take care of them over there, like I do over here. I know things are set up differently over there, for them, than here. I feel guilty about feeling that way – I feel sorry sometimes for the seniors, and sometimes they make me so mad I wish they were in a convalescent hospital, so that they would appreciate what they have here more, than what I think they do. My upper left side of the spine, has been stiff and hurting for going on six days now, and I think it is because I held out five dollars instead of putting it in, and also because I get real upset with the seniors, and I was moving that same week to another apartment in this building. When I think about the pain that you go through, and people that are tortured, then my left side doesn’t really hurt, its just a little uncomfortable. Chris Kice told me that I should go to the doctor to see about it, but I don’t think it is necessary, because each day it seems to pain less, and less. A doctor two years ago told me that I had arthritis on my spine, and there was nothing I could actually do for it. (I just have to not get upset like I do – that aggravates it.) I’m putting $3.00 in (the offering) on that $5.00, I held back. I wanted to use the $5.00 for long – distant phone calls, in case you told me it was alright to go
(Hugh told me that I could call if I wanted to ahead and call Hugh Doswell. I wrote a letter, and mailed it to you in Guyana, in Jan. – I think it was the first week of Jan. I called Hugh back since then, and he told me that the court had let him keep the other two children because Lavera wasn’t doing the children right. So, thanks to you Father, Hugh has all four children. Hugh had to buy the children brand new clothes because Lavera wouldn’t give those two children’s clothes to him when he picked them up – that’s what Hugh’s dad told me. From what Hugh said I guess his divorce will be final this month (Feb.)
The children and Hugh all live in San Bernardino with Hugh’s parents. I wanted to keep in contact with Hugh – but I don’t know if its alright to or not – I know one time we were told not to – about a year or more ago – and I know he has to do some things before he can come back – I don’t know or remember what things. I was hoping to get an answer to the letter I wrote to you, but then I told myself that I shouldn’t expect a letter from you. I didn’t give the letter to a counselor to send to you, because I was afraid that the counselors would read it, and not send it to you, and tell me what to do, or be upset with me for contacting Hugh – I know he’s not one of the most desirable, talented, or pleasant personalities in the group, but neither am I. I was working a part-time small paying job, and I paid for the calls out of that money. If I shouldn’t call him anymore at all than I won’t. I just keep hoping that he’ll do what he’s suppose to do to get back in. I’m going to try to work something out with Vernell Hendersson about getting a night job taking care of someone to bring extra money in. Some of the people that come to the church would ask us; me, & Mabel, etc., if we got our letter from Guyana yet. We said, “no, we didn’t get a letter.” Then they said, ” well, you’ll probably will be getting it soon.” This was around Xmas Time – I think it was only non-communal people that were getting these letters – the letters had a little leaf in them. I don’t know if there were any other letters given out besides the ones about sponsoring a child, or children. Is it possible that we all could have a leaf, or something from Guyana? It does get lonesome at times when we are so apart physically.
I like to hear you on the radio, and I wish we could hear you more often. I always get depressed when I try to diet, or stick to some kind of diet for a period of time – that is normal for me. Thank you Dad Jim for letting us write to you, and taking the time to read this letter. Thank you for Guyana, Jonestown, and our good health.
Love
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Undated Note to Jim Jones from Virginia Middleton
EE-2-l-7
Dear Dad,
Can’t get along with nobody. Myself until you would stop mine my. They do some to Dad. Can’t do nothing for somebody else. Myself.
Virginia Middleton
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Undated Letter to Jim Jones from Christine Miller
EE-2-l-5a – 5b
I am grateful for the experience that I have had since coming to Jonestown. I am not too happy now though as you may know, maybe because I do not have the peace that I had expected. Maybe I’m thinking about myself too much. I should be more concerned about others.
I have concerned about your health as the Leader, about the future of the children. I am interested in learning and knowledge, but it seems we are so pushed, trying to work every day and produce, and trying to get the news off boards when there is so little paper, no time to study.
I am used to traveling often, and I can’t do that here, and this bothers me. I’m used to doing what I want to do, when I want to do it. It seems that I’m in a cage like a bird. I haven’t gotten adjusted. I don’t think that I have made much of a contribution toward the cause by coming here. I feel that I am a liability rather than an asset. This bothers me. I look at myself and wonder why am I living. To me I am merely existing. I don’t see that I am accomplishing anything. Sometimes I feel like crying, and sometimes I do, but who was it that don’t weep sometime.
I am a tired person, very, very tired. I have worked hard all my born days. Started in the fields when I was too small to pull a cotton sack, and left motherless at a very early age. I worked hard, pulled up by my own bootstraps, no one helped me. Now that I’m older & my pace is slower, I don’t like to be pushed.
I have no sexual ambitions. I have overcome that, Thank goodness.
I am very happy you stop the fighting among ourselves and the hostility among ourselves on the floor. I am totally against that. More love should be shown among ourselves. But it’s hard to show it here, for it seems when you do, you get your ass kicked. Some enjoy cursing, beating and knocking others around. I am against this.
I want to live the rest of my days quietly and peacefully this is all I ask for. Please let me do this.
Christine Miller
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EE-1-M-102
Undated memo from Lucy Miller
Why we left United State because the CIA was going to kill all Black peoples, poor white and indians and going to put chemicals in the water to kill them. Senate Bill 1427 the police will come and rest you if you don’t give the right answer. Them to it was going to be a water shorted also food. Them to the Earth Quick very bad in Unite State the netrum Bumb is the that kill peoples; The and will not destroy paper
Lucy Miller
D [Dorm] 5
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EE-1-M-69
Undated note from Cassandra Minor
I am Cassandra Minor Bruno. I here that one of my brothers is showing a sudden interest in me. I am not interested in his concern. I am 21 years old. I am married & going to be a mother very soon. I’m very happy here & want to be left alone. I am studying to be a dietitian. & I like my work. Good bye.
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EE-1-M-59 – M-61
Undated statement by Guy Mitchell
I feel that if death comes my way that I can accept it. That is a Revolutionary death for then I will die for some reason, life is not worth living if you don’t have something to live for, and being in Jonestown, that is alowing to come to Jonestown, I not only see but can feel that there is more to live or die for than any other thing there was before in my living days. Fears, the only thing that I can think of is that, the fear of the way I would die – whether by knife, bullit, bomb ect., but when the white nights are called, I don’t think of this. This is a fear from the States for I lived in some pretty bad neighborhoods where in as people were cut up and put in ditches, brokin in houses and killing without mercy, I have seen, and felt death in the States all around me wondering when I could be next. Methods of getting and enemy, I don’t know of any for first you must know the overall aspect of a situation and then plan your methods from there. What would happen to me if anything happens to Dad, for one thing whenever it happens to Dad and whatever happen to Dad I hope it happens to me to, but if not what ever his last orders are will be carred out to the fullest, so from that point is what will happen to me. Prepare to kill wife & child if traitor, if they were to become or was traitor they will be delt with accordenly, because to leave a capitalist hell and come to a free land, with mind & body, and seeing the many smiles on all the peoples faces, and to become a traitor or not appreciate this that was given to us, well then they deserve to die. I miss nothing from the state, no there is nothing there that is worth sacarficing my life for, unless it was to benefit the cause, which would be impossible for as soon as I would arrive they would snatch me, SO I wouldn’t even have time to benefit anything. My sexual feeling is to women, a matured strong women, but I could do without if it had to be, and as for as a gun for ego, I don’t go for, showing your ego is not showing you strength, I am not here to praise what I am, but to show what I can be, NEWS THAT Happened last week, – Prime Minister of Israel (fascist) was the victim of an assassination attempt by his own party. Quabec denounced trade with South Africa Brave stand behind 3rd world, and a stand against the racist regime of South Africa, Socialism to me means freedom of capital rulings, working together for land that is the people, & knowing that their is something to fight for on a equality base. Threats hear last on was when Dr Reed and others denied DR SHAT [Schacht] licensing (DR) of Guyana, & when they wanted our children to go to Guyana schools, but this has been resolved. THREAT in PEOPLES Temple in Calf. – the Earthquake which shook & destroyed homes, but none of People Temple people got hurt or property destroyed, & They might soon try to run a tax invasion scandle on us for we have property in which we are trying to sell.
THANK DAD
Guy Mitchell
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EE-1-M-104 – M-105
Undated letter to Jim Jones from Guy Mitchell
To Dad
I have nothing against security, for I believe that this is something that must be when you have a large body of people, as well as not knowing who will do what next including myself. As far as the United States, I have not and will not ever think of going back there, I have seen too much corruption in the state especially in states as Indiana – blacks killing blacks for dope – that the whites controlled in the streets, Texas prejudice in every aspect, Louisiana also prejudice. And if seeing isn’t believing what is, so to see all the seniors with a smile knowing she dosn’t have to go to a old folk home, or a young man or woman not having to go to jail and given a second chance – is more than words can express – and to know that I walk a land free of all (capitalist decision). It’s not a dream yet it seems like a dream. And to die for all of this is enough to die for – yes a lot of us say we will die, but knowing in ourselves that this is not what we want – I carry fears for not death, but what kind of death, yet listening to you talk Dad, helps me be stronger and these fears I have, I will not show, for you gave me a chance to be a leader, and in being a leader and wanting our children to be leaders, you have to be strong and show leadership abilities.
Thank Dad
Guy Mitchell
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EE-1-M-52
Note to Jim Jones from Linda Mitchell, April 18, 1977
Linda Mitchell
4/18/77
Yes I’m willing to follow orders. And I do want to go to the freedom land, Because that’s the only place where you can have total freedom and peace. I’m willing to do anything I’m suppose to do. And I won’t get involved in nothing I no am not suppose to do anymore. Ill do all my chores, jobs around the church and I’ll phamplet to make up for what I did.
Thank you Father.
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EE-1-k-14
Biographical notes of Rennie Kice from Annie Moore
Rennie Kice
Sis: Mrs. Melba Smith
120 W. 14th St.
Marion, Indiana 46952
Mom: Mrs. Mary Moore
1332 Woodlawn Ave.
Logansport, Indiana 46947
Sis & Bro: Mrs. Betty L. McDaniel
2803 S. Michigan
Chicago, Ill
Fred Flowers – same address
Sis: Miss Wanda L. Flowers
West Haven, Connecticut
Carolyn [Layton] – I copied this off a paper Rennie has in the bond because she acts like she is fond of her relatives – told me she likes her mother etc. I thought it should be saved just in case.
Annie [Moore]
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[Editor’s note: This memo is discussed on this page, as one of several documents written by Temple members with ideas on mass suicide.]
I started out for revolutionary suicide, almost switched to fighting but stick to suicide now. One main reason is that even though we have made arrangements for the children if we fight there is no guarantee that at the last hour to destruct, it would not be so late that the enemy would not be parading amongst our buildings searching for anyone left and find us with few of our children dead. I would like to be on the frontlines and fight for my own personal decision but I could not do it without knowing the children were ok. It is not my decision to make. I never thought people would line up to be killed but actually think a select group would have to kill the majority of the people secretly without the people knowing it. The way – I don’t know. Poisoning food or water supply I heard of. Exhaust fumes in a closed area (carbon monoxide) I heard was effective while people are asleep. It would be terrorizing for some people if we were to have them all in the group and start chopping heads off or whenever – this is why it would have to be secretly.
People fight for their land and rights daily but it seems that if we did the same we would be characterized as the same – oppressed group struggling for liberty. If we kill ourselves maybe we would be categorized as lunatics but at least we would be assured that our people could not sell us out or be tortured or taken and brainwashed (the children). The manuscript he mentioned could be sent to whomever – Russia or Cuba, maybe even to the States though they were change it around. People would listen more to what we had to say
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because 800 people taking their lives would be quite something to read about.
They will lie on us no matter what we do anyway. If we fought it would look stupid if they changed the story that we were fascists fighting black Guyanese socialists because I believe the soldiers would be brainwashed against us – they wouldn’t know who they were really fighting. From my experience in Georgetown, the Guyanese don’t understand who we are anyway.
I don’t know what weapons we have but I think we don’t have much of a chance of survival. We would be slaughtered and then although I didn’t think of it until someone mentioned it last night – they could probably add to their story that a lot of our people were cowards and ran from them. Maybe Mike [Touchette] and Albert [Touchette] have a loyalty to this land since they have been here so long, but I think Americans grow up with no loyalty to anything – land or principle. Many in the group have developed some loyalty – even new people since we have been here – maybe they would fight to be true to you – which is why I would fight – others to fight for the land. But what a farce it would be to be slaughtered and captured and risk our children’s lives to be taken to the fascists. So I am saying here I don’t know how many would stand up to fight.
So I am basically cynical about how far you can trust our people. The main reason for suicide – to assure safety to the children
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and from the others standpoint of history – it would go down better and might stir others to become socialists or more active – such a drastic action as suicide.
It would be nice for our children to be able to grow somewhere communistically and safely, but if this can be accomplished I don’t know. I don’t relish the idea of participating in killing the children and I don’t think anyone does but I will do it because I think I could be as compassionate as the next person about it, and I don’t hate children. I know Stephen [Stephan Jones] is true to you but some of the people who jump and say “fight” – I don’t think look at the consequences. It is an easy way out for some to just go to the frontline – fight and die and not have to be worried about the children or seniors or others injured or whatever who would no doubt be left to meet the fascists – unless our planning was so secure as to assure death to the children and seniors.
At this point when I thought we should fight was when I was accepting that life will always fuck us over, that our people would have to suffer – that’s just the way life is – you will always get fucked over so what did it matter – our people deserved it anyway – why are we better than anyone that we can’t be tortured also. But then you said we could plan our deaths – we
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didn’t have to just die – we could try to have impact on the world and save our children. So I switched back to suicide. I felt like if we fought – maybe to each one it would mean something but it almost seemed to me – well, we’re going to get fucked over by life again, because I think there is no guarantee on our children dying securely in the middle of a battle. With our plan now – the way we would like to do it – it may take up to two hours.
Also I think what a slap in the face to fascists it would be to take our own lives before they could have the pleasure of it. Then again they might probably be glad they didn’t have manpower or guns to waste on us. They would have to clean up the remains and would have the story we have left to remember us by.
I think life is a fuck over anyhow whatever we do but maybe less with the revolutionary suicide – so I stick to it. I’ll do whatever is expected of me no matter what you have me to do.
From,
Annie Moore
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EE-1-M-9 – M-10
Undated memo from Annie Moore
I think there is no place in the world for all of us in P.T. We are the most socialistic of anyone I know of and I would have to see Cuba, China or U.S.S.R., before I believed differently. Wherever we go, we seem to be the oddballs and I think that is the way it would be even if we tried to immigrate to some “Socialist” or “Communist” country. If a “true” Socialist country accepted us, I would go so maybe the children would grow up with some meaning in their lives but for myself I would rather just die here fighting the enemy because there is nothing else in life that has meaning but to fight inequality, racism, and facism. I do not want to go back to the U.S. because I think we have no chance of anything there. If the group decided to go I would come and would always fight oppression until death there but I think half if not the majority of the people would go back and sell out. So I think if we don’t get assylum for the children’s sake then we should all die here so no one can sell out to the facists. I am willing to do anything asked of me. I wish we could get the U.S people here so they can fight with us and not betray us there, leaving back only a few trusted ones to destroy the traitors. Whatever comes, I pledge to the cause of socialism that I will never ever betray the cause of Socialism and will fight until my death.
Annie Moore
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EE-1-M-29
A letter to Ann S. Moore [Annie Moore] from Mary A. McGuire.
CITY AND COUNTY OF SAN FRANCISCO
DEPARTMENT OF PUBLIC HEALTH
SAN FRANCISCO GENERAL HOSPITAL
INTER-OFFICE MEMORANDUM
Date: May 17, 1977 Subject: Sick Leave
From: Mary A. McGuire, Dir. of Nsg [Nursing]
To: Ann S. Moore
We received your letter asking for approval of Sick Leave until June 10, 1977. Your sick leave is approve. Please return the Sick Leave papers completed with your Dr”s signature.
Sincerely,
/s/ M. McGuire DN
Mary A. McGuire, RN
Director of Nurses
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EE-1-M-108
Undated letter to Jim Jones from Lydia Morgan
Peace & Love Dad,
Good morning, Dad I want to thank you for being there all ways when I needed you. Dad sincerely it wonderful being in this freedom land. When I came in from the states I was having female problem of which I was not aware. I feel more relaxed & interested in myself for the way they handle me. Doctor told me of my problem eve showed me the cause and treated it. I can see all the achievement one can get by applying and co-operating with one other. If it wasn’t for you I know I wouldn’t be as aware as I am now. Socialism is a complete new way of life for me. Dad Thank You for our meals Thank you for the News, For the care you give the children, senior, worker, (all). Thank you for the way we are learning to be Socialist. Last night I was feel down because of the way some people around here act, but as tears can from my eye I thought on you, I was on my job as the nursey, so I got up to go to the restroom hope my dad wouldn’t see me. But you were there and all my feel passed to see you after the long day you had with the guest we had. Thank you Dad and I do appreciate you.
Lydia Morgan
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EE-1-M-12
Note from Lugenia Morrison, September 5, 1977
Lugenia Morrison
Sept. 5, 1977
D#2 – B #40
Some of the reasons why I left the U.S.
- To escape earthquakes that will drop the earth in the sea.
- Senate Bill 1427 that drop ages back to 14 yrs of age to be killed.
- Chemicals put in water & foods that kills only blacks and poor whites.
- A plan for unfair extradition to Dennis Banks the Indians.
- Neuclar Wars
- Neutron Bomb that only kill people and not destroy property.
- To escape the Racist, we can now walk anywhere and don’t have to be called niggers with a nasty tone of voice.
- To escape Capitalism, and live in a country that cares and shares.
- To escape food shortage – we now have a land that can grow plenty.
- To escape concentration camp, we are now free, and can fight for what we believe.
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EE-1-M-15
Letter to Jim Jones from Lugenia Morrison, October 19, 1977
Oct 19, 1977
To Father
Since my operation I have very little desire for sex, but the man I was attracted to is still in the states Charles Brooks. I know am part lesbian because I have had dealings with one in L.A. She was Spanish Her name was Elsie. I haven’t become attracted to any one here yet.
Thank you Father
Lugenia Morrison
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EE-2-l-3
Note of Self-Criticism by Lugenia Morrison, November 1978
[Editor’s note: Grammatical and spelling errors corrected throughout.]
Wednesday 11-7-78 Jonestown
Lugenia Morrison
Report on Elitism
Dear Dad,
It’s hard for me to face my elitism, it’s even sickening. When I think of 3 out of 4 babies going to bed hungry every night. I just can’t see how I think I should eat as much as I want to, and have the nerve to criticize the food if it doesn’t suit my taste, I should just be thankful that we have plenty of food, and none of our babies are going to bed hungry. Yes, I even think of McDonald’s hamburgers, fish & chips, ice cream, & big bottles of Pepsi-Cola. That’s a sick fascist elitism. I considered myself all of that, but after hearing the news daily and each day you mention of how Blacks, Brown & all Minority are being tortured & murdered, behind the taxes that comes from these items, the memory of bourgeoise luxuries are fading away. I think without news, the study what’s happening in the world around us, our minds would go back to that elitist state, instead of following the examples of Jim Jones our leader.
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EE-1-M-58
Undated letter to Jim Jones from Yvonne Morrison
Father I am willing to go to the promise Land, and I’m willing to stay back and fight for the cause, Im just used to Helping others, if I think they cant do it. And I’m willing to follow all instructions in order to get to freedom. Because I’m used to Having Someone Strict run my Head to tell me what to do. The right from the wrong. Because when I wouldn’t comunal, I even did obey my mom. I always Holler at Her and give Her a Bad time. Father maybe Something wrong with me, I just can understand what people be telling me. It seems like the only one I can obey is Mother and Father, Because I understand you Better, Because of what’s going on in America today.
Yvonne Morrison
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EE-1-R-90
Undated Statement by Eura Moses
I was glad to leave America to avoid concentration camps nuclear war, nutron bombs, chemicals that only kill Indians and blacks, bill 1127
Eura Moses
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EE-1-M-40 – L-43
Letter addressed to Mr. and Mrs. Glen Moton, October 25, 1977
Hi Mom & Dad
Sorry to take so long sending the enclosed. Your other will follow next week. Everyone is fine at this time. Aunt Susie had been trying to reach daddy so Aunt Ella called us and was surprised to find that you were out the country. I don’t know what Aunt Susie wanted but Aunt Ella will be writing you. Betty said she received your letter and as usual you did not say anything. Avis is back in the hospital for a couple of days the swelling increased again so the doctor wanted her back on IV fluid again. I went to see her last night and she seemed to be doing well.
How’s Michael doing does he mention us and threaten to come home? Everyone asks about him and you and dad. In your last letter you mentioned that you needed more summer clothes, were they for Michael or did you want clothes that are too small for Mike to give to the other kids. Let me know if Mike needs anymore pencils and coloring material. Also is he in school and if so how is he doing. I hope its not a super strict atmosphere because he’s still young and a excessively strict or structured classroom atmosphere is not necessary right now. You also never mentioned the fact that Daddy check was being sent there and I was worried as to what happened to it when it didn’t come in September or October
I had Brenda call the social security office and thats how we found out it was being sent there. Also why have’nt Daddy written us about his experiences. Have to go now class is restarting
Write soon
Love Winnie
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EE-1-M-89
Undated memo written by Glen Moton
Why I belife in Socialism. I was brought up to belife every one was love I all way tought my children to shere and shere alike. I see [illegible word] way told my family is shere with others and they would shere with Socialism mean so much to me I cant began to explain I all ways got doing for my fellow man that mean so much to me.
Glen Moton
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Undated letter to Jim Jones from Russel Moton
EE-1-M-106, EE-1-M-107
To: Dad
I feel the approach of that professional in the Day of the Jackal showed best how to kill our enemies. First I would find out what their current weaknesses, likes and dislikes are. For example Time Stone has a history of being a homosexually active transvestite. I would venture to say that with the pressure he’s under right now, he will find time for a habit like this. He would not recognize me if I was disguised, since he’s such a rasciest. I could lure or follow him to an area where pickups take place, cut his throat and police would think it was just another homosexual murder. It happens all the time. I’m willing to bet that each and every one of our enemies have some hangup or something they do that places them in a position to be cotton.
2) I am sexually attracted to both men and women, I find that the males I’m normally attracted to are muscular, husky types like Anthony Simon, John Harris, Jack Beam, etc. I’m aware of a hostility to women because I feel that they seek to control or ruin a male in a relationship. However, at the same time, I realize they are better organizers and ploters. Passive women turn me off, probably because I’m so passive and can see so many of my negatives in such a situation.
3) If Father were killed, I would keep trying to build his dream, since its now become mine also. Whatever leader that would follow would have to be more forceful than you have had to be in order to keep the movement intact if thats at all possible. The movement dosen’t run without you present so there is a strong likelyhood of it falling, so I would die.
4) On death, I’ve often thought during our long discussions about death during white nights, that it’s a lot like sex in that the anticipation is worse than the act itself. I constantly ask myself, what would I do if, if a day to day situation turned into a life and death situation, and what would be the best way to handle them. I don’t think of it in terms of fear like I usta, just something that’s going to happen.
5) Things I miss in the States: Ease of transpiration and communication. Things that I’ve always taken for granted such as going out and getting a pen or tool thats needed.
6) Traitorous parent, companion, or child: Yes I believe I would. I’ve constantly had to deal with that possibility in reference to my parents, particularly my blood dad.
7) Battle tension: In Philadelphia, when I did go to bed at night at my parents home, I would always wonder if somebody was going to come over the fe fense, cut the dogs throat and do us all in. Everytime any of my relatives would go out the door, I would wonder if death or worse waited for them on the streets. I usta think that walking the streets was like an animal walking thru a jungle knowing that at anytime, anything could happen. I hated such an existence, and drank to escape it. What I’m saying dad, is that in the ST States we were always under battle tension, only the lines weren’t always so clearly defined. And even better, I don’t crave a drink.
8) I’ve heard in the news that there is no security in capitalism. No amt. of riches gives the gauruntees of security as under socialism. Power can have you on top today, and tomorrow have you in front of a firing squad. That the U.S. is so sick till all of their creativity is devoted to not just winning war, but to be the utter destruction of all life to the saving of all capital.
9) Socialism is equality of opportunity, the equal sharing of our land and resources. The only reasonable answer to a world where so many starve purely because we’re still playing animal kingdom. That is, those who are stronger more intelligent, etc purely because of a happinstance of nature, rule, controlling the land and natural resourses.
Russell Moton
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EE-1-M-103
Letter to Jim Jones from Viola Moton, September 6, 1977
September 6th, 1977
Jonestown, Guyana
Dear Father:
I feel some of the reasons as to why we are here are to escape; The Cleometris Theory, Senate Bill 1427, The Netron Bomb, we’ll not be ruled by Bakke Decision.
Thank you,
Viola Moton
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EE-1-M-97
Undated notes to Jim Jones from Viola Moton
Dear Father
I feel that socialism is the way of life. Having been tought by you the caring of one another and sharing of each other’s difficulties. Principle being the main issue.
Thank you,
Viola Moton
Dear Father,
You have asked us to write some of our opinions.
I feel if I am in order, that is the older seniors such as myself, do not get asylum, please, let the little ones be given a chance in a new life.
Thank you Faither,
Viola Moton
P.S.
Father:
We came here to help build a new nation and develop a new land in hope of being able to feed all people in the world. I am more than sure Father we will succeed in doing just that. Why, because you said that we would.
Thank you again,
Viola Moton
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EE-1-M-11
Undated note from Viola Moton
In October of 1971 I was in a healing service held by Pastor Jim Jones in Philadelphia Pa. I was healed a terrible throat condition which had been chocking me which eventually would have blocked off my esophagus & taken my life –
I have since then been healed of crippling arthritis, I had been taking motrin 400 and I was still in pain. I came out to California in 1976 and was called out by Pastor Jones and healed of arthritis.
Thank you
Viola Moton
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EE-1-M-30, EE-1-M-31
Letter to Jim Jones and his sons from Esther Mueller, July 15, 1977
July 15, 1977
Dear Jim & Boys – young men really –
Just a few lines to let you know I miss you a lot – Will be glad when we can all be together again or at least in the same place where we will not all be scattered out. I have been with you so long till you are really my family – and a pleasure to claim and want you to know I look for nothing in return. Yes I know I birthed a son. You know what, I did not claim him mine when he was born. I would look at him, such a sweet baby, But in me I would say to myself, You were only loaned to me to love cherish and take good care of. This is the way it was. When he was 28 yrs. of age he chose his way & I chose mine. So what happened – my family multiplied. So I really never gave up anything that I didn’t reap blessings in return.
Love You
Esther
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EE-1-M-35
Undated letter to Jim Jones from Esther Mueller
you been every thing to me
Jim Dad, this is how much you did for me in the accident, the car that caused it got away if I remember he pulled out of the drive way.
I couldn’t stand to move any way. I tried hard to get out of the car to see little Jim. But I could not. You came over and asked me if I could get out & I told you no. You said stay there then. Then the high way patrol officer asked me when he seen. He then sent for another ambulance. I told them I could help alittle but not much. I was in a lot of pain in the ambulance. Cleve Swinney seen no one was going with me so he jumped in the ambulance. as you always said none of your people goes alone. I had 2 hips that was black & blue should have been broken but was not unless you healed them. Hurt in the chest. The foot my shoe came off of. I couldn’t stand on. They took me back to exray & it showed no broken bones. The hosp. doctor said I could have a broken pelvic. which I did not. It was good I was left till the last. You did a lot for me in that time. and I did not think of myself I was worried about everyone else. and I asked Joyce Parks who all was in the hosp. I knew little Jim was. I asked about him and they brought his cart by with him sitting up. They didn’t stop they just went on. I asked who else and Joyce named Lew [Jones] and at the accident I asked where Lew was and I was told he was at Loretta’s[Cordell]. So I put in my mind he was gone. I couldn’t believe anything else. That when I got off of my cart, I couldn’t believe it was the one I was on. I said who was on that. Marcie said you were. Next day I saw Dr. Marsh all he did was make a remark about my blue house coat or robe I had on, and touch around my shoulder and walked in & talked to his secretary. and a couple days later I went back. Edith Cordell took me. I was dressed my mind made up he would never see me again. I told Edith when I got out of the car he would dismiss me, and when he saw I was dressed in street clothes, he said you look good… I think I will dismiss you. I said thats fine. As I was leaving he said Esther if I dismiss you, I will have to say you are alright or something to that efect. I never went back. I was, at least 65 yrs. old. When this happened 10 yrs. ago.
Things like this has made me strong. I could tell more like this or similar as a child up. Pays not to pamper a child to much. They end up being the strongest. I am one of 5 in my family of children. My family so called very much depended upon me. Because I looked the strongest in the family I was a chunky robust little girl. Even though I was told the doctor said when I was born, that I was not a healthy baby.
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EE-1-M-65 – M-68
Undated letter to Jim Jones from Esther Mueller
Jim no one ever stood before an audience at any time in history, and told there faults and been so trueful as you have. And no one knows the pain and grief you bear, and the sorrow you’ve seen. And yet with a smile and a cheerful heart and arms wide open you met each one and overlook and forgive our short commings. Oh I look over this beautiful land of the free and the home of the brave. From the From the start of the jungle, you now can hardly believe, as far as you can see there is plenty of food you see, almost ready for the harvest and ground ready for more. Buildings built and more ready to be – all built by the peoples mighty hand – and our leader with ears and eyes wide open to meet every need and see that all goe well. And when you think he is asleep, his mind is never at rest. It is for ever over his sheep fold – to see that all goes well. And many times catches the enemy at large – trying their best to destroy this beautiful land. Before I ever met you Jim I wanted to see black people to have a place of their own but I never then I knew that it would be you – My eyes have looked over shanty towns not fit for a dog – My experience on the bus in 1943 Whites all standing only one vacant seat on the bus – I occupied that seat next to a black lady, the back of the bus for blacks you see – I sat in the last 2 seated where there was just she and I – soon she said she would have to move – I said not for me you do not have to move, she waited a second or so and said but I better move. As she left her seat. It was like a voice through me that said she sure didn’t have to move for me. It was so quiet on that bus. All white heads went down in shame. I couldn’t help but notice. No one spoke a word. a man in the back gave her a seat and he stood. No one sat at the side of me or where she sat next to the window. This took place in Miami Fla. 1943 My grandmother was very ill & past minutes just before taking off for the trip, I made it alone. I hadn’t seen my uncle since early 1919–1920. By this time he was gray-haired. The message over the phone told him how I would be dressed so he would know me – The train at this time had a new engine called the South wind – The engine changed before arriving to Miami – So uncle Billy & the man who was with him were almost out of sight. I took a chance as I thought it might be him, sure enough it was and about 11 or 12 P.M. I know it was a late hour, I didn’t realize or did I even know that blacks were being treated this way on the bus until they put the skit on in L. Angeles Temple – I was froze that night and could not say a word, for it took me back to the time on the bus. I shall never forget –
Esther Mueller
and that bus was crowded –
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EE-1-M-91 – M-93
Undated letter to Jim Jones from Esther Mueller
Jim & Suffering
You took on the suffering of every one you healed – you walked many miles over the years, carrying food in the wee ours of the night as well as by day.
And many a pain you bore that the world as many close by if any know not of, trying to save the weak and the lost.
And everyone’s sorrows were yours and their pain you bore. Till your poor body will stand no more. And in that body that we see standing and sitting before us is wrecked with pain we know not of. There is no words to compare, no matter how we try.
I think the worst is hearing people tell of how they suffered by police and injustice. And no more having babies in the fields and not allowed even a few moments to give birth. So much suffering and pain you have had to bear.
I know the most pain you could bear is those you raised & walked with you – then betrade you. Everyone you healed & in debt to you, some of us would have paid over $1,000 & $1,500 –
P.S. Jim what I wrote that happened in the year of 1929 – I let Marcie read it and before she read it I told her what a time for me to write something like I wrote at a time like this & that was the other night and before she read it I told her how many times you had mentioned about the depression in 1929 and I could not remember any of it. She said I will tell you why. With a firm voice. Because it was too painful to bear – and you blocked it out. I wrote what I felt in 1929 –
You & Marcie are still number 1 in my family – and your family. 2nd, we were told to stand fast therefore which we were set free of and be not entangled again in the yoke of bondage. So if we are free then we should be able to see through socialism for it is plain to see. It is Christs teachings. Sincerely yours
Thurs. May 25 – 78
Jim I probably should have kept my mouth shut & said nothing. I do not know Jean Lucus [Lucas] very well. But she did say what I said. But that has been said I am sure before – she was very much put out about the wigs and large curlers they sent, she said they could have sent something worth while. That was my 1st time being on the floor – But I did mention it to Dale Parks just before you called house up there about she mentioned a $1,000 and she wasn’t taking it lightly about the dogs. But Ugera [Ujara, or Don Sly] was up there and Dale did tell me to wait and see what she had to say – That I didn’t do as she spoke after I did – But I don’t think she told that to Jean any way. She said the only reason she had the stuff was because she had her own shop and it was Estell McCall to blame for sending it.
I am not trying to defend her but I do think it should be known what she did say. She was very much put out by the trunk that was sent her –
Esther Mueller
She made the remark to me she didn’t know what to do with it. She gave some curlers to Edith Cordell.
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EE-1-M-95 – M-96
Undated memo from Esther Mueller
Notes of what happened in the yr. 1929 during depression
Dad taken to Julietta the home for feeble minded. Now a home for the aged. Things that happened in the process. Police came threw tear gass in his eyes so they could take time – Family had to get out of the house because he was acting like a manieact. He baptized me by throwing water on my head and said something about I was to receive a crown. He was taken to city hosp, now known as general. We lived on the county line and neither county or city wanted to take him. But the city did after seeing the family all up set by his behavior. Jim I thank you again and again for I to was a very religiously sick person when you found me.
They released him after 3 days. Dad only had a dime in his pocket. They offered him fare back home. He refused and walked all the way home. He even broke the door off the police car. I don’t know how I could have forgotten all this, but I did. What a time to remember like last night. I couldn’t before this ever think of the name Julietta. Now home for the aged.
Last night I took a nice warm pan bath and just got in bed – When you Jim called alert, alert, alert – I stood on the walk with my stool in my hand. When a couple guards came up – one with a child in his arms and the other with a gun. He asked if this was no. H I said yes. He said anyone there, I ans. no one but me, and I would like to stay here close by Macie if I can, as I stayed with Lynetta when she was there. If not then I will come to the pavillion.
Dad was a man of few words. When arguments came, He walked away, neither was afraid to face whatever came his way.
But after leaving Julietta which his brother at that time got him out and he was to live with him. But dad came home – and stayed with his death year 1960 – liked one week being 81 yrs old.
Esther Mueller
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EE-2-l-2
Undated Note To Jim Jones from Mary Murphy
[Editor’s note: Grammatical and spelling errors corrected throughout.]
Dear Dad I haven’t wrote to you before, but I have gone to others, & no success. They left my bag in Georgetown, I don’t know why, but the bag was open, I had two pairs shoes, the bag was open & I received 2 shoes both go on the same foot. (I had 2 pairs shoes, tennis & house shoes). All of my embroidery, needles, 3 quilt tops, I had wanted to make [illegible word] I wanted to give to cause & other things, personal things, Dad. I would really like to have my things. They have my hands tied.
Thank you Dad
Mary Murphy
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EE-1-M-88
Undated letter to Jim Jones, from Jane Mutschmann
Dad –
I feel responsible about the petitions taken at the front door of S.F. Temple. Perhaps, I could have helped if I had been there. I feel I let this cause down by wanting to leave too soon. I should have stayed back to help. Instead I used my paranoia to make me think I was special & that I needed to come to Jonestown sooner than I should have.
Jane M.
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Undated Note to Jim Jones from Jane Mutschmann
EE-2-l-10
Dad,
Before I left the States I have an affair with the black dentist Courtney Price. I didn’t tell him anything about PT. He knew several people that came to his office [who] did belong. The only thing I gave him was a PR leaflet.
It was a 1 night thing& I never saw him after. In fact I left two days after for Guyana.
Jane [Mutschmann]