FF-13-A-3
I actively participated in the explosion of the weekend of April 28, 1973 of the boxcars of bombs in Roseville, CA near Sacramento.
I will participate in such activities whenever I am physically able.
I am a violent revolutionary Communist. I will work continuously for the overthrow of the US government.
Sandra L. Bradshaw
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FF-13-A-4
SB [Sandra Bradshaw] can do an affidavit on the following – if it would be helpful…
I, SLB…
have worked as a Deputy Probation Officer in the County of Mendocino for 7 years. I have been a member of PT for 8 years, and have been acquainted with TOS [Timothy O. Stoen] for as long. I have worked extensively with him on a number of occasions. For years, Jim Jones has been a good friend to TOS. He has made many personal sacrifices and show nothing but kindness and understanding to Mr. Stoen. There have been times when Mr. Stoen has advocated the use of violence and unsavory means of achieving his objectives. Because he was in a position of authority within the church, this was particularly dangerous, due to the effect he might have on others. However, Jim Jones has devoted himself to helping all the people grow in self awareness and social consciousness, and thus allowed Tim Stoen to remain in the group, continually working to help Mr. Stoen and to control these terrorists plans he had.
I have attended a number of meetings that were held in confidence with Mr. Stoen, where he openly advocated not only the use of violence and terrorist actions. Specifically, he and I on one occasion went to the DA’s library in the Mendocino County Court House (second floor) late in the evening (Mr. Stoen had a key) for the sole purpose of looking up the use of lethal poisons that he was currently interested in (for obvious reasons). This was in 1972 in regards to a journalist by the name of Lester Kinsolving. At that time TOS advocated the use of poison being administered to Mr. Kinsolving through the use of a poison dart and researched this methodology in the presence of the undersigned. I can take a lie detector test in this matter to prove it is the truth.
It can be verified that TOS took a course through Santa Rosa Junior College completed August 26, 1972 on “Non-lethal Chemical Agents.” It was after that course and he and I went to the library so that he could research various “lethal” chemicals readily available. (PS – I have this certificate of his – though I think he had to take some course for his job – though not sure what the reasons for his taking this were)
Rev. Jones asked me to go along with Mr. Stoen on that occasion and on numerous others, to keep an eye on him and to monitor his actions. This I did, for the sole purpose of keeping track of his terrorists schemes, and intercepting their being put into actions. Also on a number of occasions, Mr. Stoen kept in his private home, large numbers of weapons and ammunition. There are many witnesses who can attest to this fact.
Mr. Stoen’s technique over the years that I have known him have been to spout “rhetoric” of Jim Jones’ teachings of non-violence and peaceful change; but then at the same time, he would constantly trying to influence Rev. Jones and others in the church to act in violent, terrorist activities. It is my opinion, Jim Jones has kept a lid on TOS influence over others [illegible handwritten insertion] destructive, harmful actions. Jim Jones never stopped being a loving supportive friend to TOS. It was from Mr. Stoen saw that he could in no way persuade Jim Jones to violence and terrorism, that he took this offensive attack on Rev. Jones’ character and the humanitarian organization of Peoples Temple.
[Handwritten PS] (I can pass a lie detector test on this – it can be altered for use here or there – let me know if it would be useful)
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FF-13-A-5
[Handwritten heading: ” Sandra L. Bradshaw/ Witness: Christine Lucientes”]
This is going to be quick – but I have thought some about it – but not all the way through – but here goes anyway…
One thing I was thinking was that we could stay here – and keep on working – as we have been – using this as a base – change our tactics enough to keep our head above water for a while longer. And some of us get put in jail or whatever – and the others of us can keep on going long enough to get the rest out of jail on bail –
then we could get some explosives – and put them all around the church – (make sure we have enough to kill everyone inside) and at the same time – we could have several of our trusted people be blowing up all of our church property at the very same time that the church and all the people in it would happen…
(We could put all our animals in the house and take care of them also)
however – J and the most trusted would not kill themselves at this time… they would leave and go about the country blowing up more things and killing mother fuckers – (and if they get caught and put in prison – they would have to deal with that – either to stand fast or to kill themselves)
all this time – we would be sending out documentaries on why we did the blowing up thing … like we planned before
this plan is not thought out in all angles yet…
One thing – I do not in any way feel that we would be able to make a go of it leaving the country – the people are not able to accept other standards etc. and all the change that it would bring… I think we should stay here and make our stand in America – I would like to fight it out here (not literally maybe – but if no other way – yes) … but I do not feel we can leave.
I feel that we are going to fragment in either case – and I think that if we can “compel” as many of our number to leave this plane – before they all defect – better ahead the cause will be… I feel that if and when we are gone – the cause will probably die anyway – this world is so intrinsically evil – but maybe that is very pessimistic – my feeling is to kill them – before they get a chance to defect – but together as many as possible before the end …
[handwritten PS] (I also think if we made a deal with the government – we could keep together longer – but for what ends?)
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FF-13-A-6
[undated note, Sandra Bradshaw]
This is the first I know about it – and I feel very much closer to you – and it has not affected my image or opinion at all.
I just wanted to let you know –
SB [Sandra Bradshaw]
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FF-13-A-7
[reverse side of FF-13-A-6]
Christine – Don’t let SB see you read.
Terri
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FF-13-A-8
[undated note, Sandra Bradshaw]
Page 3
in the middle of July.
I’m in real trouble now with my church – I have been stealing money from the offering buckets. To date I have taken unit $7000 over the years. I hope Jim Jones, my pastor does not ever find out. I have tried to be careful, but I am still worried.
Anyway – so much for that. I’ll write you later –
Sandra L. Bradshaw
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FF-13-A-10
[undated note, Sandra Bradshaw]
To Comrades Linda Swaney, Janet Phillips, and Faith Kice,
The ammo and supplies came in today – we will meet at Clara Phillips’ house at 9:00 tomorrow night to put the explosives together.
Do you have the rest of the plans? Linda thought the White House should go up first – but Faith wants the Pentagon. So we’ll figure it out tomorrow.
I hope as all of you do that [Richard] Nixon and his fucking generals will be there too. We want to see them all dead!
Long live the Revolution!
Comrade Bradshaw
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FF-13-A-11
[undated confession, Sandra Bradshaw]
I often feel like killing people – shooting them – my visions are always in blood. Lots of blood.
I can barely control this urge – especially since I carry a gun –
I am afraid I will actually kill someone at any time –
Please, please help me –
Sandra Bradshaw
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FF-13-A-12
[undated confession, Sandra Bradshaw]
I have at numerous times plotted to kill various people – these include President Nixon, [Henry] Kissinger, General [Alexander] Haig, Gov. [George] Wallace, Gov. [Ronald] Reagan.
And I would on any given opportunity kill any and all of the above.
I’ll also blow up any bank, or Federal building and seek to violently overthrow this capitalist government.
I am a Communist Revolutionary.
Sandra L. Bradshaw
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FF-13-A-13
[Editor’s note: The heading of this memo includes code names for several people and locations.]
Blanche = TOS [Timothy O. Stoen]
Jerry = SB [Sandra Bradshaw]
Jess = JJ
Dallas = Washington
Anthony = PT
Tony = [blank space]
Will = [blank space]
Zita = DB [Debbie Blakey]
Chet = [Eugene] Chaikin
Ramblings: 8/4/78 [August 4, 1978]
You know, I have been thinking a lot about Blanche and how she knows about Jess’ affinity for Jerry. I am wondering if maybe she isn’t, out of spite, setting something up for Jerry out of Dallas. Remember it was just a couple of years ago, that she can buy the house, and said that she knew about the friendship between the two. (She suggested her jealousy about it). She also knows that Jerry would not hesitate a minute inviting Blanche to see his parents [handwritten word above parents: “die”]. She thinks that Jerry already went clear across the ocean to invite him once… So I’m sure that Blanche as no doubts as to where Jerry stands – for what Jerry would do for Blanche.
So I am wondering – if Blanche does do something out of Dallas, that would truly somewhat of a problem for Jerry and Jess and all. So, actually, I am wondering if maybe Jerry should visit Will in the near future, like after Ujara [Don Sly] gets ready the next time (which really should be in September) and then maybe that would be an opportune time for Jerry to get away.
I know how Jerry feels about taking care of his obligations and wanted to do the right thing by Blanche etc. but I think Jerry is finally beginning to realize just what Blanche is trying to do. For instance, in Blanche’s recent “writings” to Anthony, she stated on 2 different occasions, the final say so was Chet, Jerry and Jess. And that was definitely not so – but it was directly said on those 2 times, as if to set up a direct link between Jerry and Jess and decision-making. So, if Blanche can show that Jerry’s activities were questionable in a certain practice, she can also link Jess directly with them.
So, as I say, I think Jerry is willing to put his personal feelings on ice for now (that of being able to help Blanche in the way he feels she should be helped), and probably it would be in Anthony’s best interest for Jer to visit Will. I would think no later than September after Ujara. Blanche probably thinks Anthony will have Jer stick around indefinitely so she is no doubt thinking that she has some time on that (and it may well take some time to get the “background” together). So Jer thinks he may at least have that much time here without any “big” problems – but I suppose that could change anytime also.
Whatever… You know, I have considerable influence on Jerry, so whatever you think, I am sure I can get Jerry to go along with it. Jerry is okay. You know – just so hardheaded at times. But I think he sees may have no choice in this situation, not in the long run (especially since he has had his “episodes” in the past, which will probably catch up with him sometime.)
And with coming from Dallas, that can be a whole new ballgame – and definitely put Tony’s family in the big leagues. Wouldn’t do much for the image. So Jerry is willing to do whatever, and as soon as is felt necessary.
Jerry should be the only one Dallas should be interested in as Zita didn’t know who else was involved in that particular day. She wouldn’t have even known about the game, except Jerry had to borrow money from her, otherwise she never would have been involved if Jerry had his choice// but Zita didn’t know about the other players – only Jerry (and her brother) – but Jer did the actual work etc. himself alone – so only he is responsible.
Anyway, let me know and I will tell Jerry.
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FF-13-A-14
2/
People under the most pressure – probably Martha – cause she gets all the shit from Eric – and then she is the only one handling the money and that is a lot on her in that area. But she is doing fine. She is a strong person, a very steady person. I like her a lot. She is pretty self-sufficient person. I know she used to talk to TB [Terri Buford] some and CL [Carolyn Layton], she doesn’t feel too free to talk to me much. I have that affect [effect] on people it seems, but nevertheless, she is doing very well, and keeps on going.
Lola – she is under pressure, but to me – it is nothing like it used to be. I really think that she uses her health as an out – but I would never tell her that. I tried to watch out for her and look after her etc. She can oversee counseling matters, and that has eased her out somewhat. But of course, Maxine [Betts] and Vera [Young] are not Lola – not even the two together. If she doesn’t want to get involved in something – she just says – you handle it, I’m not getting involved.” And then she leaves. So, I guess that is a good enough escape valve if I do say so. So, anyway, she is getting ready to go – but I doubt if it will be before the end of September before she gets around. She wants to make sure she has “everything” she needs before she goes.
She is looking forward to that cottage you promised her, and not having to deal with people. And I can appreciate that. But unless she can really live alone – I don’t know who will be able to live with her. I am used to her – and if it would help things out – I would probably be able to get along with her fairly well. So, I wouldn’t mind living with her – or whatever. It really doesn’t matter to me.
June is doing just fine. She has Robin’s old room and has lots of plants in her room and Dorothy’s cat Mable stays with her – and she likes Mable a lot. And she does her work and doesn’t bother anybody. She goes to work, comes home, drops in the radio, goes in her room and works, and plays the TV while she works, and gets together with Martha when necessary. She goes to bed and gets up for work the next a.m. She is really a self-sufficient person. Except for occasional grouchiness… She is always [on an] even keel. Even Charles doesn’t yell at her because he likes her work. I like June a lot. Don’t have to worry about her.
Vera is her usual self… and has Dennis – good thing. If she didn’t have him… I would worry more about her. I still worry about the bitch. She has the nicest room in the place, always looks good, likes PR stuff. She and Maxine are tight now that Francis has left… I knew they would be. Oh, well, now Max only has 1 negative person to be around instead of two.
Rex is doing fine – has Hattie as a past-time. And just kind of rattles along.
1. [Jim] Randolph will carve his little kingdom out of wherever he is… don’t ever worry about him hurting for anything. He takes care of himself. Phyllis will be all right for a while longer as long as she feels included and I think she does. Likes PR and being on finance committee, etc.
Guy has his problems with his daughter – but you couldn’t do anything about them even if you were here. He will have to get a message to go over one of these days – think the thing with Mona will be done in September and then he will have to go.
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FF-13-A-15
3/
Probably a lot of your worry comes from the fact that we always write about the problems and not mention other things. This is my fault. Just as many times when I have written to you, it has been an emphasis on the hopeless aspect of “reality” etc. and I fail to mention the hope that you have given to all of us.
Just as we have all these shitty little problems, so to have we grown closer together, as brothers and sisters, knowing that you have created the things only dreamed about … and are suffering constantly for what is right… so too has that feeling come through here… from John Heneka to J Randolph, to Vera, to everybody. We know that we are fighting the same enemy. We have drawn closer together – just by that realization, and the knowledge that what we are doing here is bringing results there.
I don’t know just how to express that. Just as the thought of what has been created in Jonestown, brought tears to my eyes then, at the thought of it all… it is overwhelming. Things have gotten done here, things will get done here, we know that we are only hands and feet and are limited in what we can do… but the feeling of being able to do something pervades this place.
From the littlest old lady who is “waiting” to be called to see Father again, who reports seeing an “enemy” on the street, because she feels she is contributing to the family’s defense by doing so. People all feel like soldiers here, as silly as that may sound. People are watchful, they observed, they anticipate, they take what has been said with a grain of salt for the most part.
It is beautiful to see the seniors, the pureness of their faith in you. I have always thought that some of your most beautiful reflections came from the Seniors, and small children.
I have watched how you look at people, how you really experience them, I have studied you carefully over these eight years… and I think I know the man that I care so much about fairly well. I believe I know some of your suffering because of the separation of the family. But you are a magnet there, that will draw the rest of the people here wish to join you… you will draw them to you. We can organize the exit here and the plan and timing need to be underway… but the people need the light that you are… to draw them. You cannot be here and do the same thing. You have to be the hub there…
You know how very much you mean to me. My life is determined by yours. Death has been your only competitor, ever. And I have promised you, and I mean it – that – the method of my death is the only thing left undecided in my life – and that will be solely determined by the Cause. But life without you would be so unbearable. There would be no respite from the burden. Without your smile, looking into your eyes – the peace and security – that I find there … there would be no limits when the weight is lifted at all. Please, promise me that you will not even consider returning here … to nothing, for nothing. Please stay where you are so desperately needed. Things are able to be handled here, and they will be.
I love you very much, but I think I am the practical and objective when I implore you not to return… for the sake of so many who depend on you for their very lives. I send you all of my very deepest feelings…
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FF-13-A-16
[undated note, Sandra Bradshaw]
Holding operation for now until times get worse – and some of our loose ends leave or become more committed by necessity
Meanwhile – possibly SB & others (a few?) could drop out of sight (meet only with you on the q-t) and get better skilled in warfare etc. (practice shooting)
Even our (my) absence maybe intimidating to potential traitors (wondering what I am up to etc.) fear – until a decisive action
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FF-13-A-18
[undated note, Sandra Bradshaw.
[In some Temple code books, “Bible” = “gun.” In the context, the two mentions of the Bible would seem to be in that code.]
MORE CONTINGENCY PLANS: from sb
The way things look – I would not at all be surprised if things were to happen very quickly. There are enough Bibles here to do a lot of praying if necessary… and I have my own that I can do my business with.
If things happen fast – and I’m not here – I propose the following plan…
I drop out of sight – if things get very heavy – to the point of direct confrontation. I think I would be less noticeable than for instance – a man – and I am not really “known” since I am not up front. I am not particularly “rememberable” in appearance – and can slip around fairly innocuously I think.
If I had time – to quit my job – and get the 3- 4000$ retirement I would have that to exist on – but if there was no time for that – I could always get some quick $ from my parents – and use the Bank Americard for $. (or rob a store if necessary)
Anyway – I could exist for a period of time… long enough to get some of our enemies… however – if there was some way I could be kept up with a “current” list of where we think they live – it would be helpful.
And I am serious about trying to infiltrate the Nazis – as I don’t think they are that smart – (since they give their names and addresses in print…) – and I work in the heart of their land anyway – all the time. There would probably not be time to do both – if the end comes – maybe there is a way I could start to attend their meetings now – to get an idea of who they are and maybe pick some things up from the meetings (in SF or the Bay Area)
(I would probably have to change my appearance to come to PT since they may be watching from that standpoint – but that could be easily done – and I don’t know where they would have seen me otherwise)
If I do drop out and try to take care of business – maybe I should have my passport with me – so if there is time – I could get out – however, if anything were to happen – and the rest were in transition etc. – I would expect you to have nothing to do with me (that is if I were to get caught – I would not be part of the group).
If there was a necessity – we could set up a pre-arranged “dead-drop” or place – where I would be at a certain time – on a certain day – and contact could be made then.
I am very serious about having the “privilege” of attending to business – and I think I am able to “slip” out of sight easier than some. (And with my “badge” and legal reason to carry a Bible – that would cut down on being caught on a “routine” check).
I will wait until I hear anything further from you…
Faithfully, SB
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FF-13-A-21
[Handwritten notation at top of page: “(Things are going fairly smooth overall)”
4/11/78 [April 11, 1978], from sb:
– well the thing with TOS [Timothy O. Stoen] and the other assholes was held out front today. What a feeling of helplessness it was… having to “hide” inside while they parade and taunt us and try to instigate something – I mean – looking outside from the balcony – how I longed for a machine gun – could have gotten the whole bunch with one swoop.
– I’m telling you – it’s a damned good thing I am so controlled – when I saw Baker standing there – I saw red – I mean – I got such a surge of energy and reaction – that I grabbed on to Robin standing next to me – I can’t explain the feeling – I could have gone stark raving mad and torn his eyes out and killed him with my bare hands. Instead I had to imagine sighting him in – and going from there. I promise – I won’t do anything to him – unless something happens there – then I will act. I have no doubt that I can get some things taken care of before I am finished. No – there is no way, I cannot be convinced that he will get his in the end – I have to see it myself…. contribute my share you know. He really shouldn’t get away with what he is doing. I always held that he was responsible for the two great pains in the people that I care for – number one – goes without saying… and the second was when he sent Julia that route and ended up with all that pain for her – I can only empathize in my imagination – her suffering – because of him. All this pain now – for so many. No, there is no way I can be talked out of finishing this.
– You know that I am not the least bit interested in living – I don’t care where – I just don’t want it. I do want to stay here – and wait till the timing is right – or even come back when the timing is right. I want to do that – that is what I ask that I may do. He took too much. There is no excuse – he does not deserve to live. I know nothing can be done now – but when things cool down – you know – that is a whole different story. Please consider this as my definite request as to my future plans.
– I don’t think this thing here can hold on that much longer – I would think that if we can get some of the peripheral people out in May – probably the end of May – before we gather up enough people – we’ll have to pull in the outside non-communal – (what a green group you will have then – if you think the last bus was unprepared for communal living!) – but there is no way – we cannot take more of the core people here and keep any semblance of organization. I think – we should get some of the “dead” weight so to speak out of here – and keep people – who is necessary – could just scatter and get there if need be. I would like to have their tickets purchased – open date – I think that would tie up a good deal of money – and could they really “attach” the tickets if they came in and tied up our assets??? Are tickets in individuals [‘ names] really assets of the organization?? I wonder about that. I am talking about only the ones we are certain are going – you know the communal ones left and a few non-communal (not that many – maybe 150-200?) – that would be a lot of cash tied up if we could do it that way.
– Anyway, I can’t see us operating here much past December or January of next year (and that is giving it a lot of room) – if he goes for our housing code here – that will be a problem – or if he ties up the back lot with redevelopment and we can’t crate etc. there will be a lot of problems behind that. I would like to see us get the shipment crated and the packing room straightened around ready to send – and then that is it –
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FF-13-A-22
2/
just send essentials after that. Things that just a few of us can get together and pack. Wouldn’t take many to do that. We could cook our own meals etc. I can see where there will come a time when we will not be able to do any projects because it is illegal to cook in a kitchen like ours for either bake sales or post office dinners – and [Mike] Cartmell knows this – so I am just waiting for him to tell on us – and we will lose that 1000 a month they bring in each. I think Nancy said 3000 last month. I know it was a lot.
– I can see why you have been pushing to beat the band there to get self-sufficient – because the day is rapidly approaching when we will have no income from here. It is very little now in comparison – not that many people working good paying jobs – and little in offerings.
Nancy gets the best results – from her “drives” – we have gotten along very well if I must say so. Jean [Brown] and I have tried hard – and I think Nancy has tried too – she realizes I think – there are few of us and not any reason for the division. She has been in the radio room quite a bit – and sees first hand the problems and the pressure. Hue [Fortson] and Vera [Young] wander in and out – but when there is the smell of work – off they go. And then complain about not being “involved” or “informed” of what is going on. Pisses me off to say the least. They have been asked to be in the radio room – maybe if they are “requested” that would help. Nancy can’t be too much on defense of Martha and me – because she will be called an aunt Jane and not have their respect – it is very complex – and she is so fucking smart – that she sniffs anything if it is not just so –
– no time at all – have to get this package out to be sent air-freight – can’t think of much else – I haven’t even read over these sheets – so if they are really dated – or don’t apply – disregard them. Take care – miss you all very much. I am fine though – and say hello to Pam [Bradshaw] for me. It’s only a matter of time before Arnold and Virginia get told the “truth” I suppose – and then no more free calls. But I will try to hold of the fake story as long as I can. Say hi to all for me.
sb
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FF-13-A-23
4/7/78 [April 7, 1978] from sb:
– well the old foe, racism rears its ugly head again around here in full force. This time – it is Vera [Young], Maxine [Betts] (Vera’s influence), Dennis Allen, CJ (of course), Alice, Hue [Fortson], that’s about it – except from the old standards like Judy Flowers, Velma, Frances Johnson, Vee [Hollins] and Florida [Johnson], and Mac [Jim McElvane].
– Vera approached me last night and asked about Dennis going to architectural school or something like that and getting paid 3.70 an hour while he is learning – but he would have to work 4 days a week or something – and then go to school 1 day a week – she called it on-the-job training. Anyway, it is apparently a ten-month course and she said Alice had told her we may be leaving soon and she wanted to know about that – I told her I did not know anything definite and there was no “date” (as Alice had led her to believe), and that I didn’t know anything more than she did – just that things were getting more difficult to be around etc.
– she is a damned bitch. Doesn’t do much around here – has been helping with the projects in the kitchen – but doesn’t take care of a lot of the PR things – and she hasn’t done the minutes for NAACP meeting for the last 3 months – and Joe Hall as even ask Laurie [Efrein] to ask Vera about them. Nancy knows this – as Andy [Silver] told her – but she doesn’t have that much control over Vera. Also Hue is walking around here with his ass in the air. Don’t know what his problem is.
– First he had to talk to Wanda – and stormed out of the room (think cause he didn’t get to talk to her alone) – and then he asks to talk to Rhonda. And when I had to call GT [Georgetown] anyway – on my parents credit card – I asked him did he want to talk to Rhonda for a minute – and he said no – too busy working in the kitchen etc. So, I don’t know.
– I do think that if Andrew could call Vera and Hue directly to the radio room – and they had to report on exactly what was happening in each PR thing etc. – they might just become a bit more accountable. Vera threw the Angela letter into Jean’s lap. Anyway, I don’t know why it took me so long to think of that – obviously they would respond better to the radio asking (some like Andrew) – than Lilly – (white) here asking herself. Shit, to have to resort to things like this to get people to work at all.
– I think Nancy has limited influence (or takes limited control) – because she cannot risk being accused of being an aunt Jane or they would not come to her at all. I have not had problems with Nancy directly – nor has Martha. We keep her informed constantly and ask her advice all the time. The problem is not with her. I think she is also emotionally dependent on Alice – and you folks there are going to have to “request” Alice to come and it can’t come from here. You are going to have to make it sound good – or Nancy will be hostile about Alice leaving.
– Well, so much for the news from “survival school” as Jean puts it. How very true – I learned a lot about survival school from Janet the bitch Schular [Shular]. She was an excellent teacher in that area.
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FF-13-A-24
from SB 4/1/78 [April 1, 1978]
– Mildred mentioned last night – that you all thought we had only 15 letters out when we said we have 1500. I don’t really understand this – that is not even logical. Or did she mean you thought there was 150 and not 1500 to [Pres. Jimmy] Carter? Whatever the case – please don’t even tell us that the next time. We are working here in accordance with what you think you want there – and to think that something like that was so grossly miscommunicated – leads us to feel a bit insecure here as to what else may be totally misconstrued from here to there and back. I just don’t understand – that is not even the least bit logical. It is a bit demeaning also – if you thought there were really only 15 letters as such – then why didn’t someone say something like you mean really only 15. It seems like if that is what was really thought – why wasn’t more said in that respect? I am not all that paranoid a person – but shit – that makes me wonder what was thought there if you really believed there were only 15 letters! I may be making a big thing out of this – but we busted our asses to get that many – which we are glad to do – but shit at the risk of sounding unreasonable – why wasn’t more said to us about your feelings? Martha mentioned it to Laurie [Efrein] – which I think was a mistake – I wouldn’t mention that to anyone – it is such a gross error – that it would berate our usual communication – but we have a hard enough time selling people on what comes over the radio sometimes anyway – without adding to it such a gross example of miscommunication. I tried to talk around it to Laurie – but I still think it was a bad mistake to have told her that. I definitely wouldn’t admit it ever happened. Please don’t tell us the next time – just keep on going with whatever.
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– moving right along – I did not get a chance to tell you on the radio that someone from the Public Health Department came here yesterday – and inspected the back lot – and listed a number of violations. She was just their flunky – the kind they sent to look at the rats etc. – an older Spanish woman – we wouldn’t let her in the front door (which she marked down) – but when she came around the back – we had to let her in. I talked to her after they let me know she was there – she said she was going up and down a number of blocks – and told us that she thought the mess out back was calling rats – etc. and that the dog “droppings” were calling the sewer rats up – and then they found all that other good stuff and stayed around the area. She wasn’t nasty about it – just listed a bunch of stuff we should do – we told her we would etc. But I think that is just the beginning. One of the things those mother fuckers were supposed to do before they left on the bus – was to clean the backyard – which of course they did not. I’m glad Mildred told me of their warm reception – they deserve the best in that respect. Anyway, the backyard is in such a state that we give the authorities an “excuse” to come in and find fault and then expose ourselves to worse. We are on a massive clean-up now – hauling junk cars off etc. But it took this to “motivate” the unmotivated to do it. Nobody like Andrew will take any initiative in things like this. They just muddle on – expecting everything to be all right – but what are Martha and I supposed to do in getting anything across? Nancy takes only limited stands in such things. And let’s them ride also. Anyway, we are working on it – not many of us to do so anymore – but we are making a dent. Wesley wouldn’t even first go to bat for us to Redevelopment about the lot across the street because it was such a mess out back. We had to tell him JJ was upset when he found out we had not included Wesley in the Willie Brown affair (he went on his own and should have been representing PT) he was
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pissed and read everybody out. Then we told him JJ wanted him consulted on all major decisions etc. and we had really blown it etc. (many oversights is the way we put it) – and JJ wanted him to please help out with the redevelopment problem – well that did it – he came down right away – (we were supposed to see an asshole named Brewster on Monday) and Wesley March about 8 of us down to Suttle’s office on Friday and humbly manipulated Suttle. Leona [Collier] went and said it was beautiful – Wesley was superb.
Anyway – apparently [Carlton] Goodlett is being redlined in his attempt to get loans for his housing thing – and we have to get off that far end of the lot – by the post office down to the guard shack. The redevelopment is renting it to the post office for $200 a month – and Suttle (because of Wesley) is seeing that we get the whole lot across the street to use if we need it. (I don’t think we should – I think we can get by with the smaller lot and just park our buses over there – and not get our mess strewn all over more) – but anyway – because of the message we told him from JJ and the fact that we have been ordered to clean up the backyard by JJ – Wesley went to bat for us.
(It was Cleo’s oversight – that Wesley was not invited as PT – Leona had told her she should invite him to things of the sort. He is such an old pro.)
– Anyway – Wesley and Tom are going to [John] Maher’s thing tonight. Maher had one of his lowers call yesterday and invite MJ [Marceline Jones] – then John called last night – and asked for MJ also – I told him she was not in town – and was still visiting the project – he said he had 2 tickets and someone should come from PT. He wanted JJ to know he still supported him etc. etc. Anyway, then I called back and told Bruce somebody at John’s house that JJ wanted Wesley Johnson to come in his stead (along with Tom) so we will see how that goes tonight.
– Most of the people there were white middle-class people – hoping to rub shoulders with some celebrities – but it didn’t work – even Jane Fonda didn’t show up. They just sat at their respective tables and ate the $100/plate dinner – and listened to music and then left – kind of a flop for a “gala” event. Even the mayor didn’t show – Gov. [Jerry] Brown ran in and out – (probably smelled the votes). But the night was a big thing too for Usury and a lot of people were there. But I don’t think Tesky carries much clout around here. And surely he must be getting worried – he is not that that dumb. With what has happened to us – and now Synanon – he HAS to be worried.
– Synanon really would like our support – too bad they didn’t give us any when we were hit – (strange how fate can humble one). I’m sure they wish they had our gusto and “numbers” going for them now. Couple of days ago – they had 4 of their members arrange for assaulting an ex-member because they “slapped” him around and accuse him of being a spy for Time magazine. Hmmm?