[Editor’s notes: This page was transcribed by Alexandra Prince, a professor of religious studies at Skidmore College, with the assistance of several of their students, principally Melanie Yaeger. The editors gratefully acknowledge their invaluable assistance.
[The letters on this page derive from several sources, principally FBI Section 126 • EE-1 • Letters to Dad (N-Z); FBI Section 130 • EE-2 • Letters to Jim Jones; and FBI Sections 121-123 • BB-31 – BB-32 • Tim Stoen, D Touchette.
[Insofar as possible, these letters have been arranged in alphabetical order of the writer’s last name. Unless otherwise noted, the letters retain their original spelling and grammar.
[Peoples Temple member often used old reports and documents as scratch paper, using the reverse side of these pages for their letters. We have labeled and transcribed those scratch pages which include information about Jonestown.]
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EE-1-S-20 – 25
Undated Statement by Doug Sanders
To: Dad
From: Doug Sanders
Subj: self evaluation
If something were to happen to you, I know that I would act emotionally at first and try to locate who did it and try to get revenge by torturing them. But after careful thought I know that the protection of the collective is the thing that must be taken care of. I would want to declare martial law and set up tight internal and external security. I would find out how we stand in the food, medical, and fuel situation. The people that know about the connection we have in the government should propose to board our boat and leave to go to the Soviet Union or Cuba or move our whole population into the jungle for defense. Whatever moves we make we have got to show solidarity and stay in the struggle for Socialist change.
In my sexual life I have many homosexual desires. I have strong feelings for Rickey Johnson, Greg Watkins, Chuck Kirkendall and Albert Touchette. I have not had a homosexual relationship since being a child and my feelings aren’t strong enough at this time to get into one. I still have a lot of desire to go with several women at once. I have feelings for my companion Dorothy Sanders, for Margarita Romano, Jackie Rochelle (her work production turns me off), and Paulette Jackson. I would desire a relationship with any of these. I also have sexual feelings for some of the young teenagers, Anita March, Yvette Muldrow, Lisa Wright and one other adult, Dorothy Rollins. I have a hangup about being possessed by someone or belonging to them. I am still insecure about womens’ feelings toward me and I have hurt many because of it. I am trying to deal with my present situation about who I want for a companion and I believe that I will stick with my companion Dorothy Sanders. The only sexual life I have had in the past five months is to jack-off. This creates no problems and keeps me out of trouble. Even though I have an extra big ego I still don’t want to hurt anybody so this is going to create another problem with Margarita. I would rather end up hurt than to hurt Margarita or Dorothy though it will be hard to prevent. I have kissed Margarita a lot more than I have kissed Dorothy since I’ve been here and almost all of my feelings toward Margarita are sexual even though we can communicate on a heavy level. There is very little communication between Dorothy and me but because she leaves me alone is why I care for her. I would feel a lot of guilt about leaving her after all the mess I put her through for years.
My feeling about death is that I would rather be dead than go through life. Death is easy but living and working until death is hell. I would like to see you dead also than to suffer all this hell of living for us. I know that dying for a cause is honorable and and it means that it is not necessary to repeat this life cycle.
My fears are few I have a fear of the feeling of fear I also fear getting into any trouble or getting written up for something really bad. On my job I fear climbing tall poles
I really like guns and they represent a penis symbol for me. I really get a feeling of power when I have one. I also have a lot of respect for guns. I like to keep them clean and operating properly and try to follow the safety rules that govern them. If I accidentally shot someone I couldn’t get over the guilt and pain especially if it was one of our socialist family members. I would really like to go out with Steven and target practice or hunt but I try not to let it show.
The things I miss about the States is my privacy, getting high by smoking mariuana, going to the beach and buying new things. I also miss my daughter and son Angela & Marshall Sanders. I miss a lot of the modern conveniences like washing machines and I miss working for myself.
If it became my duty to kill anyone for the cause to continue I would not hesitate to do so. Before I came into the cause I was going to be a small time hitman and I know that I could kill anyone even my wife or child if it becomes necessary. Death also ends suffering and if a loved one or anyone else were suffering unbearable I could also do mercy killing knowing that they would be better off. Also if I had to kill someone to keep them from talking too much or being tortured, I would rather kill them. Revolution is tough and to defeat capitalism I would do anything.
Socialism is my life and is what I want to die for. It means equal opportunity of education for all, the best of medical care from people that care and it is all free. It means receiving the full benefits of our labor and total cooperation with labor and supervisors. Socialism means that nobody goes hungry or without equal clothing. Socialism is the only way for the world to survive and without it we are just animals. I will die for it because it is the only thing worth living for.
On the subject of things I miss from the States, my privacy is very selfish because our children need all the time we can spend with them. The drugs are put on the young people to keep them from rebelling from the capitalist rule. Buying new things when Black and Brown children are starving is insensitive and counter – revolutionary.
The main danger to us in the States are the traitors, the news media, and the I.R.S. The traitors can be taken care of by assasanation on the streets. A .32 calibre weapon with [unintelligible] hidden under a coat would do it. Also a silenced weapon made to fire from a briefcase could knock one out in the middle of a crowd. Explosives wired into the electrical system of their car is a fast and easy method. If their meeting place could be found I could conceal a small but powerful explosive to myself and take out as many as I can along with myself.
Some of the news of last week was that the Soviet Union warned the US again about the neutron bomb and the Soviets anounced they have a super weapon to counteract any missels coming their way. The Soviets also announced that they may have to manufacture a neutron bomb. Mexico is protesting against the U.S. using the K.K.K. as border patrol. The Black liberation fighters in Zimbabwe have closed off all main arteries of supplies to the major cities and are winning even though they have to fight against Ian Smith’s air force.
Thank you Dad,
Doug Sanders
To Dad
From Doug Sanders
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EE-1-S-69
Note from Doug Sanders, January 1977
To: Dad
From: Doug Sanders
Date: 1-29-77
I have a lot of guilt feelings because of some of the things I did in San Francisco. The main thing is that I was living in an apostolic home and I held back several checks for my own selfish reasons. I was on a super eliteist trip and always wanted more and better materialistic things than everyone else. I didn’t even think that at that time I was robbing food and housing from our precious babies. It also shows that I was not sensitive to the suffering of our third world comrades throughout the world. I deserve no more than what they have and I request to go to the teaching crew for my actions. I also should work extra hours to make up for the money that I selfishly held back.
Dad, I am trying to become a socialist and now that I can start to get these capitalist ways out of my mind I know that I can make it. It is a rough road to socialism but all the way up the road I want to thank you for giving me the chance to travel this journey.
Thank you for being my dad,
Doug Sanders
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EE-1-S-32
Undated Note from Martha Sanders
Dad, I will give my life to be burned or for whatever it takes to save this movement if it would help in any way
Martha Sanders
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EE-1-S-82 – S-83
Letter from stateside members, signed by Gina Severns, January 1977
1-23-77
Dear Dad
I want to thank you for being a “dad” to all your children, big, & small. The seniors speak frequently of all the wonderful things you are doing daily. We all appreciate everything you’ve done, to free so many to the beautiful surroundings of the South American jungle. We do miss you, but realize it is best for all concerned, that you stay in Guyana. We’re working hard to keep on course, freedom for the whole family. Many miracles happen daily to remind us that you, and socialism are near us at all times, as long as we visualize it. (please turn over)
Thank you, & Mother again, (and the whole South American family) for making ready the freedom land for our eventual arrival.
I thank you a thousand times for giving me a glimpse of understanding the truth. Also for the children to be able to grow with socialism in their hearts, and lives.
Love to all,
Gina Severns
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(the “1029 Geary Gang of Seniors”)
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Notes from Rose Shelton, August 1977
EE-1-S-162
27 August
My Loving Father,
Find enclosed papers I did not get Monday and Tuesday. Everything is going along here. Others came in last night. Here is a little [illegible word] from Darr. No Answer yet from Angela. Mail as you know is slow. Sincerely hope you are getting some rest. I miss you.
Most lovingly,
Rose [Shelton]
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EE-1-S-163
To Father
I am sending you the first boar beans I grew. planting some more today.
Rose [Shelton]
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EE-1-S-165
Sat AM.
My loving Father I miss you very much. hope you can get some rest. I am holding it down here. Here is another letter from Johnson. here are papers will continue to save them Love you
Rose [Shelton]
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Letters to Rose Shelton, July & August 1977
EE-1-S-168
3047 California Street
San Francisco, Calif.
July 30, 1977
Dear Rose [Shelton], my sister,
We are blessed by our Saviour day by day. Thank you, Saviour!
Do you remember the song – “Good news the chariot’s coming. Good news the chariot’s coming. Good news the chariot’s coming. Coming for to carry me home.” Well, we sang that song for years; however, the chariot never did arrive. Things are different now. Our Savior promised to send the chariot and that he is doing (just what he said he would do). There is an atmosphere of joyous anticipation as we wonder who will be next.
On last Sunday, our guests, Banks, Milk and company, arrived as promised. Driving their talks, they made it unmistakingly clear that come what may they and their house would support Principle!
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EE-1-S-169
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Another highlight of the morning program was the rendition a song by Brother Banks and company. This song is most sacred being sung only on solemn occasions with full religious ceremony. Brother Banks said, that he felt that rendering this most sacred song was the highest tribute he could pay to his friend (our Saviour) and his family. They mounted the platform and surrounded a huge drum. Those next to the drum sat. As they beat upon the drum they sang. To me it sounded more like a chant. It was simply beautiful.
Since I have been writing this letter, a phone call from Sister Watson interrupted me. She wanted to see me. It was urgent. She was scared to death. She wanted my advice. I told her she would have to talk to at least three of us. She said, she want to talk only to me. I told her, come hell or high water I will be there! I will not be moved. Then I hung “up.”
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EE-1-S-170
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Sister Rose, believe it when I tell you, some of members of the “household” – not the “household of faith” are becoming ill because they are dealing in “garbage.” They a lowering their vibrations. They are separating themselves from Principle. It comes down to – Is you is or is you aint! Well. I’m is!
Our services are “out of sight.” There vibrations are high for the spirit of the consciousness of the presence of God is ever apparent. He said he would never leave us alone. Only truth proceeds from his mouth. As I make my visitations I see his handy work – miracle after miracle. I wonder why he loves us so. I know I’m not worry.
Peace and love
Brother Wesley!
[envelope addressed to Rose Shelton, 41 Lahama Gardens, Georgetown, Guyana]
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EE-1-S-166
3047 California Street
San Francisco, Calif
August 13, 1977
Dear Sister Rose,
Today is Saturday. Truly, it has been & busy week. The Eagle is still stirring the nest causing the eaglets to “mount up” and take flight. Now you see them – now you dont. Dad doesn’t play. He is taking care of business on the western and eastern fronts. When he moves – he moves for he has p o o o w w w e e e r r r! The “gates” of hell cannot prevail successfully against him. Hallelujah!
For a number of years, I have missed certain events for they were held on our meeting nights. This has changed for quite some time now. Dad has given the word – I’ve been invited to participate with others to represent the household of the faith at number of gathering. The latest was an address given by M.J.K. Nyerere, the president of the United Republic
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EE-1-S-167
of Tanzania. He spoke for approximately forty-five minutes. Sister Rose, would you believe it? Everything he said we already knew for Dad keep us well informed. He spares no pains or price. He lectures for hours and hours and hours. Dad obtains expensive and ofttimes unavailable movies to grafically get “over” his message. No matter what the world may do or say, I’m going to “stick” with my Dad. Truly we are blessed beyond measure!
Our meetings are well attended. We sit in joyful anticipation hopefully listening for the Voice of Love-Truth. Oftimes we hear it – O! what joy and thanksgiving.
Take care! Know ye – “we are hanging on in there”
Peace and love,
Your Brother Wesley!
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EE-1-R-55-56
July 1, 1978 letter from Rose Shelton
Friday July 1st 7:30 AM
My loving Father:
Just to say hello. Also hope you are getting a little rest. I miss you very much know you have to stay where you are needed most. Things are going on okay here I am planting some mustard seeds today had to stop for 2 days a box of matches exploded in my left hand a big blister formed was sore a little it went down just as though I had opened it. Thanks to you my hand is normal not sore. I thoughtless threw the burning box on the open draw it went out without starting a fire thanks again for another miracle.
Thanks for your daily protection
Hope to see you soon
Love Rose
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EE-1-S-78
Undated confession by Al Simon
What I stole in Jonestown
I took 4 bananas one night about 3 months ago. Also I had some special privileges for instance extra egg sandwich and extra coffee while on security. I felt guilty about this and also guilty about not working more during the day that is why I went off of night security. I know this still goes on with security. I don’t know how the others can stand the guilt of these privileges and also not working more.
This is elitism and I am trying to overcome but it is very hard. But living to principle (Jim Jones is principle) will help me overcome this my fault.
Thank you Dad,
Al Simon
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Note from Al Simon, April 1978
EE-1-S-118
April 9 – 1978
To Dad
How do I feel about death – when I was younger I had no fear of death then when I got [out] of high school I got a fear of dying and I wanted to go and do difficult thing that I couldn’t do when I didn’t have any money. then when I married and we had three kids I felt the lives of my kids meant more than mine. I had a fear of dying because I felt since I helped bring them in the world I felt I couldn’t die since they were so little. then we met you and then I knew you would always care for my children or any child. then my fear of dying slowly left. now I have no fear of dying. Also I feel all the children here should have a right to live and carry on.
Any fears I have – the only fear I have is of I lost a leg or arm or crippled or paralized then I would be a burden to someone…
What would I do if anything happened to Dad – first of all I think all hell would break loose in our group. I feel that I would try to reorganize with a few whom I feel would be committed enough to carry on. I feel that I would injure or kill someone in order to bring order back in this immediate community. I feel that there is no one who will come close to your capability to lead people, or having your knowledge.
We would then become a fighting force. I mess with weapon. Instead of the way you operate now. I will try to carry on the cause even though my capabilities are limited.
Prepared to kill wife or children if they turned TRAITOR – I know you are preparing us if the time should ever come. I feel I can do this because there is alway that touch of hate toward our immediate family. the turning of traitor would than trigger this hate factor making it possible to kill with no remorse.
What do I miss about the STATES – ARE THEY WORTH IT. – the thing I miss most is the mountains and the coast line. I think these things are very nice. I always went to one or the other to get away from people.
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EE-1-S-119
I’ve always hated being around a large group of people. I just dislike people all along.
SEXUAL FEEling – I always preffered the female for a sex partner. But the homosexuality in me alway deeply advanced the male who had a well developed muscular development of his body.
How do I FEEL ABOUT CARRYING A gun – it give me a feeling of power to control people or animal whichever I’m confronting. I know when I some one with a gun makes me a little cautious towards this person. I feel guns should be carried only a certain times. Also I feel a person should be thoroughly trained in handling a gun.
This WEEKS NEWS – you told us about the talk between USSR and U.S. about the nuclear talk. of Russia saying they will make the neutron bomb and retaliate if they have to. Also their laser beam. the bring out of the Artichoke plan – which was based on controlling the mind, the kidnap of the leader of Italy by the red front. talk about another Anita Bryant how much money she was paid and who is behind her. About goodyear rubber leasing land for six cents an acre. About the U.S. imperialism in South Africa. Sophia Loren trafficking money out of Italy. arrested. U.S. SAC team on alert over Samolien efforts. Loren now in Capital of Somalia. 30 Cuban fighters murdered. Edi Amin turning pro U.S. The hanging of a black 14 year old boy. The U.S. miner strike. The Panimainian talk bill and how it will fail.
Socialism to me – means here in our town which is the highest in the world. free health care, no taxes, no worrys about food alway wanting to help others always giving more than receiving.
Major threat to our people here and there – the major threat there is through the IRS, which is taking after the first of next month. The chance of being arrested on false charges. Stoen and his group will always be a threat to us here and there
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EE-1-S-120
The chance of them cutting off of our funds coming from U.S. the threat of C.I.A. in the government toward us here, the threat of kidnapping or assassination.
I’m I afraid of dying
Thing that were said and how I feel about the security force – the thing about the white night mentioned by Tom to me. If I thought about it too much did make this thought in my mind. But after hearing what you said and going over it in my mind, made me see that you wouldn’t do this to us. That’s all that was said. After listening to your teaching I’m not now afraid of dying.
The things I miss most is the mountain and the coast line. I like these places most
Thank Dad
Al Simon
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Undated note from Anthony Simon
EE-1-S-127
Anthony Simon
you talk about people needing to learn to get to meeting on time and new paper cliping, one about (A) Boston were they had a sign saying need more nigger slave on the court house door, and some office or program had them to remove it (B) one about the KKK was expanding and had increase 200 in each city, (C) one about the constitution being done away with by the supreme court. (D) one article was about 500 gay in San F. without job (E) one about the Second head man in California was being attack by the paper, and they would do the same thing to you. July 4, and we would be having our family coming down (F) one about police attacking a lady. You talk about the two an hard hat, everyone has a difference in reading level and tested what they heard in the other meeting. (G) one about the fuel crisis that cause many [illegible word] due to cold weather (H) one about the lady who had a successful campaign again the gay and won (O) You talk about jack left in the mud and great concern for waste and love that you gave no discipline, and you talk about my defensiveness the way I make dum remark or laugh
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Undated note from Barbara Simon
EE-1-S-111
My name is B. [Barbara] Simon Im 22 years, I like to address this to L. Simon you’ve got a lot of nerve being a lyingtheafing [illegible word] rip off preacher who goes around stealing from poor peopel in you church.
You drive around in a fancy car and live in a mansion once you stole money from the church treasury it was common knowledge grandma even told me you took money from the church treasury.
So lay off and make headlines on your time not mine
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Undated note from Bonnie Simon
EE-1-S-121
To Dad
My feelings about dying are that I don’t mind the idea of dying for what we believe and for what we have built here but I would like to be able to die fighting or at least to be able to kill some of those bastards first. I think revolutionary suicide would be a possible necessity for the children and the seniors and having 3 small children that was hard for me to accept at first but now I can see that it may become necessary to save them from any torture which would be worse than death.
As for our security that we have now I think basically it is very good. I am glad to be a part of the security because it is something very necessary for your protection and the protection of this beautiful family. I have felt that because of chauvinism sisters have been held back from being as involved as we could be. Several of us have asked to be trained in weapons and no response has ever been given. I think there are times during crisis that we should have weapons. I don’t want to be armed with a weapon that I don’t know how to use but I don’t think it would take that much to teach us. If I were to carry a weapon it would be with the thought to get the person out there before he could harm one of our people in here.
If anything were to happen to you Dad the first thing I would want to do is kill those responsible. I would hope that others here could step up and take over to keep us together here on our land. I would want to stay here and keep on working for our socialist home. If it were not possible to stay here for some reason I would try to go to another country where they are fighting for freedom.
As far as fears I do have a fear that we will be forced to commit revolutionary suicide before we get to kill some of the traitors and harrassers. I also have a fear about myself how well I could stand up to pain such as torture. I don’t have as much confidence in myself on this point.
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EE-1-S-122
I really don’t miss anything in the states at all except a few relatives that I hope will be here soon. They are mostly young children and I hate to see them suffer because their Dad can’t make up his mind to follow you. There is nothing in the states worth going back for and I never want to go there again.
I think that I would be able to kill my companion or one of my children if they were a traitor because if they did any-thing to hurt this cause I would have enough hate for them just as I do now against Stoen and the other traitors.
I have never had sexual feelings for anyone except men. Right now I am tryng to not need sex. I have gone about 7 months now and for the first 6 months it didn’t bother me at all but now once in a while I do want it but I know it would be the same unsatisfying experience as it has been in the past.
The major threats for our people there are the CIA and the IRS. Also that the country is getting closer to economic collapse and nuclear war and we need our people out before this happens.
Some threats here are the cutting off of our checks and the kidnap threats against our people. Also the conspirators such as Stoen which are a threat here and in the states.
Socialism means that we can all live equally and inter-racially and work for ourselves not some capitalist like in the states
Some of the news I got are that Eldridge Cleaver has gone religious and joined the Moslems. He said to leave politics to the politicians. Also Margaret Thatcher Prime Minister of England wants all people of color to leave the country.
Flint [Larry Flynt] the publisher of Hustler magazine was assassinated after offering $1 million reward for information on Kennedy & King’s assasination.
Thank you Dad
Bonnie Simon
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Undated note from Bonnie Simon
EE-1-S-100
Dear Father:
I want to say I’m sorry for not following through when I knew what should have been done, I will be more aggressive from now on and see that things are done right, I will be very conscientious in my work in the kitchen and also help the others that are assigned to checking the pigs food.
I’m sorry Father
Thank you Dad
Bonnie Simon
Some of the reasons we are here in Jonestown are because of the Cleometric theory and the food riots that would happen if a drought continues and the Senate Bill 1427 that says you can be arrested just for not answering an officer with the answer he wants to [illegible word] Also the laser missiles that are fired at tree top level. There also is the neutron bomb that can be dropped and kill all the people and not even move a piece of paper next to it. Also the genocide of people by putting poison in their food. Also the earthquakes that are overdue in California.
The most important reason is that we are here to build a Marxist society with freedom for all of our children and seniors to live in peace and equality. This is a home where we can learn to grow to be good socialists and try to be like Father
Thank you Dad
Bonnie Simon
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Undated note from Bonnie Simon
EE-1-S-132
Dear Dad,
I’m not much good at putting my feelings in writing but I want to try.
I have been very happy since I arrived here in Aug. Al and I have had our fights and disagreements but I think that will work out. I got off to a bad start when I came trying to be friends with everybody even to the point of flirting with other men. I realized that this wasn’t the way to be and I would only get myself in trouble. I’m really watching myself now trying to see myself as others see me. I have a lot of improving to do and I hope by analysing myself it will help me in working toward the goal of being a zero someday.
I want to express to you the joy I feel when I see our fields growing. During my roving shift on SAT I have had an opportunity to use food being planted one day amd just a few days later see the green plants coming up. This makes my heart swell with joy and makes me so grateful that I’m here in Jonestown
Bonnie Simon
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EE-2-s-3
Undated Letter to Jim Jones from Jerome Simon regarding Tim Stoen
[Editor’s note: Spelling errors corrected throughout.]
Dad I would like very much to kill any of our enemies. I know I can do it and I don’t mind dying and I think the one that should die first is the one that knows the most and that has hurt the people the most and I really don’t mind going out but I must take a few enemies with me. Another thought I had was the one that hurt us the least could be gotten & we would be less suspected if they pass the right way and Tim Stone [Stoen] and the others would get the message to get up or shut up.
Jerome Simon
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Undated Note on Jim Jones’ Pain from Marcia Simon
EE-2-r-4
Dad what I think you are sad about is that people you love and have tried so hard to educate just don’t seem to care about what your teachings, because they don’t grasp it and absorb the way you know they can.
I also think that you hurt because people don’t have the concern they should over our property and they don’t worry about making and saving money the way they should. All they want it to do is eat it at dinner time. I know it hurt you when you hear people talking about how they missed the US states foods. But Dad to be quite frank with you the only thing I miss is my grandpa who is so determined to get here. He said he will let anyone stand in his way, that my grandpa George [last name illegible, could be Henderson]. He loves your teachings and he gotten stronger since we been gone I’m sure. I thought that it would be really nice if we could have like a carnival or fairgrounds for money raising. That way everybody can participate, even the children and animals.
Marcie Simon
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Thank You Note to Jim Jones from Michael Simon
EE-2-r-2
[Editor’s note: Spelling and grammatical errors corrected throughout.]
8-1-78
Dear Dad
I like to thank you for the par excellent medical & dental staff. I (Michael Simon) and a molar tooth pulled today, it was so infected & painful that the whole asserted by face was throbbing all day and Emprin #3 and aspirin didn’t help the pain. Joyce Parks gave me the anesthetic, I was shocked that I could even feel the injection which gave me complete anesthesia. The 1st time (unlike in the States where I had to get 4 or 5 shots to get it done right). Shanda James, Tommy Rochelle & Dale [Parks] & Joyce Parks helped pull it. It was the only time I had a tooth pulled without any pain whatsoever. Thanks to the concern and care you show our medical people. Thank you. To me you have achieved more results than all the leaders in history. Thank for you, Dad
Thank you dad, M. Simon
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EE-1-S-26
Letter to Jim Jones from Pauline Simon
5-4-78
Dear Dad,
I, Pauline Simon, would like to thank you for the awareness and sensitivity that you are developing in us from your constant talks you give us. I also that you for taking away the ignorance that had left us blind for so many years, and without courage. I am so very glad that you are motivating us to be prepared for anything and everything to bring about a badly needed social change.
This has give me purpose to my life and courage. I am willing to live or die, which ever is deemed necessary to get the oppressed free so we will or at least our children, will be able to live in a world of justice and equality for all.
I will go where ever communism sends me and do what ever is required of me for the wiping out of facism which has tortured and killed so many people. I dedicate my life to this worthy cause and nothing matters to me now but the victory of communism all over this earth.
Again I thank you for showing us the way and giving our lives purpose. I’m willing to take liberty or death. I will fight until either is attained.
Pauline Simon
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EE-1-S-9 – 12
Test Answers by Pauline Simon
Socialism Test
Pauline Simon
6-9-78
- Revisionism, Social Democracy, Anarchism, Trotskyism
- Prop. 13 passed 2-1, when 7 million dollars was to be allocated in California for training programs & welfare; now going for military supplies & war
- Armed struggle – fighting for a cause – Revisionist do not believe in terrorism for they believe in revolution by peaceful means. Example of terrorism killing of Nicaragua [illegible] and her husband.
- Can go to jail for 4 1. Picketing 1437 2. [illegible] #5 rt. [right] to remain silent, 3. leafletting, 4. demonstrating, 5 lying to a government employee 6. Striking 7. Assembling for a strike 8. Talking against the government
- Ethiopia
- Joshua Nkomo to Carter
- They’re an opium to the people because they harm people believing in abstract and material things which are false realities when you can only receive anything through work But [illegible] problems to a sweet bye and bye Also condones slavery
- By its corrupt governmental practices violence, lying, frameups, coverups, provature [provocateur], injustices. Assassinations, poor medical care, no police protection
- Armed struggle – people fight for a reason example Red Brigade in Italy (Divided the Christian Democrats) Terrorism – Acts of violence without a cause Example – Vietnam War or if I got angry and killed someone
- Because they were told not to; Nkomo – they want their own rule and want to be free; Patriotic Front – Zimbabwe
- SALT – because some of their countries are withdrawing
- Says USSR has its missiles pointed at her
- Emerande – Ship ported in S.F. and was gladly received by Mayor Moscone. 1,000 women had been raped and killed and boat still had stenches from it.
- That they withdraw from Africa or nuclear war
- NATO withdraw – Sweden – Tired of [illegible word] USA wars
- China
- Contact here and don’t say anything
- Angela Davis
- Sadat – Egypt; Israel – Begin; Ian Smith – Zimbabwe; Vorster – South Africa; Brezhnev – Russia
- [illegible]
- A group liberalist
- John is a 16 y/o in prison in Alabama U.S. ready to be executed – he couldn’t be saved by [but] he would like to help others sent a letter out by an inmate leaving telling about the jail there would be hairs in food, has to drink urine water, and etc.
- Joan Little – She had been raped by a warden in jail – she killed him now she is awaiting execution
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EE-1-S-4 – 5
Undated Statement by Nancy Sines
From: Nancy Sines
I feel that socialism\communism is the only decent way to live, the only solution to fascist mentality; the only way of life worth living and dying for.
My beliefs are based on the teaching I have gotten from you, Jim Jones, and the little I have picked up from reading of Lenin, Che, and others trying to live a socialistic life. It is the only way all peoples will find equality. You are the only true dictator to the proletariat for the world to follow. Having the privilege of living the past 5 years with this organization has been the only time during my 28 years of life that I have felt free, cared for, and at peace with myself. The hedonistic, capitalistic society made me feel disgusted and hopelessly lost. I had no meaning or reason for this thing called living. I am grateful for these years with you and my family. I am grateful for the time here in Jonestown to show me it can happen in our time, and did, if thats the case.
The times I have felt completely at peace are those times that I have ceased looking at my own. Thank you.
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EE-1-S-61
Undated statement by Nancy Sines
To Father
From – Nancy Sines
Re: List you asked for Tues. nite
Russel Moton – I am attracted to because he has always treated me as an equal and has displayed no chauvinism that I am aware of.
Larry Schack [Schacht] – Same reasons although I feel more mothering towards Larry
Al Simon – I don’t even know him at all, but I do recognize a strong physical attraction towards him.
– Nancy Sines
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Undated note from Ron Sines
EE-1-S-130
Ron Sines
– Dutch reporter supposidly committed suicide day before he was going to reveil JFK assasination.
– Director of Coca Cola firm in Chilé was instrumental in setting up Chilé coup
– Crash of ‘79 shah of Iran wants to establish a pure Persian state – cleanse all of sins, religious nut, U.S. giving him atomic components for oil rights – very well might start necular war
– News article about [illegible] Myth of Advisary Press mentioned.
– Another article about the Supreme Court taking the Bill of Rights away from us more and more with each recent court decision.
– Bakke decissions – taking away rights of minorities to enter medical and law schools
– John Maher of Delaney Street being set up and framed by press this week.
– A Black ladies house was sold out from under her for just a little over 100.00 to pay back taxes. Houses valued at $40,000.
– Low grade alcoholic beverages being sold in minority neighborhoods – more apt to bring about anger and violence. Establishment wants this so more restricting laws can be past on minorities
– Jonestown immediate needs:
– food taken care of for 3 mos.
– water – need of supervision and organ for showering.
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– sleeping space, about 300 beds short – find and utilize all space
– young people may sleep in new housing reason – no walkway, electricity
– Jack ideas on construction seemed very good idea
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Undated Memo to Jim Jones from Ujara (Don Sly)
EE-2-r-8
Dad;
While coming downriver on the Cudjoe this time, I took a good look over the boat. There is a lot of work to be done that hasn’t been kept up since I’ve been off of the boat. Clifford [Gieg] has been doing a lot of the wood repair jobs that need doing and is doing a good job. There is a lot of work on the chipping of rust and repairs of linkage to the throttle and forward and reverse gears. The work can best be done on the days that the boat is in Port Kaituma when it is not on the river run. Some can be done while on the run, the major part while at Port Kaituma. The boat needs to be repainted along with all the other repairs. It is in poor condition at present, though it can be brought up the shape in a months time of working on the off days from the river run. After it is brought up to good running order, it must be kept up by following through with constant checking. When I get back I would like to take this job on. It would be going out in the mornings and returning in the evenings. I feel that I can get the job done and keep it up once it is completed.
Ujara [Don] Sly
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Undated Memo to Jim Jones from Ujara (Don Sly)
EE-2-r-13
Dad:
The reason for the Cudjoe being late is that I overshot the Waini Pt and wound up at the mouth of the Barimi River. We went we ought to see an accounting that we overshot our mark. It was 3:00 PM when we turned around and headed back to the Waini Pt. We got to the Waini Pt at dark and anchored out till morning. The error was on my part and I take full responsibility.
Ujara Sly
P.S. Everyone aboard work together as a group and faced the situation calmly and did what had to be done. Thank you for your protection. Ujara
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EE-1-S-3
Test answers by Mark Sly
Mark Sly
Test Fri: 6/16/78
1) Enemies of Communism: Social Democracy is the government provides advantages to the people to make them think they are getting good.
Also it make a grave mistake, by not removing the government, but working with it and putting in their own socialist leader
2) – – – –
3) Tarroism ) is when a person goes out and kills someone causes fear to people for nothing arm strugle ) is when a person or people fight or destroy a government that is opresing people
(4) (1437) No lefleting ) no striking ) no protesting if you are in a demonstration and the [illegible] is damaged even if you didn’t do it. You can be prosicuted.) If a policemen think that you might comit a crime you can be arrested. If a policeman is often someone that has committed a crime he can shout into a crowd and not be responsible for what happens.
5) ––––––
6) Jhowa Nakoma [Joshua Nkoma] told Carter to “kiss his Big Fat Black Ass” when Carter told him to not use Russian and Cuban Troops.
7) Every Fiction Religion of Misticism is used to oppress you. To keep there minds off whats hapining in the world.
8) Greece and U.S. Both now and where not letting the people say do or change any opresson or they would Both be considered Fashist State.
9) The police [illegible] them to make the government look good not to help everyone. If they were helping anyone, they were helping to get the deputy killed?
10) They are leaders of the African Gorilla Fighting with Rodisha or Zimbabwe
11)
12) They are more or less fighting over land and borders
13) – – –
14) He told the USSR to take their troops and, and nuclear reactors out of Africa
15) France not sure why
16) U.S. and China
17) Shut your mouth and ask for a [illegible] and Be Polite
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Undated note from Mark Sly
EE-1-S-164
Dear Father
I will make this short as possible. Father I am not going to play any more games with anyone. I am going to say what I feel, and not beat around the bush.
Father I would like to go back to california, and work in the church every day, no less than 16 hours a day. Untill the church is sold.
But that is only what I would like to have a chance to do. What I deserve is to have to get a job or jobs and pay back all the money that it cost for me and then when I have it all payed back. I should have to go and live with a relative.
This is what I feel Father.
Thank you for Reading
Mark Sly
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EE-1-S-64
Undated statement by Barbara Smith
My feelings about socialism is maybe one day people will see that with socialism that is the only way we can survive. No one should give up their land they had sweat blood for to risk their life. Sure we suppose to fight for what we believe in but then know that we can’t be taken by no means but to die for what we believed. So many times people had been driven away by the enemy. If you are a real socialist no way you give up without a fight. It’s better to fight than to sell out to the fascists dog. The struggle is hard but its the only way right way
Barbara Smith
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Self-analysis by James Alfred Smith, July 1978
EE-2-h-13a – 13b
[Editor’s notes: Insofar as this handwriting can be deciphered, grammar and spelling errors have been corrected.]
Self-analysis by Alfred James [James Alfred Smith]
July 4, 1978
Anyalsis
Dad I didn’t really want to have it but I had traitorous thoughts at times like after you give us some general [several illegible words] just to see what it would be like. I admit that I don’t love you because I don’t know how to love and I [am] resentful to authority figures because they make [illegible word] right when I realize if we didn’t have at that Italian that we wouldn’t have this movement. I admit that I wouldn’t go to jail for you because I don’t like to be penned up and as for dying for you I really don’t know if I would but I doubt it. And I don’t think I could really come to killing myself, but would have to make someone else do it. However I do want to have alpha [White Nights] where we all die. Then I admit that I think a lot about myself and very little of others, that I am lazy, resentful to work, and don’t like to obey orders. I realize that I need help in these areas. Dad I can’t say I’m sorry for when I’m really not. All’s I can say is I’ll work on it to the best of my ability and I’d appreciate any help I can get. I also admit that I’m a very vengent [vengeful?] person who wouldn’t tell most on some because it’s right but just to get back at them and I don’t appreciate the things you’ve done for me enough.
Thank you Dad from Alfred James
Dad I’m also disrespectful to seniors and feel that I don’t owe anything to them because they didn’t do anything for me but they did and I think I know too much and flapped my own way to learning and I don’t want to listen to anyone. I also want a lot of attention that I can’t get so I act up sometimes.
[Marginal notes: “Dad, I think the reason I do these things is because I think I’m above everybody else”
[“I also belittle people a lot and make fun of their physical features that they can’t help. And I disrespect my teachers also. [Several illegible words] someone not as smart as I am.”]
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Undated statement from Kevan Smith
How udy [you’d] kill our enamy:
1) I would ues a rilfe because it can be use with out the help of outher (and it can be use at long rang (1000 yards)
2) What is your sexul deling:
Bisexul, I like both men and wemen, greed
3) What would hapen if father was kill
- a) The movement would go down to a less 2 then now! In souch things as personal atenshon to seniors need
- b) It would not be able to remain out of school and medica regulashons of Guyana
- c) It would not be able to keep the moral stander and would have right out all regulachons of this co op
- d) A small grop would come to power out of nesseity
4) How do you feel about death
I an not afrade to die, but I do like liveing
5) Thing you miss in the U.S.
I miss the covenant [convenience] of stors for thinge want or needet
6) Would you kill your compenion or child
if seh turn traitor, Yes
7) How well do I live with battle tenshon we live under
I am not tents [tense] or neveus, the white night do try my pashount [patience]
8) What have you here in the news lately
the increasing racism, the move from the coston [Constutution] and legual procedures
9) What is socalisam to me
socialisam is the frest step up it is the best way to live now.
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EE-1-S-7
[illegible word] of normal people you talked about Russia giving aid to Angola and the U.S. didn’t like this and about the workers the 17 that were killed this plant because of unsafe working areas in Philadelphia. You talked about the Nazi uprising and the coming of swastikas and praising Hitler like some [illegible word]
Russia claimed they could make the neutron bomb and use them in 96 hours if the U.S. starts [illegible word] and the neutron bomb back in the 50s.
In Zaire where they put a puppet [illegible balance on sentence]
I will try to get more of the [illegible word] as much as I can
Your son
Kevan Smith
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Undated note from Kevin Smith
EE-1-S-128
Tuesdays meeting was opened with clippings from different newspapers and magazines. Some of the clipping were based on racism and politics from mainly US some of the read as such.
- House in L.A., was sold by government for $137.00 that was valued at $140,000 because of taxes owed by black family.
- Blacks being put out of certain towns in States
- Black not being wanted in Canada, and in the United Kingdom.
- Everyone in near future must carry at all times an identafication card at all times. The cards when feed into computors gives life history to present time. Even where you work, church organization
- A law is to be passed where as black children and adults will be sent to homes of Mormen to work
- Homosexual rights are being taken away in states
- Homosexuals marched in S.F. in protest of their right being taken away.
- Race war will break out in states said by many black leaders
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- KKK’s membership has increased by 100%
This is all I could remember on the paper clippings. As we went on in the meeting two hard hats asked to come of their displine it was said that they had to give a book report. The oldest gave his book report a little better than the younger one did. It was said that the book being read might be a little harder for one to understand than the other so a book report must be given on a persons level of coprehension. Each acording to his or her ability each acording to his or her needs. The problems of 450 people coming here and not really prepared for this amount as of yet were talked over.
Thank You Father
Kevin Smith
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EE-1-S-27
Letter to Jim Jones from Eugene Smith and Ollie Smith
To Dad:
Thank you for saving Martin Luther when he was born with the Cord wrapped around his neck. Thank you Dad
Ollie & Eugene Smith
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Undated Note of Apology to Jim Jones from Alfred James Smith
EE-2-h-27a – 27b
[Editor’s note: Spelling and grammar errors corrected throughout.]
Dad, I wasn’t it in a way I was [illegible word] Ronnie but it seems like Shanda [Oliver] wanted to go with, because she kept asking me what I thought about Val & I see her & talk to her a lot after she said she did not want a relationship. I’m sorry I wish I hadn’t said anything. I made myself sick to get into SCU [Special Care Unit] so I could see her & I wasted a lot of oxygen that could have been used on someone who really needed it.
Alfred James
At the time I was highly upset & I said to myself I couldn’t handle all that’s happening to me. I was going to commit suicide but it didn’t work out. I got in SCU. What I mean is I wanted company of adults & well Rhonda [Fortson] this tossing most of the time so she can’t spend time with me & Beverly got sick & was sent to Georgetown. Gene [likely Chaikin] click stateside, Guy wasn’t much fun, Evon [Eyvonne] James work from 3 to 11 pm so I can’t talk to her & then Shanda got sick & I said the fuck with everything so I went home & held my breath, then when I didn’t pass out I quit & went on about my business, fell asleep in the pavilion & that’s when it took full effect.
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EE-1-S-84
Note from Shirley Smith, February 1978
2-21-78
To Dad:
I must face this in myself that when I first thought we were going I thought to myself oh I get to get out of security. I also have to face I liked the idea of getting away from Simpson because sometimes he gets on my nerves so bad I hate him. I feel pretty sure of myself when it comes down to men because I have had my share. I’m not telling you I won’t flirt but I know there won’t be any going to bed for sure it wont make any different what the decision is if I go or stay.
Shirley Smith
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Note from Shirley Smith, March 1978
EE-1-S-116 – 117
3/26/78
Shirly Smith
To Dad:
I have guilt for all the money I wasted in the states because I charged so many gas receipts and spent the money until I can’t even estimate the amount of money wasted. I also kepted of my checks which I remember one was $80 and the other was $226. The last one I spent most of it on my sister’s children. I also wasted coming over here on the plane because some of my need money. I had lifted I bought perfume and ear rings and food.
Why are we going to Georgetown? I see you wanted this program to go on because the Guyanese can see how complete socialism is working. Most of the officials have been to visit and have seen total equality in housing, medicine, and food. If they see how well we all get along and present ourselves this may cause them to make changes in their government.
I know I have much improvement to make on myself
I am so happy you are my Dad and hope I will be the socialist I should be.
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EE-1-S-40
Undated Self evaluation by Sylvia Grubbs Smith
Dad:
Self evaluation: From Sylvia Grubbs Smith
I do not work as hard as I could. I am a very paranoid personality with a marter [matryr] complex. For example when I do work hard I feel sorry for myself and tend to complain on how hard I worked. I consistantly feel that I have to prove my dedication to this work. in so doing always feel inferior to anyone that works harder or recieves more recognition than myself.
I don’t feel secure in my work on the medical team = and won’t either because in medicine one is always learning and just as sure as one becomes satisfied mistakes happen the field of medicine requires perfection from everyone on the team and I am far from that.
Regarding my sexual fantasies. At 39 years old I don’t contiously have them as I use to. They still exist regarding Tim how come we are not indulging — because he wants his cake and eat it too — as he stated in his own words. I said no. We go to the committee as everyone else or nothing at all. Its nothing at all!!! We had a take before he left out this
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trip. I told him… how I feel used and after 4 years of standing by his ass deserved more honesty. He left pissed. But rules are rules and besides if I let him use me – I’m not worth shit!!! I would have found after arriving here that those things that seemed so important in the past no longer exist here! Or seem important.
In regard to my sexual fantasies to you they were on a contious level long ago but over the years I have learned to fear and respect you. I look at you as more than a physical human being, because no plain human could endure the pains and grief you have had to go and endure through the years! and still get people here and maintain our base in the states. This home is more than I can comprehend even now that I am here for myself. There are times that I am hostile at a rule or something you’ve said but its always because what you are saying is hitting me where its suppose to.
I still feel alot of guilt for becoming so ill in the states. I’m
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grateful that I’m walking and doing as well as I am but can understand your grief in me to let myself get to the point of not being able to cope because it makes a potentially dangerous member when one can’t cope! I’m sorry for that and thats part of my reason for pushing now guilt…..
I have never been happier than I am now. This country is more than I ever expected. The beauty is breathtaking. I was so unhappy in capitalism and wanted to fight or die rather. [line crossed out] after [three lines crossed out] in my son’s having gone through the crisis they learned to live or die completely without me. I felt good because a mom always likes to know that her children can live without depending upon her. Mine can here! Kevan is such a fine young man and if you hadn’t taken him under your wing and sent him here we might not have him. I can NEVER thank you enough Dad for what
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you have done for him and all of us. We’re happy living here working here and dying here if we have to- its nice to have my self intact and a true reason for dying!!!
I have felt resentment for Larry Schact because he has been so sinicle and uncaring but since you talked to him he has turned completely around. I do agree with his methods now, and that is that everything is brought to him for clearance – I have talked behind his back to the other nurses stating that they and all of us better not do anything without his knowledge or we will be written up [four lines crossed out] I told him that we were not going to be pressured by anyone again about anything because they think they have such and such or so and so (They try to manipulated us) I will keep my mouth shut from now on and say everything in our peer meetings thats what we have them for to bring each other in shape.
Thanks Dad for everything
Sylvia
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EE-1-S-28 – 29
Test answers by Cleyvee Sneed
Clevyee Sneed
[notes at top:] Very good Missed 1.5 out of 1st 10
Extra missed 5.5
- The four enemies of Communism are A. Anarkism B. Social Democracy C. Trostkyism D. Revisionism
- [side note]: [illegible]young many jobs cut out This bill is passed in Calif. was promoted by Jarvis. Also it passed in N. Jersey it has put over 500,000 out of jobs the welfare and other things are going down one of our members was put out of a job. Younger supported the bill and he won out over Davis in the primary governors elections.
- Arm struggle is fighting with guns and anything you can get trying to win: Terrorist act is any senseless murder to frighten people also Moros death
- (1) Dont lie to I.R.S. (2) Can’t harbor a criminal (3) don’t talk to newspapers about a government crime (4) can’t leaflet (5) cant pickett a courthouse while a trial is in progress (6) can’t take the 5th ammendment (7) police can shoot in a crowd and hit anyone and nothing will be done about it.
- Cholera broke out in Ethiopia
- He told Carter “Get the hell out of here” (Kiss my big fat ass)
- All these things are to get people to take their mind off the real struggle and while they are being more and more oppressed by the capitalist
- They are both fascists
- Because he was a witness
- THey are leaders of the Patriotic Front and are trying to liberate Zimbabwe
- He wanted the military to be withdrawn
- THey are fighting over the border and a racist problem
- The Chilean ship Esmaraldo is now docked in S.F. Harbor the crew was received by Mayor Moscone in grand style this ship while in Santiago Chile was used as a torture ship and many people were killed (women too) on it
- Carter wants disarmment talks
- You should ask the charge you are being held on but then you should’t give out with any information only ask to call your atty,
- Angela Davis – She told Dad that Socialism would win – she’s not willing to have struggle continue to live high on the hog etc.
- Sadat – Egypt, Begin – Italy – Castro – Cuba; Ian Smith – Zimbabwe, Voster
- Life Magazine
- I’m alive He’s alive
- Jhonnie Harris was on death roe in Alabama Prison sneaked a letter and telling about prison conditions
- Was in prison, North Carolina killed a prison guard who rapped her.
[handwritten checks next to answers]
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Note about Clevyee Sneed’s daughter
EE-1-S-172
(Child)
Sneed’s daughter
Clevyee L. Gayles
489 Stonehurst Dr,
Attadena, CA, 91101
Sent 80.00 by parents make sure she get a picture of child & thank you letter
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Undated note from Novella Sneed
EE-1-S-101
Father
I thank socialism is wonderful to live sharing giving all loving no rich or the poor every one the same know one better than others.
Novella Sneed
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Undated notes from Davis Solomon
EE-1-S-136
I stole a watch that is about $150.00 in value and all of this happen on the 12, of Dec. and on Nov 18, I watched until some children were walking home and I grab one, and rape him and got away with it
Davis Solomon
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EE-1-S-143
I Davis Solomon on give my Resignation as a member of the Peoples Temple.
I know Jim Jones to be a man of the Highest esteem and He portrays great Principle and character. but, I wish to Do my own Thing and not Dedicate my life to this great Humanitarian Work
Davis Solomon
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Note of February 1978 from Shawanna Soloman
EE-1-S-99
Feb. 21 – 1978
Self Criticism
I tend to get very bitchy I’m an aleatest [elitist] I don’t like to take orders I don’t like responsibility I sit back and let others (anyone) be the bad guy I like to look good I can find fault in others quickly but very very slow to look or find fault in myself I am still fucking off lots of the time that I should be using for production I am stubborn I don’t take criticism like to give it out but not take it. I’m not willing to take things as they are like facing reality, I’m selfish, hostile show favoritism.
Shawanna Soloman
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EE-1-S-32
Statement by Martha Souder
Dad, I will give my life to the burned or for whatever it takes to save this movement if it would help in any way
Martha Souder
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Undated Note on Jim Jones’ Pain from Martha Souder
EE-2-r-5a – 5b
5-26-78
Dear Dad,
I think you are thinking about the whole world on your shoulders & you are very tired of pouring your heart out to the whole world & us. I think you have your mind on doing everything to get the people to come together as one. I know it broke your heart when some of us don’t listen to you & go on doing our thing. I think you are burdened with our own members turn on us & do all kinds of evil things to us.
I think it hurt you when some of us still work to help get our people safe. I believe you are hurt more when Tim Stone [Stoen] keeps stirring up more trouble for you to take on. I believe you are tired of all the White Nights that come. I think you have on your mind that you are tired of not getting enough sleep because you have to be on the radio all night sometime. I thank you for all the truths you have taught me, Dad. I thank you for giving your whole life & your family’s life you have given to make us free, & you have given everything you have for this cause & some of us don’t care about that. Dad, & it hurt me also to know this about some of us.
Martha Souder
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Undated note from Wanda Souder
EE-1-S-107
Dad,
I don’t want to keep anything from you. Even though I know you know. This is on my mind and I must tell you.
Hue [Fortson] and I became very fond of one another in the States. I’ve always had a guilt feeling about our relationship because of Rhonda and Ishi [wife and son of Hue]. He told me when we started off that him and Rhonda were on bad terms and that they had made the agreement to do as they wish or something to that order. I brought it to his attention that I felt guilty. He told me he understood my reasons and I didn’t have to feel like I did. I felt this was because I didn’t want Rhonda to be hurt or take him from his family.
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EE-1-S-108
At the time we started our relationship we both needed someone. We did the best we could to keep it from being known to the congregation. Because he is to set example for your people there.
I conceived of a child in this relationship and discontinued it with each others approval because it would have given some of our brothers or sisters a reason to do things. By them looking up to Hue, we didn’t want to do anything to give any of them an excuse to quit or hurt this cause in any way.
I never was sure if Hue really wanted to let Rhonda go, so I discussed it with him again, and I told him I didn’t want to be the cause of keeping
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him and his family apart. Before I left he came to me and said he would see what happens when we got here and stopped our relationship at this point. I was very hurt and I felt then for sure that he would for sure want to be with his family when he got here and I didn’t want to get in the way of that. I would never want to hurt one of my sisters intentionally so I was willing to give him up. I will always be fond of him.
Before I left I started a relationship with Eric Upshaw because we seemed to have a lot of things in common and he seemed to understand my situation and my hurt.
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Dad when I left I was really confused and I still am. I’m fond of Eric also and I always have feelings for Hue. Very deep ones.
It’s kind of hard for me to explain this whole thing in writing so if you would like to talk to me I would rather do it that way if you [illegible word] questions.
Thank you Dad
Wanda Souder
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Undated note to Carolyn Layton from Carol Stahl
EE-1-S-124
Carolyn Layton –
Dear Carolyn,
Just a quickie to say hi and thanks for the letters. I appreciate your taking the time to write. I know from the work that is going on at this end, and sometimes sitting in the radio room, that you are all extremely busy at that end. I really enjoyed talking with you on the radio. I know that Dad is constantly thinking of us back here. That is his way. It is wonderful how much has been done in spite of what some have tried to do to stop it.
I got some pictures of Richmond and Bonnie. They sure look healthy and happy. Bonnie talks to me she is in third grade now. As I told you when we
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were talking, teaching in the public schools has really made me appreciate what Dad has provided for our children. I have the most difficult class I have ever had. Even the principal has to admit that several of them are tough cases. It is sad to see 5 and 6 year olds having such severe problems that they are a constant disruption.
We are all fine here. Two bus loads left Fri. night so the family down there will soon be quite a bit bigger. It is amazing that no matter how many go over, our services seem to have a room full of people. I guess some are coming back who have not been around for awhile. Say hi to Annie for me. We found a good home for Willie. The man was very pleased with him. He needed a dog that would bark and keep the deer out of his garden.
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Now you know that is right up Willies alley. He loved to bark at birds and deer. He has a 100 foot run for him. I did not meet the man, but Claire thought he would be good to him.
There really is not a lot to write about, but I’ll try to drop you a line now and then. I went to see my dad yesterday. He is very supportive as are others. I thought it a good idea to keep in contact just in case TOS [Tim Stoen] should decide to contact some of them there. Must drop a quick note to Scott Thomas about videotapes. We are about out and [unintelligible] was supposed to let me know if the machines on your end has been fixed yet. Until next time
Cmrd. Carol [Stahl]
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Note to Leona Collier from Tim Stoen, June 1977
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10 June 1977
Leona –
Please have Maria Katsaris send $240.00 (U.S) to attached name as she previously did.
TOS [Tim Stoen]
(For refrigerator sold by Vanier)
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Self analysis from Tobi Stone
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From (Meten Daji)
Tobi Mtendaji [Tobi Stone]
Self Analysis Evaluation
Dad I know I am far from a zero I know we made quite a step from what honestly relate memory wise what I call the swift life dealing dope from time to time hanging round bars hoping to meet someone with a hot deal in terms of money for myself and the children so I could end them turning much to my regret and trick or two as a last resort: in short a life of nothing period over all a homosexual in a rat race trying to get respect plus going through so called companions who are so insecure it irks one from what meaning there is to life and one mostly saying to himself what am I here for and what purpose in life do I really have is a real mind bender Dad. Plus you don’t ever really get to know who likes you and who don’t there’s so much deceit and hatefullness one becomes a militant to survive:
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I love the concern of the family and the cause: and a loving father who has shown us all me Tobiana and Tracy [Stone] a true concern and that life is nothing but problems and peace is death I was afraid of death until thy last asthma attack that was enough to come to terms with
I’m no better than anyone else I tend to gossip quite a bit this I can stand to work on very hard
I could stand to speak out in service when you ask this of us in participation. I’m always mouthing off but when it comes down to it I ain’t shit and this scares me about myself because im always saying I’ll kick ass in a minute. I guess in all reality I like to be seen and not heard in most situations. I work better when Im by myself, in groups someone dear makes me have tendency to join in idle talk. Im working on a quicker plea in field work. I have a big complex about who really likes me and who don’t This does bother me. I also find that I tend to let the fact that I have asthma stop me from getting involved in activities to readily: I’ve gone on ahead and pined SAT I’ll try my best to represent SAT Dad, with all due respect I readily admit I have quite a bit of like for Fanny Ford I guess in simple, I just want to fuck around till Mary Donnell gets here she doesn’t seem anxious to get here. In my opinion: who ask for my opinion.
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I would like to say to put it short I’m always picking out someone who don’t give damn about me on the whole, or some one who as it appears usually to only want me so they can [illegible] this recognized as a weakness in myself. This I have tendency to reject. I’ve always felt bad about those epole who seem to misjudge my kindess for weakness, because they are leaving a level of thought on they’re part, open to me, this and keep is a silent weapon in the quiet for use to my advantage. When the occasion presents itself in argumentive confrontaton back to Mary my reason for what said about her is the fact that it’s taking so long for her to get here and the fact that [illegible] in the mean time feel and think she’s not twiddling her fingers the perfect opening excuse I use to get out of natural weakness I do have a urge for sex very strongly and i’m very interested in Fannie she turns me on. I’ve boldly told her too that I’m atractted to her / likewise she may or may not be likewise interested in me we get along alright as associates so far even though she’s Mary’s friend Ive also told her I’m still interested I hvave tendency to down myself in areas where I have a blind side to my where I have strength and respect from others I will work hard on these things I’m always willing to take criticism from anyone as long as it’s constructive. Then I’ll [illegible] otherwise I’ll argue
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(4) I’m always quick to apologize after a disagreement and will give a explanation on my part of why I spoke as I did whatever it’s about. I’m sorry to say people seldem do me likewise of course I know I’m shit anyway so who am I to look for anything respectful from anyone I’ve shown any amount of respect to sometimes the other person is the one whose wrong I do this because it sometimes holds a person back from doing something for me when a very serious situation may arise that vital to others as well as myself. At times I’ve even fallen out with seniors I try not to do so because here everyone who has been turned off by others and discriminated against most their lives can have a word to say and does so why not! I’m most of the all very easily embarrased I can actually fee myself turning some kind of color what that would be, “I don’t know” but I know one thing I perspire like all get out then. (I chose the name Mendaji which means worker cause I’d like to live up to it) I’m sorry Dad to write so much but this is all I could think of and cover for you thanks for reading this cause I know how busy you are I still call my good friends nigger and talk not often but on astrology I’m working on this too and Simpson reminds me totally, I mean totally of my real father and I hate my real father Don’t scream Dad it’s only me Tobi Thank you Dad for reading this.
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Undated note from Tobi Stone
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Dad
Thank you for briefly coming in to reassure me that’d i’d be alright knowing how busy you are.
Thank you dad!
Thank
Comrade Tobi [Stone]
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Undated Note to Jim Jones from Tobi Mtendaji (Sharon Lee Stone) on Tim Stoen
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from Tobi [Mtendaji, Sharon Lee Stone]
Dad;
I’m not too much on ideas. But when I think of all you’ve done for us in terms of Tim Stoen, what’s to say, how come he can’t be dealt with, on his own terms. By another homosexual. Obviously he turns tricks. I believe he can be killed along the same method, as the hitman in the movie, The Day Of The Jackal, and his killer whomever it may be, could quietly leave him dressed as a woman, in total appearance to the last hair line.
Or Dad any good-looking man, he’d I’m sure when he’s desperate as frntic homosexuals get, when they accept almost anything, a pattern of the desperate males as when they don women’s clothing will do; this man could be a well-trained woman in the art of assassinating. I feel one in the most successful way to eliminate him his at his own game, with every loophole covered. This is the best I can offer you Dad.
Tobi Mtendaji
By the way, Dad, I’m sure there’s a way by whomever is watching Tim, what type of man he is attracted to that brings him to his weakness; this would also be an even greater help to achieving in getting him successfully.
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Undated Statement by Bob Stroud
Death
I have thought of Death many times, and I look forward to it, you have taken away all fears I once had. Now Death is welcomed.
Your death
I have thought of this.
Also – which is very depressing, but if the struggle is to continue then everything must be considered.
One thing I worry about is this, although I have admiration for many of the people on security – I feel no one possesses the (character, the commitment and the selflessness that Dad has) And because of this I feel that in the event of your Death, the dictorship of the prolotariat could become fascist trying to maintain unity, and composure of the organization, one suggestion to prevent this could be a committee people who make all the decisions, of course, I feel the people need a personality to look up to, but a committee should run the internal structure of this organization in the event of your Death
Methods to get enemies –
Abroad – I think that once we know where our enemies are – we should watch them note all habits and the like – and then kill them – (accident, make it look like an accident, just plain shot them, poison, but all must pay for their crime against the people, as for enemies in gov well the same basics apply – But as for the killing – probably assassination by rifle would probably be the easiest because it would be hard to get close to them. OR we could sacrifice our lifes getting them.
Head-on car crash – bombs-
Fears – I fear to be a vegetable – I dont mind dying – but I don’t want to live like that.
When I am out in the Bush, I fear snakes – maybe some of the others on the security could help me with this
I fear the loss of respect from my peers, although I don’t think many respect me, I don’t like to loose face.
(Prepared to kill wife or child if turned traitor) – I know I could kill anyone for the sake of the cause I have thought about it. I am sane, I could kill my traitor with no feelings.
(miss about states)
All I miss is hamburgers, pastries, candy bars, I miss them, but it means nothing to me.
(Sexual feelings)
I am pretty disgusted with sex in general, I do find pleasure in it, but also I feel guilt, like as if I am using the other person, so at this point it is very conflicting for me,
As for preference – I think older women are more appealing between 30-40
(sexual feeling related to carrying a gun)
Carry a gun – gives me a powerful feeling a feeling that is sometimes scary when you think about it. Plus a lot of responsibility, you must always be alert
(News) – the dollar continues to drop (which I am grateful for) – frame ups on progressive congressmen – like Charles Diggs, and Miller. Israel and Lebanon – conflict that continues, and probably will – forever.
(socialism to me)
The concept of socialism, Dad’s socialism, is everything to me, is everything we have built, and represents Dad struggle over the years and socialism represents the unity of our people, there [their] survival, our children survival
(major thanks to our people here & there)
Both here and there we must think of the reactionary elements among us, Plus we must identify them Also a threat here is food, due to the economic state of Guyana – I think once our new ship is ours. We should go to other countries and get supplies – other major threats are cutting off monies and also, I think we should worry about frame-ups of our people in the states
Bob Stroud
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Note of October 26, 1977 to Bobby Stroud
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- 10. 77
Hello Bobby,
How are you? Fine. I hope. And the had – I hope you have not been hurting and so on – How is your beloved Jonestown? I bet you must be enjoying yourself immensely.
Guess what? – yesterday I listened to the People’s Temple’s programme – and I heard your Pastor Jones talking all about Walter and his accident. Also right now there are two people from your place in our ward.
Oh! Incidentally – Do you know what you said when you were back from surgery? – Aha! – I’ll tease you the very next time I see you about it x x x x x
I think it was very nice of you to phone that morning – I am fine, now, – thank God – But it was miserable for those few days – Peer examination is Saturday 29th. – I am very apprehensive about it, but I want to get over with it and done.
Are you still coming on November 3, for your appointment with Mr. Leawar? – I am really looking forward to seeing you and
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even though I’ll be off duty that day – I’ll come to hospital to see you, Okay?
I am not working today ~ My cousin and I are going to the movies, then when we come back I’ll put in a little more work (for exams)
Will you give me a photograph of yourself please? ~ I would really, really appreciate that P L E A S E If you would like to have one of myself, I’ll send it in my next letter.
I guess I gotta be going now take good care of yourself.
So long! God Bless You!
Love,
Ron
PS: Write back sooooooon !
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Letter from Bobby Stroud, January 1978
Dad,
Jan 21, 78
I just want to thank you for sharing with us the story of Ulla Rueben [Lula Ruben] – I for myself don’t analyze my thoughts or statements or actions like I should. I’ll bet there are many stories like hers. I feel ashamed. I hope in this new environment that possibly we all can grow and evolve. I was confronted here a couple of nights ago for being chauvinistic toward Joan which I was – chauvinism is as bad as racism – I hope because of being confronted I will grow – I am working on it – just as I hope Daisy takes the confrontation good and grows – If I could do the work I am doing for the rest of my life – I could never repay you Dad for everything
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you have done and the sacrifices you make daily. Please give my best to all our comrades.
Your son,
Bob Stroud
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Note of January 11, 1978 from Bobby Stroud
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Jan 11, 1978
Dear Dad,
We’re still here, and we’ll be as long as we’re needed –
Everything is well – I hope these crisis end soon, I wish I was with my comrades to face the full impact of this Battle;
I’ll be working harder and harder and I have been staying out of trouble – thanks for trusting me enough to let me be from good structure so long – I won’t let you down – thank you for your
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committment to each one of us – it becomes more real to me each day. I dont know how to thank you Dad, just I hope to see you all soon –
Your son
B. Stroud
Dad
[upside down]: Dad
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Note of December 14, 1977 from Bobby Stroud
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Dec. 14, 1977
Dear father
Thank you very much for helping Daisy, and for all you’ve done for us. I am sorry for letting you down so much – I saw this girl the last time I was in town – Just walked around and talked to her. and kissed her – But it wasn’t anything more – I haven’t seen her Since – and don’t plan to – I feel so bad to think that I have let you down after all you’ve Done for me – please forgive me. I’ll work harder each day.
thank you Dad,
B. [Bobby] Stroud
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Undated statement by Bobby Stroud
Dad–
Although I miss Daisy I think it’s more to her benefit that we are separated.
She can become more independent and probably develop all round; (character, commitment and understanding of principle). Better without me around – I wrote her urging her to make new friends and develop new interests.
Although I want to come home very badly – I will be here until I am told otherwise – I don’t have the right to have my way and I apologize for even asking. Thank you for everything.
Your son,
Bobby Stroud
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Thank You Note to Jim Jones from Bob Stroud, October 1978
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[Editor’s note: Bobby Stroud was injured while working in the jungle in the fall of 1978, and flown to Georgetown to recuperate from his injuries. He was still there on November 18, 1978. This letter was written during his hospital stay there.]
Dear Dad,
I am using this opportunity to catch up on my reading right now. I am reading George Jackson’s Blood In My Eye, a very inspiring account of his courage, plus other things on CIA and corruption in American gov. Plus I would like someone to send me copies of the news because the papers here don’t give the info or details that you provide (if possible). But mostly I want to say thank you Dad, thank you so much for saving me from death or worse, being paralyzed. I remember laying in the mud, my leg bent up like pretzels, and I kept calling your name – then, I heard your voice coming on a news tape [3 illegible words]. I heard your voice, it saved me. Please excuse my writing, I am on my back presently, but in time, I’ll be home soon. I really also can’t describe the feeling I get when I think of a Dad who has provided so much for me. In a couple of days it will be 1 year in Guyana for me can about 11 years since you’ve been my Dad. The doctors were at my bedside and Marie asked them if I should be sent away for surgery. I cried come up where else in the world could anyone get so much. What did I ever do to deserve a Dad and a family as this. I’ll never know because I certainly don’t deserve the extreme love you put out for me.
See you soon,
Your son, Bobby [Stroud]
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Letter from Daisy Lee Stroud, January 1978
Jan 28, 1978
Dear Jim,
Sorry I didn’t write sooner. I am now writing what I’ve stolen. I shall begin with Jonestown then Georgetown. I took a pen from the depository book room because I didn’t have any pens – once I had one I lent it out never got it back. plus a marker I took from court 3 where I used to live at because I didn’t have a marker. Before we had security at the banana house me and Bob took a couple of bananas. Sometimes nights I get bread ends from the kitchen because I was hungry – sometimes Bob was there Also I took a top at cottage 15 (where I used to live) because I liked the style. Joan and Lian saw me took it – I told wanted it. I must confess what I took in Georgetown too. I took some oranges, mangos and 5 [illegible word] on the window where Helen put them. The cocconuts were taken from the back yard and the garage and the oranges from the porch. I did this with people at times and alone. I stole out of hunger. Oh, I haven’t been getting anymore bread ends.
After being confronted on the floor I looked at myself I realized I am
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manupulative – I’ve been ever since I will a child. At the I’m being manupulative it is subconscious – only after I know. I will stop was manupulative. I will stop. Thank you for giving me a chance to correct myself and for all you’ve done. I am feeling better I stop thinking about myself. I also understand that attitude has an affect on health. The 31¢ I found while cleaning my room.
Thankyou Dad, Jim,
Daisy Stroud
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Undated note from Daisy Lee Stroud
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Dear Jim:
My haealth is improving greatly. I no longser have a mass but a lump. Thankyou. Last week I went down the river with Patty: Patty asked me to talk to a man named Persaid, who is a huster and works for the London Air Force. He is a windower – his wife died 7 years ago. He has 2 children a boy 7years old Terry and a girl 6 years old Jonnie.
He also stated that he goes to French Guyana once week and down the river every 2 weeks. Persaid wants us to adopt his children : if we don’t he will send them to the orphanage. He wants the best for them-education and home. Because he is constantly travelling, he doesn’t wants to take them along. He wants them to be adopted within 2or3 months.
At the present time, they are living with their relatives. He plans to remarry in the future. I asked why can’t his take them in he said she will not love them like her own. I don’t know how true this is-he said that he has a gold mine down the river. But he doesn’t have the right equip-ment to dig. If in couple months he still doesn’t have them, he will return to England to work.
His address: Lot 198
Montrose
E.C.D.
Georgetown
Thankyou Jim,
Daisy Lee Stroud
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