[Editor’s note: Rita Tupper joined Peoples Temple with her five children in the early 1970’s, and quickly became a devoted follower to the Temple and the political causes espoused by Jim Jones. This was most pronounced in Jonestown, where she dropped her last name and took the name of Lenin. As former Temple member Kathy Barbour wrote about her, “Rita was a stolid, sensible, sometimes taciturn woman who held a trusted position in Jonestown. It was she (and those she selected to assist her) who typed long memoranda for Jim Jones containing statements he had assigned all the residents of Jonestown to write, adding ‘call-outs’ to highlight responses (either positive or negative) that stood out, for his attention. She was also one of a few persons who could deliver messages directly to Jim from residents who wanted to write to him.”
[In part because of her assumed name, her (mostly undated) letters recovered from Jonestown derive from several sources, principally FBI Section 128 • EE-1 • Letters to Dad (K-M) and FBI Section 129 • EE-1 • Letters to Dad (N-Z).
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EE-1-L-70
Undated letter to Jim Jones from Rita Tupper [Lenin]
TO: Jim Jones
FR: Rita Lenin
Jim,
John Harris told the first night he came here that a lot of people were sure mad when I used the name of [Jim] McElvane.
He first said to me, what is your name now, I said oh you mean Lenin, he looked and I said that is the name you had given to us. He said no I mean the other name I said, oh you mean McElvane he said yeh, a lot of people were sure mad when you used that name. I said I don’t understand why, guess they misunderstood the reason behind it. He started to say something else about it, but had to go because the security guard was there.
I would sure like you to tell me what in the hell went on over that as it has caused me a lot of concern since I heard this. All I know is that Alice gossipped about it in some letters she had written to Renee. (Which I promptly turned into CL [likely Carolyn Layton, could be Carolyn Looman].) I never once said a thing about the name just signed it on my letters thinking nothing of it. Never once indicated to a soul – anything was going on between us, as it never has, just a friendship based on socialism.
I feel bad about this, and am very upset that this would go on when no one knew why I was using the name, never cared enough to ask just talked about it. People that should have had more principle. Well, I hate to think that Mac [Jim McElvane] was told any wrong thing about it. I could understand his not liking it if he did not know why I was using it, but I thought he was asked before I used it. I never once thought he liked me only as a socialist friend, and that was fine. It matters not to me what he does in his personal life, only that it would deter him from his path of communism. I would care if he lost his way, but nothing possessive etc. You understand what I am saying. Please let me know what went on, seems to me if I was talked about so much, I should at least know what was said, I hope no on had the impression that I would pull a Constance Harris on him please clear this up with me so I won’t be upset, cause I never intended to hurt anyone, my intentions were good ones, or at least I thought they were.
Rita Lenin
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EE-1-L-71
Undated letter to Jim Jones from Rita Tupper [Lenin]
TO JIM
FR: Rita Lenin
Letter Information
Wanda Souder –- Letter from her Dad, Archie Souder, says he has not heard from her in a month. (She has written the last two times the mail has gone out, but will have her write again.)
Her Daddy says, “He is concerned about them he says,” I talked to Hue [Fortson] and he said he got the bedroom set, I think he got it for you.”
Please find the letter written to Rhonda [Fortson] from Hue. Thought you might want to see this before dealing with Hue tonight.
Riat [Rita] Lenin
Might not Jair Bakers [Baker’s] situation on the following letter report also.
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EE-1-L-72
Undated letter to Jim Jones from Rita Tupper [Lenin]
TO: JIM
FR: RITA LENIN
Papers in Micalene Bradeys [Michaeleen Brady] Effects
She has a lot of letters that were written to Pat Patterson, that were never mailed
The letters seem OK, said nothing in them, but strange she had so many of them, and never mailed them.
Note to Dad: “I get hostile when we have to stay up so late at night with ass-holes, who get in trouble and don’t really give a dam about this cause just their own selfish ass. Sometimes I get hostile when you talk a lot of the P.A. not at night so much, but maybe in the day or early evening. When you might want to visit with a comrade and have to be quiet. When we have legs catharcists on Sunday afternoon. When spend a lot of time with same people.
Dated: Dec. 31, 77
note to dad: I told Bob Kice I was going to work I haven’t been able to sleep since you left.
Note to Dad Crossed Out: Dad I understand my daughter Georgiann Brady. Then she has written in two places ::::::: Michi Jones Michi Jones.
On back of this paper it says :::: Dad I feel that Bob Kice spends too much time. (That is all there was.)
Dad I think I know how to put potato salad
A note written to Joyce [Touchette] says, I Dorothy Buckley would like to be a house parent with Chris Talley. I would like to take care of children.
Note Hello I Dorothy Buckley would like to move in a home with Cris Talley having some children as our responsibility as soon if anytime. (Signed Dorothy Buckley)
Letter to Pat Patterson:::::
Dear Pat how are you doing, Iam writing because Id don’t know when I will see you again.
About out talk. I didn’t or don’t really want you to have another girl friend I don’t know how I can make it. If that happens I really really really did you and I don’t want to loose you to another or at all. I want your for me and I still need you lets not talk about breaking up any more ok?? Did you.
Michi
Miss you too write back if we don’t see each other next weekend.
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EE-1-L-73 – L-77
Undated letter to Jim Jones from Rita Tupper [Lenin]
TO JIM
FR: RITA LENIN
RE: WHITE NIGHT DISCUSSION
What Was Said in the White Night Discussion by JJ.
I am continually amazed at the absolute infaliable character I see in our leader
It defies all human understanding and comprehension as far as I am concerned. No where just no where else does this exsist, and doubt if it will ever again/
How so very painful it must be to have to believe all the pain you have gone through as you reveal to us again and again what great and unlimited sacrifices you have given to help this cause, and all of us.
My God, to have done so is absoulte proof of your high caliber of character. You spoke of how you had to give your body to both men and women to help save this cause from destruction, and also to save people from destroying themselves and or the cause by going out and talking about things (from information they may have had etc.) to save babies from starving, and becoming prostitutes– Oh so much you have given, and given.
As you spoke I thought how much pain it must be to have to tell it again and again not knowing if anyone ever listened or tried to understand what you were really saying about being communistic enough to give one’s all for their principals.
All this you have given and yet I can’t help but remember when at another time you spoke of the black girl that you loved so much and your best friend hurt you so by taking advantage of her, and here you would not go to bed with her cause you did not want to hurt her or cause a baby to come. (If young people would only listen with their heart, what a lesson in love, and character they could atain from it.) Then to think you had to relate to people so they would not betray and where at times it was repulsive to do so (that alone makes me want to be married to nothing butt principle, with a loyality that can only be broken by death itself.)
Even in death I would that my body be used to make something grow, to feed a hungry animal or whatever, or to blow up something (tie bombs around me and make still yet another use out of the remains, I don’t care what.)
For whatever it is worth Iam married to socialism till death do us part. Use me where ever you send me I will go foar my life belongs to the revoulation now!!
If I were young and interesting I would not be ashamed to give my body for this cause, Iam only sorry that I don’t have that attractiveness cause if I did I would use it to get information etc. Through your example I know it is right to do so
Anything is right when it is done for the furthering of the cause. It makes me upset when I see younger people who could be using their bodies to further the cause use it aimlessly and foar self fullfillment (but at the same time I understand young people have to learn and grow as we try to do.)
Iam so sorry that Iam not of more value intellectually or other wise, oh how I wish I was. How sad it is to desire to be of more service, and then to have to know you just haven’t got it, makes me heart broken inside. Why is it that thoes who deisre to do more have not the talent, thoes who have it aren’t always there to give it. (This has plauged me all my life.)
What character was shown by you as you drank the bourben, and then felt guilty because someone (everyone) did not have some. You felt guilty when you ate a bit of food because some one else could be hungry, and have no food.
How unterlly sensistive of you not even to take your medicine because it is too expensive so you lay it aside and wait to see if you must take it because lyour blood pressure is up. To set there through continual pain all the time is just too much, just too much.
Makes me feel dam guilty because I have no ability to do more, Iam so sorry so very sorry, I have such limited capacities.
How you told that you can’t even go to sleep with out dreaming about someone in trouble, so you don’t sleep for fear you might miss something that could help some one along the way.
How you humanly could have maintained so many people at one time with all you have on you is a mystery to me. How you have to explain everything you eat or every move you make, is indeed a terrible prison to be in. How you spoke of when you would come home your penis would be so sore that medical attention would have to be given to it, and we do so little so little to help you.
Gave up all your money for the likes of us, who give you nothing but trouble, heartache, and we sure do not deserve a second of your precious time. I consider it an honour just to see you pass by, and know that I have had the priviledge of bring in your midst, to have walked with you in the only work that is worth while
How you have saved so many from illness etc, and each time energy is taken from your body, there is not a second that you are not giving for us all, no peace for you (for everyone else but yourself, dam shake)
I could go on and on. How priviledged we are to have you share your heartfelt feelings with us, and how close one feels to you as we hear you pour out you heart (or at least I feel this way) thank you for sharing your life with us, it has made me grow immeasurably, and to realize how little I have done
After seeing you and listening to your heart pulse I realize how little I have progressed, and how damm far I have yet to go. So very far
In my opinion I feel that some you have related have turned out to be damm good people and work their asses off (I admire everyone of the ones Iam tihnking of CL. M.K. SA.) [Carolyn Layton, Maria Katsaris, and Sharon Amos.] There are others too but these three stick out in my mind. Have much respect for them and feel close to them as I see them work around the clock. If I ever hear anyone say anything about anyone you have named publically as having sex with them, then they will have to deal with me, cause I would protect them with my mouth and body. Mother fuckers who hear only what they want to hear. God dam them. I want to tell-Never once have any of the above made me feel less of a person because they have been close to you, and I think that is character on their part. (Of course lets face it I have never been a threat to them either, but I have seen them deal with difficulties [two illegible words lines]
If you have any suggestions how I can improve and become a better socialists please tell me so that I can grow, probably to shut up would be the best.
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One more thing I want you to know I really like it here now, and Iam greatful when I look at the beauty I see all around me, I love my little loft and Iam so greatful for a place to do my work in, thank you so very much.
I am amazzed for the progress that has been made in such a short time, nothing but your genius has done this.
I feel at home here now, and this took me a long while to acheive, for I think the secret lies in the fact that now I am willing to live, if need be, and I no longer resent doing so. If this is what is needed for the causes sake, before Id did resent it terribly, and this caused conflict with in myself.
I will do all in my power to see I go on living until the time comes to lay down my life, and now am at peace doing so (living, Im mean) The longer I live the moreschance the children have of living a socialist life in all of its splendor.
I am also ready to die whatever it is deemed essential for the revoultion. Life has meaning to me as long as I serve the revoulution, otherwise it is null and void, full of nothingness.
Life or death it matters no now whatever is needee to be done. So I will live as long as I must and do all I can to see that I do so, or I will lay down my life for the cause
I can take or leave life now (where as before I just wanted to leave life) no longer so, I would say this is grownth I have made in thelast few weeks, thanks to your example of sacrifice every day. (So you see sometimes you do reach some of us ass holes.) Iam at peacae now about this, no more inner conflict. Don’t give a damn either way. Live or die whatever comes, is fine.
Thank you for helping me to come to this, cause now Iam more content with in my self. I consider living a path that we must travel down to make socialism a reality in the world today, we must be the model [two illegible words] this is our mission as I see it.
Whatever I will die taking an enemy with me, or protecting one of my comrades
Thank you for giving us the name of Lenin, it has great meaning to me, it makes me feel better about myself, and makes me identify with the revolution each time I hear it. The name reminds me of a friend who would never leave you or forsake Y you. Don’t need a dam man cause I have a revolution that will never leave me nor forsake me, but will stay with me until the end, as a constant comrade ready to stand for what is right. Something to make me a fighter, for the right instead of destroying me as a woman
It has turned me into a person with purpose to her life
A person who can hold her head up high because (you) have made me believe I have some worth as a human being. All my life I have longed for someone to be a friend and to care about me as a human being just because I was Rita, (not because I looked a certain way, or I could be used, or shit upon, or I had something somebody wanted or wanted me to do.) But just because I was, Rita, fellow, human being.)
For the first time in 44 years. I now believe you like me just because I am, Rita, fellow human being, no matter all myfaults are, or how gross my looks are, or how limited my capabilities may be you accept as a person. All I can say it was well worth the wait, (for there is no one else you has the ability to accept people as people, but you) I am very skeptical about people as I have been shit on so much, I always believed you cared about everyone as human beings, but now I feel you might just like me as a fellow human being, just because I am Rita. Only took 8 long years for me to come to this point. It is nice to have a real friend based on nothing more then principal (which means you can accept me even though Iam a complete asshole, accept me as a human being.) Thank you so much
Rita Lenin
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Undated letter to Jim Jones from Rita Tupper [Lenin]
TO: JIM
FR: RITA LENIN
WHAT I THINK PAINS JIM JONES THE MOST.
I know that you are always in physical pain, and that you suffer much in your body daily, and Iam sure we could not even describe or realize the horrible pain you are alwaysin. Never sleeping always thinking about stragedies and saving the people, feeding us all etc.
I think you pain because you want to do moee for people, and that so many have not listened to “truth”
I believe the worst pain you must suffer is when you pour your heart out, and so few listen, have an attitude of “I don’t care ism”, and even sleep while you pour your heart and guts out. I also think it must pain you terribly that we have not grown any more then we have when you have given up all you had and been through so much for us, and we do not appreciate it enought at all, and it is taklen for granted so much of the time, and we, the people fail to realize what we really have here, and how fortunate we are—–. I thinhk also that it pains you to see us notlearning the news as we should, and that you have practically had to force it upon us so we can begin to think and “feel” for others around the world. So we will understand what we are fighting for, and why we are here. So we will die knowing what we really stood for. It must be painful for you to see us waste, and be careless with the peoples property, and not produce as we should, or think up creative ideas so we can make more money. Leave it all up on you, and expect you to take care of it all, make all the decisions etc. It must be painful for you to see us still hung up in sex, and petty things when the world is burning up, and about to be destroyed, and it pains you that all of our people are not here, and that there many who have not had the chance to see or hear you, and have not had the opportunity to come this way, I know it is painful for you to have been betrayed by thoes whom you have given the most of your self to, and what a hertbreak it has had to be to see them walk out and do the people, ndthis cause harm, just spit in your face, so to speak. It pains you to see us fighting with each other over petty things, instead of having unity. It must pain you that we have not come further then we have.
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EE-1-L-77
Undated letter to Jim Jones from Rita Tupper [Lenin]
TO: JIM
FR: RITA LENIN
WHAT JIM JONES MEANS TO ME, AND HOW I THINK HE SUFFERS MOST, WHAT PAINS HIM MOST
Jim is to me the best communistic leader of all history, the best and only true friend I have ever know. He means more to me then anything or anyone on the face of the earth. He is my leader, and teacher who has taught me what life is all about, and had I not met him my living would have been in v ain, and useless as would have my children’s. Because of Jim Jones, I have a reason to live and a reason to fight or die, which ever comes first. Because of him I feel for the first time in my life, that Iam worth something as human being, and I need nothing but principle to keep me going now. Iam no longer afraid or ashamed of myself as a person, Iam proud because Iam striving to become a communist. Jim Jones to me is Tim’s dad, and is a son who loves his leader, and Dad very much (as he is indeed always the topic of Tims mind and heart) Iam glad and greatful that Jim had so much love that he gave Tim a new life, and Iam proud of Tim as Iam proud of theother children. Jim is “character” to me and that is the character that I look up to, and I am continually amazed to see each and every day. Jim to me is “communism”, and the only one that can save the world today. Jim is the only thing that makes life worth living for me, and I hope I will always be allowed to be at his side fighting for freedom somewhere as long as there are battles to be won, for peoples freedom. It is Jim Jones example and character that has changed my life completely. I said to him years ago “Ihope I could stay by Jim Jones side for all eternity, and I still feel that way’
I am no longer one who is afraid, passive, or dependent on a man to survive, I now think it is the man who may need me, but I can fight and go on without anything, except principle. I have become strong since meeting Jim Jones. There is no one on earth I admire, like or believe in more then Jim Jones. He is indeed the ultimate of all things good, and principled. I am so glad he came our way and he cared enoughto take us in, that I had the honor of walking, talking, fighting with Jim Jones. Thank you so much, Jim, for all you have done for us all.
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Undated letter to Jim Jones from Rita Tupper [Lenin]
TO JIM
FR: RITA LENIN
Jim,
I am more than willing to go get Stoen, and his evil associates, since they stay in the same house it could be done all at one time. Explosives could be used. I could have some of that chemical that turns your skin black shot into my system, and when that has taken effect, could easily disquise myself up as an old woman (since they have a nursing home, maybe I could get in by having some agency help me apply for a place to live (nursing home) and get in that way. Course would need a drs order about my condition, but there are lots of ways to make one look older, and I always made up older well anyway. Die hair gray, and that really does age me (no teeth) changes appearances too etc. Then one night or day I could just blow us all up as they were meeting, and talking. Maybe more then one of us could apply to stay there, take both men and women ( or use to) as long as they get the money. Just would be important to them. They may not take blacks now and perhaps Spanish (I use to be able to look Spanish too, with a grey(hair) and makeup, but that would have to be a professional job.
Just a thought, but I could if not get in the home, just do it some dark night when they are all home in bed, or so busy they would not notice anyone outside. Our intelligence should know there schedule pretty well, and then they could tell us when to strike. Iam willing to help in any way I can to take the burden off of this movement, this is just one possibility. Of course I would not have any problem with a team of us going to do the job, to insure the success of it. Just say th word, and Iam ready, and willing to take any instruction andl advise to get the job done properly.
Rita Lenin
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Undated letter to Jim Jones from Rita Tupper [Lenin]
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Jim,
If there is anything I can do to help out in the Jim McElvane situation please know I am willing to do so. He has been a good socialist friend to me, and did help me one time when I was sick, and could not walk for some time. He stayed and helped me while others in the household went to movies, and left me alone, and I literally could not walk (due to my leg and back). When he saw this happening, he came and helped with phone answering etc. so I feel I owe him something for his kindness shown to me. My life means nothing to me, and I would gladly give it up to save him or anyone else that needed it. If he gets arrested I would like to be considered one to help go back and make amends (you understand) blow them and me up or whatever.
/s/ Rita Lenin [Tupper]
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Undated letter to Jim Jones from Rita Tupper [Lenin]
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C.L.
What about letter writing while Norman [Ijames] is here. He perhaps should not see opened mail – should letter writing be held any differently?
Rita Lenin [Tupper]
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EE-1-T-1 – T-5
Undated note to Jim Jones from Rita Tupper
Communist Leader
I feel it my duty to write and let you know some of the things that have happened to me the last 2 wks.
I do not know if this is because I had the wrong thyroid medicine, and its’ throwing my whole system off, or not.
If I did not feel it so strongly I would not trouble you at all.
I feel my whole personality has changed (I feel like a stranger walking around in the same old body.) I don’t feel like the same Rita at all. I feel like a stranger to my own self.
I did feel I would hurt or even kill someone (because of whatever change my body has gone through.)
The medication has helped “cover” this up but I don’t like taking it cause it makes you sleep all the time, and I don’t produce then, and I feel guilty.
I am so serious that I feel I must speak.
I have gone back to my childhood and thought about things I had forgotten.
Even felt I had been in a esponage [espionage] ring at one time and had blown up the enemies camps,
Thoughts of how I would plant myself in enemies camp and get information and destroy it. I felt as if I had been there before.
But most of all I just don’t feel like the same person. I watch myself closely to see what new change will come.
I am not superstitious and believe in nothing but you and communism. (one in the same.)
Most of these thoughts come at night as I sleep.
Except when I am up I feel like a stranger walking down the pathway. (This feels strange – so strange)
I don’t feel crazy and feel my mind is ok.
I feel this is something that must be watched – too drastic of a change in me. Feel it my Communistic duty to inform you of such a change.
One thing I know I would be ‘one hell of a fighter on the front line now,” but I know it must be controlled for now some how.
I am not sure what to do about it all.
I feel like I could almost write a book about what has happened to me.
Rita
P.S. One night late I felt like I should go to the radio room & just sit on the floor by you, just as if you were my only help, but I did not cause I would not bother you.
I did not want to talk or you talk to me it was just a “feeling” that I needed to be close to “The Body” and you know is just the opposite from me (I generally try to stay out of your way.)
I tell you this so I am not hiding the change that seems to have occurred.
Rita
P.S. did not take any medicine
today, [I] feel nervous, but hate the sleepiness it causes.
Can’t forget what happened to [Eugene] Chaikin so I want a good look taken at this sudden change. I want nothing but to be a Communist.
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Undated statement from Rita Tupper
Rita Tupper
Why we came from U.S.
One reason we came was because of Senate Bill 1427.
We came because of Racism and Capitalism in the U.S. Came to avoid concentration camps.
We came because the U.S is headed for 2 separate societies one Black, one white. The uprising of KKK and Nazisam [Nazism] in the U.S. Both believe in ‘White supremacy’.
We come to flee the death penality [penalty] that has been lowered to the age of 14 yrs. in Calif.
The Bakke decision – that say Blacks can no longer obtain an education in the medical field & etc.
The “Nutron Bomb” that kills people and leaves all property standing is another reason.
The chemicals that are being put in water to kill only Blacks.
Threat of Genocide aimed at minorities, “Germ Warfare”
The fact you can now be arrested just because you did not say something the way someone wanted you to say it.
You can now be arrested if you even assemble saying you intended to create a riot.
Blacks & Minorities are arrested and treated with brutality just because they are “minorities” Unjustly arrested and mistreated End up in jail all the time for things they have not done or for things of a minor nature that “whites” get by with.
We came because we are in the middle of a ‘Conspiracy’ that was brought about by enemies “within” and is undoublty [undoubtedly] “backed up” by money and people in “high places.”
They want to destroy us because we are the Socialists and because we left the U.S. and we are very much a threat to them. Those that were “with in” hate us because they can’t stand their “own shit” and are miserable.
Can’t live with themselves and so they don’t want anyone else to live. They are Capitalists at heart – no conscious [conscience] at all.
There were only 3 Countries that did not sign the Human Rights Bill – Chile United States South Africa.
Russia has the Laser Bomb and will have the Necular [Nuclear] Bomb.
We are in Guyana because it’s run by Blacks and other minorities it’s Socialistic politically and this is where we can build a life of Communism. People are treated equal in Guyana, no blatant racism here as in the U.S.
Less crime in Guyana then America. Police are a force “to help the people not hurt them.”
The Oil Shortage in Iran is also a major factor.
Those of Color are respected here and not considered second class citizens.
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EE-1-T-73
Undated Note from Rita Tupper
Jim,
If I can be of any help in securing the place, or watching outside at night let me know.
I would gladly put my body in front of John’s or anyone else’s to protect them from harm.
I am concerned about Kimo [Jim Jon Prokes] too. I know there are no legal grounds he can be taken on, but would they try to kidnap him just to hurt you, or provoke you into a fight.
Grace, other enemies do know about him.
If I can help more in any way please let me know. Seems like I could do something more to help this cause.
Rita
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Undated statement to Jim Jones from Rita Tupper
Communist Leader
I will attempt to write my feelings on sex as you requested.
My main desire in life is to be a Revolutionary. This is what it’s all about.
I decided to open up myself to you as never before because I now honor “Truth” above hiding ones feelings. I believe this is detrimental to our cause and ones self.
I know sex is not love and is something that is used to exploit others, or use others.
I could never communicate as a child or adult verbally until after I had been with you for some time. My warmest outlet then became through sex, and this was my way or means of expressing my feelings.
My first sexual experience was at 3 yrs or so, and it was one of warmth rather than honor/horror.
Of course I was raped, which wasn’t so pleasant a few yrs later in an ambulance.
My experience has been limited because of “religious upbringing.”
I have always liked sex and have never felt I had all I wanted. I am not a passive sex partner though by outward appearance I may appear so.
I feel it’s Counter Revolutionary at this time, but I
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would just like to be honest and not keep my feelings inside.
I can remember vividly in Ukiah when I lived alone with the children that I needed a sexual outlet so badly that I would literally scratch the paint from the wall because there was none. I have never told anyone this but it was horrible to know you had no one to help you.
My only expression for 21 yrs had been through lots of sex with Tupper.
I have no control over the physical feelings that were drastic.
The same thing is happening again and it makes me want to scream – no outlet.
Perhaps my ovaries are out of kilter or something because I have not felt like this need for several years. I just want to be “honest” I wonder if this is part of my nervousness too.
I feel “guilty” to have these physical feelings when I know that sex is not important but Revolution only.
I can’t deny the feelings however, and wanted to honor your honesty by my being honest. I want to try and be honest with you because before I was afraid you would dislike me
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for it, or think me stupid.
I will control it but wanted to look “inside myself and be open and honest.” Isn’t easy.
Age doesn’t seem to be a factor in ones “physical feelings.”
I feel attracted to you because of your character and because you are the greatest Teacher Leader of all time.
To say I have not ever wanted to go to bed with you would be a “lie.” I just “hid it.” I just felt the warmth you would give would be real.
I am not by any means even for one minute asking this of you – just speaking honest feelings.
I had a Dad only until I was 7 yrs old, and he was kind to me but never had a Dad for long, mom died when I was 30 yrs old.
I just felt I had not been “honest” with you and wanted a chance to be so. Well at least once in my life I had good taste.
Feel no burden about this, just be glad I at last “trusted” enough to say it. Just hope it’s not embarrassing coming from such an “old woman.”
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I will tell you this I have the “highest regard & respect for you because of the life you lead, your principles.
I feel honored to have been a part of your “staff” Highly honored. I felt I owed you this honesty. Thank you for allowing me to be so.
Would appreciate it if it did not go any further. It’s an honor to one just to be around you and “learn” as you speak “Truth.”
I feel I had hostility toward you because I was afraid you would laugh at me for saying this, but I don’t think so now. My embarrassment cause I was older I guess.
As a child I did have limited Lesbian experience with a girl friend. Just kissed, but of course had never heard the word “Lesbian” in those days.
I like Jim McElvane but it’s not sexual. I respect him and want him to be Communist all the way.
Tell you why I like him – I saw him change from a play boy so to speak to a “socialist.”
I have gone with him on his job at times and saw the “Honkies” treat him badly, and he kept right on. Sometimes he would
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drop in to the house and just explode after a days work because of the damn white assholes he worked for.
We always talked about the Cause and your suffering. We would encourage each other to keep on working for our Cause.
Never once did he ever take any advantage of me nor I of him.
He once “called me a nigger,” which touched me deeply.
One time as we drove from from S.F. He was so sleepy I stopped and got coffee in Cloverdale (as he was the only driver). The people inside were drunk, and I could hardly get out of there.
As I looked out I saw police cars gathering around where Mac was parked.
I hurried back to the car and said “Mac, they would have had to kill me before they got you[,”] and he said “I was just about to get into my brief case, ‘cause I was determined they weren’t going to hurt you without a fight from me.” We both thanked you for our lives. Ever since then we just made it our business to keep each other on the Socialist path, and this brought comradery of a Socialist nature. This is the way it should be with us all.
The last time I was in L.A.
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he said, “Rita how do you feel, haven’t had a chance to see you. (this was after Tim had about lost Sandy etc.)
I said it hurt; but pain makes you grow, and I am even more determined to fight in a Revolution.”
Mac said “Rita, I hope that someday you and I will be side by side fighting in that Revolution together.”
We both knew this was what was most important in our lives and this was how we intended to use our lives.”
To me the above experiences have meant more than any stupid Romance could ever mean. Fighting side by side in a Revolution – How beautiful.
Thank you, thank you.
I only expressed sexual feelings so I could feel “honest” with you.
I do consider it a “high honor to just be around you. Thank you.
Thanks for loving our Tim.
Rita
P.S. I am expressing my feelings (not Macs) I just want him to be able to fight as he wants to for this Cause.
I would like to use the name MacElvane (no strings attached) instead of Tupper if Jim & Kay would permit it. (of course you, first).
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Undated letter to Jim Jones from Rita Tupper
Jim –
Regarding the talk with Eva [Pugh] and others.
It is evident that many long years ago your love for people began – The many miracles of saving Esther’s [Mueller] life – and going after her when she left home, had to find her by the paranormal.
How you saved your father-in-law from being falsely accused of getting the lady in the nursing home pregnant and telling the minister it was he. (Too bad he did not remember this when the news approached them in Indiana not long ago)
How you stood up and told Jim Pugh and others the errors in the Bible – It is interesting to note how long some have walked with you.
Saving Esther and Jimmy – Stone etc. from car accident and saw to it they came out ok and Esther not having to stay in hospital.
How you saved Esther from being hit by a bullet, you had called concerned about her.
I remember many others I have heard you talk about before – how you brought home strangers to be fed as a child – How you integrated the hospital you were a patient in before you would stay and many others.
It is indeed proof of your character throughout the years. Some I could not hear
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from the dorm.
Your whole life has been for no one but others, you have sacrificed so much.
All this lead [led] to the making of the Greatest Revolutionary in the world today.
I respect your dedication, Courage and your character that is one of the utmost integrity.
I am hostile as hell, but I believe it is at people not you.
By no means do I have a problem with any closeness you may to feel for anyone. I hope you understood this – I was talking about three assholes who flaunt relationships in front of you. I don’t begrudge anyone what they need or think they need – it just seems it’s time for Revolution now.
Please know that C.L. or Maria does not in any way bother me – In fact I feel a special Sisterly warmth to them because of their dedication and hard work they do. I think they should be around you, after all they do know your mind, are trustworthy, and do have your sons to care for – so please know I was not referring to this in any way. I don’t care what or how you feel about anyone as you have given all, and deserve any
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assistance you can get or comfort if you ever get any. I just name these 2 as they are close to you – Thought maybe I wasn’t clear in last letter.
Only person who has bothered me was Joyce Touchette, and I will tell you why. It’s so obvious she follows you around, and what really pissed me off is a few wks. ago she was making such obvious eyes at you (during Peoples Rally) then another time laid her arm & head on your chair right in front of the whole congregation – I felt this was so presumptuous on her part, and insensitive on her part to do this in front of everyone. It was disgusting, such a lack of discretion – Now her motive may be innocent; but this makes me pissed to have to see it, and then feel unwanted because I have no one to receive some “warmth” from – we are all Human, and need some sort of warmth in a personal sense. I don’t begrudge her that, just don’t like it flaunted in front of me. This may not be the situation, but it just looked out of place at Peoples Rally.
Perhaps I do feel bad because I have no one to relate to – I am not sure.
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I know I feel I want some warmth at times – guess I feel like I die inside at times because of a lack of it.
You are the most loving person in the world, but it’s hard for me to relate this to personal warmth.
I am selfish and stubborn and at times want to say fuck it and walk away; but your example makes me not do it because you are right. I do it because it is right. I feel hostile at times because I feel “stuck” and can’t go anywhere – I guess I just want to be alone at times – selfish but a need I have.
I tend to let small things build up until they become big instead of dealing with them while they are little.
I feel rejected because I’m not on the staff anymore as it meant so much to me – Gives me a useful feeling. I know you didn’t reject me – but I feel no longer needed or wanted. This is stupid, but I want you to help me get this out so I will not hide my feelings anymore – I want to be honest no matter how stupid it sounds. I miss being with those I worked with in S.F. being in on any planning etc.
I am attracted to you because I admire your character and I know you are the only one who cares about me as a human being Yes I have sexual attraction to you but so what
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I like Jim McElvene and I know he does not like me and so I guess this bothers me some; but nothing I can’t live with. I am not necessarily speaking in a sexual manner however. He has given me kindness & warmth, and never touched me. One can have closeness without sex but I must admit I still like sex and I know it’s not Revolutionary. So I keep my discipline – age is no factor in one’s physical feelings. For my age I have a hell of a lot of physical feelings – I think this is why I am so tense – no outlet.
I just wanted to be more honest with you, I don’t trust everyone but I must be honest with my leader
Rita Tupper
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[Editor’s note: This note from unknown person was attached to Rita Tupper’s letter above]
Summary
– she is basically hung up on sex. She doesn’t mind if CL [Carolyn Layton] & Maria [Katsaris] are close she says. She feels warm toward them. She thinks Joyce T. [Touchette] is presumptuous around you in the public meetings and resents this a lot. She likes MacElvane, but knows he is not interested in her. She doesn’t necessarily want sex with him, but likes him. Attributes her tenseness to lack of
Basically a manipulative note – I think in response to your public condemnation of her letter.
Says she is very hostile, but not at you.
She feels rejected because she is not on staff anymore. (I could have her do some organizing and filing) You might explain to her or I could that there is no staff anymore. You rarely use charts anymore, etc.
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Rita Tupper Note on Behalf of Ethel Bell
Why we left the U.S.
I am writing this for Ethel Bell as she tells me her answers. Rita Tupper
We come from the U.S. to get away from Racism and concentration camps.
We get away from chemicals they put in the water to kill Blacks.
To get away from nuclear bomb. To get away from the bomb that will kill the people but not trouble the land & property.
3 countries, Chile, America, Africa would not sign some paper
Father delivered us just in time.
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Rita Tupper Note to Maria Katsaris, September 1978
Tues Spt 12
Maria
Ruth brought this to the house this morning. She said Dad doesn’t really have to see it, it is just her opinion. She was not going to turn it in but Ava Jones kept asking to read it, and when she did, Ruth felt she must turn it in (because Ava & Joyce are close & she’s afraid this may get back to Joyce). But Ruth wants you to see it.